A Gift from the Goddess

Book Two-Ch#. 34

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“…What? …What did you just say?”

I instantly looked up at him, unsure if I’d even heard him right.

Because he didn’t just say what I thought he did… right?

“I’m in love with you, Rae,” he repeated.

…No, he’d definitely just said it.

My heart thumped loudly in my chest.

“I want to spend every morning waking up next to you… every night kissing you until we fall asleep,” he continued. “I love your eyes, your smile, your laugh… I love the way you make me feel as if I matter. Not just because of my position or the mate bond, but because of me. Of who I am.”

I felt frozen in place, unsure how to react.

Because I had strong feelings for him as well, of course I did. But… there was another thought in my head. More important than anything else.

Because did Kieran even love me? Truly? Or did he just love the girl I’d been pretending to be this whole time?

I was unsure if he still would have said this to me if he knew the truth. The whole truth.

…Including my dark past.

“…Kieran… I’m not, ah…,” I started.

How do I tell him I’m not as perfect as he probably thinks? …That, up until recently, my day job was espionage and murder?

“…I’m not… as great as I might seem,” I said slowly. “I’ve loved every moment spent with you, every single minute you’ve given me. In fact, I struggle to think about what my life would be like without you now. But… the truth is….”

I shakily inhaled, forcing myself to do so since it felt as though I couldn’t breathe. This was something I’d been putting off for so long now that I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.

Everything was about to come crashing down… but I didn’t want to lie anymore.

And so I closed my eyes for a second, accepting it had gone on long enough.

“The truth is… I’m not who I seem,” I finished, meeting his gaze again. It was hard to keep a strong face. “I’m not a good person. And… I’m sorry. Sorry for keeping it from you… for leading you on… I’m sorry for letting myself become so wrapped up in wanting to be with you that I selfishly ignored it.”

“What…? I don’t understand what you mean.”

“I mean… I’ve done truly horrific things,

Kieran,” I said honestly, my eyes beginning to water with tears. “I was raised to handle the dirty side of my father’s business, no matter what that entailed. Sterling’s death was just a reminder of how that side will always be a part of me.”

“Don’t say that. Sterling tried to assault you. That doesn’t make you a bad person

“-But Killing more people than I can count probably does though.”

The words left my mouth too quickly to stop them… and they hung in the open between us.

“… You deserve better, Kieran. So much better,” I said quietly. “…Better than a rogue.

He held my gaze for a moment and it was the first time I’d ever seen such confliction in them. A look I never wanted to see. Not from him. Never from him.

“Rae…,” he started.

But then he sighed, rubbing a hand across his forehead.

…Rae, your past doesn’t matter to me,”

he finished. “It never has. When I brought you here, I made a vow to keep you safe and protect you from those who wanted to hurt you. That included your father, someone who I had already assumed had you doing some shady stuff.”

“But that past is still a core part of who I am. You can’t just… ignore it,” I said.

mind would blame you for that. In fact, if I had it my way, I would have already confronted that monster for what

things,” I argued.

Rae, you didn’t. You just wanted to please a man who only sees you as a

I wanted. At what point can I say it was no longer ignorance but simply innate nature to do what I did? That I’d been dangerous even

I had never even tried

to do better but… if we’d never met? I would have probably kept on serving my father unquestionably until the

that really the kind of woman Kieran wanted to be with?

“All that matters to

lightly touched my cheek, the warm sparks no longer feeling like

you want to be. And I promise I’ll accept

caught in my throat,

voice trailed off.

A person of interest

that perspective… I was done.

Mission success.

could be with him now. How we were fated together and how this was some fantasy dream of saving me from my old, terrible life. A prince raising a girl from the

I was no

of death… just as

here

maybe the next time I brought trouble here, it would be far, far worse than simply an uncle who had it coming. That sometimes people are born as

know,” I finally

racing as I spoke, wanting nothing more than to tell him what he wanted to hear. But… I’d told myself I was done lying to him. And

repeated, firmer this time. “I’m sorry, Kieran.”

could have burned from my memory the way he then looked at me. A look of hurt and pain, and one that instantly made me

out,” he said. “I’ll be waiting for you. I always will be. There is nothing you could do or

only made this more difficult. He was deserving of a mate who could be what he needed. Not… whatever mistake I had been.1

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end though, those words of his were the last spoken about it for that night. The atmosphere was tense, my head was pulsing with a headache, and everything felt… wrong.

him I really was now. A dangerous thing for someone as conflicted

deserving of someone like Kieran? Was

slipping back into old habits one day, unable to distinguish

his complete acceptance of my past did prove one thing to me however;

a genuinely good person, through and through.

I would never be.

day, I awoke

to dwell in my own thoughts, the sheets feeling colder than I remembered them to

that I would never become

part of me? To

to be ‘Rae’ for Kieran’s sake, but what

I sighed, my head

confusion, I would need to make a decision sooner rather than later. Dragging this out was only going to hurt both of us. Clearly, he was just as determined to fix my past as he was to fix my wolf-shifting problems.

troubles?” Allison said, catching

breakfast, feeling in a daze as I did so. I hadn’t

I said quietly,

her head tilted in innocent confusion, her sweet nature showing

wrong?” she asked. “Did something else happen?”

to worry about…

apparently wasn’t good enough of an

to do

at her more attentively. ” How…?”

saw him this morning,” she explained. “Maybe more tired than you.”

Oh.

to hurt him. All of this stress was because I was trying to avoid that very thing from happening one day, though far worse in the future, I was sure.

she said. “A little surprise to make him feel better.”

that’s going to fix

be good. Plus, I’m sure you’ll enjoy it too. There’s no

“What…?”

merely held out

it

Raven,” she

And I felt myself concede, grabbing her hand as she then led

are we going?”

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