Book TWO – Ch.# 29

…I couldn’t believe I was actually thinking of doing this.

Again

I should have already learnt niy lesson by now… no, I really shouldn’t be trying to make it stronger. I already knew how dangerous that side of me was. And yet Kieran looked at me with those puppy dog eyes, making it feel impossible to deny him.

…So here I was.

Contemplating doing the very thing I was sure would make him happier than it would make me.

I knew he wanted me to be completely healthy again, to be able to do the things he could do, to try and… fix me. Which wasn’t a bad thing, per se. It was great. It’s just… I wasn’t sure if I was ready for that yet. This wasn’t like asking me something trivial. He was asking me to connect with a beast who had terrorised me for years.

A shiver went through me as I recalled every time it had happened, remembering the blood and bodies. Remembering… the pain. Not even Kieran had been sale last time, it having lashed out at him as well. “I’ll be right here with you, I promise,” Kieran said, disrupting my thoughts. It won’t be like the last time. You don’t need to worry.”

Right.

Because the medicine should have stopped the suppressors by now… which should theoretically stop the pain… which should then stop the blackouts… and the death toll after it.

So simple. Logical

Surely nothing bad would happen again. I could do this.

And so I held my breath tentatively. “…Okay, Kieran,” I said, feeling numb. “I’ll do it.” And I agreed to do the very thing that terrified me.

I stood a foot or so away from him as we got started, watching him carefully. A small tremor was shaking through me, but I did my best to push through it. Now, more than ever, I needed to focus entirely on what Kieran was trying to tell me.

It quite literally could mean life or death.

“Deep breath, Rae,” he said, doing it himself as if to remind me how.

Yes… thank you for that.

But I still did it regardless.

“Okay, now… close your eyes… and reach deep inside. Try to connect with her,” he instructed

I wanted to be sick.

“Rac… close your eyes,” he repeated, seeing me hesitate.

…And I did as he asked.

So basic. This was meant to be straightforward biology. Because turning into a woli was meant to be normal. Yep, just a totally ordinary thing to do.

But as I reached down towards it inside, I felt a spark of revulsion. One that stemmed from the idea of letting it control me once more. It was like tempting late, opening the door to allow it to hurt others; something that I had sworn to leave behind as I began my new life.

And so I said… no. No more Never again.

If we were to do this… then we were going to do it my way

And I quickly grabbed ahold of the creature lurking, its teeth bared at me from the shadows of my mind and I threw it to the surface. I threw it to the surface and held it in place, forcing it to do what I willed it to.

An action that was then swiftly followed by the sound of my joint cracking.

SNAP
…And another…

*SNAPPpo

…And another….

And soon I felt pain overcome me, my body shifting and twisting in all sorts of ways I didn’t think possible. Contorting into new shapes, burning with every modification … a loud orchestra of flesh and bone moving that overwhelmed my

ras

you still with me?” I

III

bad as the last time. It felt manageable… And I kept if that way. Though

concentration to achieve.

Kieran had moved to my side, I could tell that much. Maybe to try and get a reply from me. But it wouldn’t matter for long. No, I could feel

another moment before everything stilled. The world

“Rae?” Kieran asked.

IP

FDE

him, my vision now different. Though truthfully, it wasn’t just my vision. As I moved my head, it seemed as though everything was

control. But not

to be that way for everyone. Whatever I was doing was clearly working and it meant that I could feel more

in a way that I hoped

prove I was better. Well… here I

A wolf.

in the skin of the monster

to try going

I think I mostly just wanted to change

+

1

the assumed next step as he proceeded to start shifting himself. And, before too long had passed, his

this form, It had very clearly been

charge. It felt more… animalistic

was holding that side of me back? That there was

if he could, he

follow him, I could

built… and by the time I was finally taking my first steps, moving for the very

thin.

suddenly… it broke. **Shift back. NOW*,’1 demanded

2.2

was like an elastic band that had snapped. But I managed to command this one last thing, saying it a second before it was too late. And, to my relief, my body started to revert

was over… for now. “What was that?” Kieran asked, a few moments later. “Is everything okay?” He’d been much faster at shifting forms

fine,” I replied. “I’m

that fear had shot through me. I’d been

ICT

he

arms, I was unable

in no time. Don’t worry about it.” Oh, but I was worried. Of course, I was. This was yet another thing I needed to overcome. Another thing to prove my worth to stay here. And so, just as I learned

 

Conquer… *t*

The beast inside.

you ready to leave?” Kieran asked as I

first since the one held for my welcoming. I assumed it would be easier than the last given I knew a lot more now. I’d had time to get to know the

“Ready.” I smiled.

left for the dining hall to meet

I was thanksul that she could carry the conversation easily without much help needed on my end. Truthfully, her presence still put me on edge, but I’d been getting better at focusing my mind. Now, I could sit here talking to her without paying it much attention at all. Like an annoying buzzing background noise that I’d learned to live with, but instead of noise, it was an urge to lash out at her. Putting it to the back of my head was just a way to enjoy her company in a weird, convoluted way. Whatever worked though, I guess. “…And then after I went to the temple, I went for lunch at

sounds nice,” I

her next words that then took me by surprise,

time to do that. The wind always feels amazing against your fur, don’t

incident, feeling sick at the whole thing. And suddenly I felt the burning

both.

um, nothing much. The usual,” I vaguely

“Did you – ,”

the bathroom quick,” I said, cutting her off. “I’m so sorry, I’ll

but I hadn’t meant

Kieran asked, probably realising it

“Back in a minute,” I reassured. And I left towards the bathroom, moving before

any harm, but her words had been a badly timed sting. I didn’t know the feeling she spoke about, I didn’t know how it felt to casually go running… I didn’t even know how to enjoy

rush,” then came a voice to my left. 11 had interrupted my concentration so harshly that it made me

The Novel will be updated daily. Come back and continue reading tomorrow, everyone!

Comments ()

0/255