A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter 119

Book Two – Ch.# 11 

“You were never meant to grow up in a city like this. Our kind stays together for a reason.” I could hear what Kieran was saying, but I was struggling to fully grasp it.

‘Not human.’

‘Our kind’.

‘Werewolf’.

The words kept swimming around in my head. An explanation that seemed too impossible to believe. And yet, at the same time, what he was saying somehow made sense.

He was right. I wasn’t human. A part of me had always known that, dating back to when I was a child. I was never like the other kids at the house. Turning eighteen had just manifested that part of me in the form of a beast.

So… was this what had been missing then?

I was a werewolf? Like in those scary stories?

Like… in those *monster* movies…?

“…How do I make it go away?” I asked after a few moments, my voice barely louder than a whisper. “How do I stop being… a werewolf? To be normal?”

“Raven… it’s a part of who you are. There isn’t any way to remove it.”

“But I don’t want to live with this burden of losing control at any moment,” I argued. “I can’t afford to have slips when things go wrong, or have this constantly interfering with every little thing I do. I’m living in a nightmare every time I lapse.”

He took another few cautious steps towards me but I didn’t back away this time. With every word he spoke, my resolve to push him away faded a little bit more. It was as though his presence had a soothing effect on me and I couldn’t deny that I needed that right now.

“…It doesn’t have to be a curse,” he said slowly. “I can help you manage it. You didn’t grow up learning about the things you needed to… but I can teach you. It’s not too late.”

He held out a hand to me, as if inviting me to take it. Offering me something that no one else had ever before; A chance to live my life without fear.

…But what would it cost me?

“I just need you to trust me, Raven,” he said, making my gaze shift from his hand to his eyes

Familiar. There was familiarity when I looked at him, the same feeling I’d experienced when I first met him. As if I’d always known him. Whatever this reaction to him was, it was strong enough to sway every behaviour in my life.

If I believed him and accepted that this influence wasn’t due to foul intervention, then did that mean that my body had been telling me to trust him this whole time? That it was recognising

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in him the same condition I was born with? Was that just a normal connection between what we were?

to have investigated and then

just as upset if I continued to fail

had been the only ‘solutions’ given to me up

offer me a solution, filling my head with false promises if I kept conforming to the rules. He was offering me a way to take back control despite that very issue plaguing me. A way to learn how to harness

the blackouts from happening?” I asked carefully, taking a slow step towards him. “And the sickness? Will I stop wanting to throw up every time it’s about

Blackouts? I can’t say I’ve heard of that being a common symptom… but it’s possible you’ve been fighting against yourself too much. The more you try to stop the shift from happening, the more painful and uncontrollable the whole process is. I can walk you through it and help you so that it won’t happen.” He sounded so genuine that I wanted to

my cheeks starting to burn a little. I was used to faking romantic interest in people, but this was different. It was an uncomfortable new situation for me.“… The

“The sparks?” he clarified.

push through it. “So, if you really didn’t drug me, then is this a normal thing between

was his turn to shuffle a little

that’s a bit of a complicated question,” he fumbled as

met. I needed to know if there was a way to manage this too so I

Oh.

question to ask His eyes immediately snapped back to my own, a look on his face that

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I felt as an ache pulsed in my chest, the question

gravitation pull around him that was so hard to ignore. Was he also feeling the same thing I was? I couldn’t be the only one who found this frustrating But then another question came to mind, taking me by surprise. …Did I even want the feelings to go away? Truly? It was at that very thought that

“…Raven?”

over it, but ended up wincing involuntarily and

heard him ask, but I wasn’t able to

few days in a basement. My body

 

the way so he could lift

Within seconds, I felt as the

So much stress, confusion and confliction. I must have been pushing myself too hard. Wait… today…

Oh shit.

completely forgotten about

slight falter in my tone. “But I need to leave. I have someone

were already far too tempting. “I ah… I need to know how to shut out the voices,” I said. “I can’t seem to go through with what I need to do, almost as though it’s a mental block physically stopping me.” “…What do you mean

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immediately. “Sorry… I have to take this…,” I said turning around, and proceeded to hit the answer’ button. “Hello? Rae?”

think it was strange. He was meant to be cleaning up a

…Fuck.

of the fact that Kieran could hear me. “The client wasn’t home so I said I’d

“What? Rae, I thought—.”

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