A Gift from the Goddess

Book Two-Ch#. 34

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“…What? …What did you just say?”

I instantly looked up at him, unsure if I’d even heard him right.

Because he didn’t just say what I thought he did… right?

“I’m in love with you, Rae,” he repeated.

…No, he’d definitely just said it.

My heart thumped loudly in my chest.

“I want to spend every morning waking up next to you… every night kissing you until we fall asleep,” he continued. “I love your eyes, your smile, your laugh… I love the way you make me feel as if I matter. Not just because of my position or the mate bond, but because of me. Of who I am.”

I felt frozen in place, unsure how to react.

Because I had strong feelings for him as well, of course I did. But… there was another thought in my head. More important than anything else.

Because did Kieran even love me? Truly? Or did he just love the girl I’d been pretending to be this whole time?

I was unsure if he still would have said this to me if he knew the truth. The whole truth.

…Including my dark past.

“…Kieran… I’m not, ah…,” I started.

How do I tell him I’m not as perfect as he probably thinks? …That, up until recently, my day job was espionage and murder?

“…I’m not… as great as I might seem,” I said slowly. “I’ve loved every moment spent with you, every single minute you’ve given me. In fact, I struggle to think about what my life would be like without you now. But… the truth is….”

I shakily inhaled, forcing myself to do so since it felt as though I couldn’t breathe. This was something I’d been putting off for so long now that I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.

Everything was about to come crashing down… but I didn’t want to lie anymore.

And so I closed my eyes for a second, accepting it had gone on long enough.

“The truth is… I’m not who I seem,” I finished, meeting his gaze again. It was hard to keep a strong face. “I’m not a good person. And… I’m sorry. Sorry for keeping it from you… for leading you on… I’m sorry for letting myself become so wrapped up in wanting to be with you that I selfishly ignored it.”

“What…? I don’t understand what you mean.”

“I mean… I’ve done truly horrific things,

Kieran,” I said honestly, my eyes beginning to water with tears. “I was raised to handle the dirty side of my father’s business, no matter what that entailed. Sterling’s death was just a reminder of how that side will always be a part of me.”

“Don’t say that. Sterling tried to assault you. That doesn’t make you a bad person

“-But Killing more people than I can count probably does though.”

The words left my mouth too quickly to stop them… and they hung in the open between us.

“… You deserve better, Kieran. So much better,” I said quietly. “…Better than a rogue.

He held my gaze for a moment and it was the first time I’d ever seen such confliction in them. A look I never wanted to see. Not from him. Never from him.

“Rae…,” he started.

But then he sighed, rubbing a hand across his forehead.

…Rae, your past doesn’t matter to me,”

he finished. “It never has. When I brought you here, I made a vow to keep you safe and protect you from those who wanted to hurt you. That included your father, someone who I had already assumed had you doing some shady stuff.”

“But that past is still a core part of who I am. You can’t just… ignore it,” I said.

blame you for that. In fact, if I had it my way, I would have already confronted that monster for what he did to you. The fact he’s still allowed to breathe… it boils my

still did all those things,” I

just wanted to please a man

wanted. At what point can I say it was no longer ignorance but simply innate nature to do

person and I had never even tried to be. Not before Kieran, at least.

have probably kept on serving my father unquestionably until the day one of

really the kind of woman Kieran wanted to

to me is who you are now. Who

he lightly touched my cheek, the warm sparks no longer

you want, Rae… who you want to be. And I promise I’ll accept

my throat, constricted with

voice

person of interest to befriend for information.

just located. From that perspective… I was done. I should have already left and returned back home to my father.

Mission success.

had a glimpse of how good life could be with him now. How we were fated together and how this was some fantasy dream of saving me from my old, terrible life. A prince raising a girl from the ashes to lead as his queen.

I was no queen.

harbinger of death…

was no room here for a

then perhaps the kindest thing I could do would be to leave. Because maybe the next time I brought trouble

know,” I finally

But… I’d told myself I was done lying to him. And the truth was that

firmer this time. “I’m sorry, Kieran.”

memory the way he then looked at me. A

I always will be. There is nothing you could do or say

I did my best to blink back tears, I knew it was words like that which only made this more difficult. He was deserving of

paperwork error by their

those words of his were the last spoken about it for that night. The atmosphere was tense, my head was pulsing with a headache, and everything

just how dependent on him I really was now. A dangerous thing

Kieran?

one day, unable to distinguish between right and wrong in a moment of lapse?

complete acceptance of my past did

good person, through and

would

I awoke feeling

my own thoughts, the sheets

to guarantee that I would never become that person again?

me? To start fresh

be ‘Rae’ for Kieran’s sake, but what if that was also

my head hurting once

the confusion, I would need to make a decision sooner rather than later. Dragging this out was only going to hurt both of us. Clearly, he was just as determined to fix my

said, catching

wandered to the kitchen to grab breakfast, feeling in a daze as I did so. I hadn’t even sensed her nearby.

said quietly, giving

tilted in innocent confusion, her

wrong?” she asked. “Did

about…

of an answer as she

do with

at her more attentively.

saw him this morning,”

Oh.

little to hear that. The last thing I wanted was to hurt him. All of this stress was because

might cheer him up,” she said. “A

to fix this,

it’ll be good. Plus, I’m sure

“What…?”

of answering, she merely held out her hand for me to take.

it warily after

Raven,” she said. “Please?”

hand as she then led

going?”

“It’s a special restricted area of the