A Gift from the Goddess

Book Two – Ch.# 45

I was a devil.

Never before in my life had I felt those words to be truer than in this moment. This very second as I stood above the bodies of several enemies as they bled out around me. Nothing but rage and pain consumed me inside, feeling absolutely no remorse as I had ripped them to shreds.

From one person to the next, I had methodically ended each of them, an incredible speed in my movement as if I were maneuvering purely by muscle memory alone. Not that I had really needed to act so quickly. Because the entire time I had attacked, they had just stood there completely still, awaiting their turn. Like lambs to the slaughter, unable to move even an inch… just as I had told them to. Only a flash of fear in their eyes betrayed them as I stole their last moments.

Now, I breathed heavily, still shaking from the ordeal… still completely in human form, yet feeling as if I’d had no control over myself…. Nor had I wanted it.

No… I might have moved without being fully aware of my actions… but I didn’t fight it.

I’d relished it.

But as I started to come to grips with what was happening, there was apparently one thing that was finally able to break my trance.

Just one sound capable of bringing me back to reality.

…The soft whimpers of Myra behind me.

Immediately, I spun around and ran to her, finding her body growing colder as the wound gaped open. A sight that made me sick to look at.

“…Mmmm… Cai? Is that you…?” she asked, struggling to really see me.

I quickly reached for her wound, trying to apply pressure.

“No… It’s Rav- it’s Rheyna,” I said. “I’m here. I’m… I’m going to get you out of here.”

But her lip twitched into a faint smile, her eyes turning upward towards the sky.

“Rheyna… I’m not immortal,” she said softly, her voice so quiet. “Youthful longevity does not make me invincible. Besides… I think this is the universe’s way of finally correcting itself. I think… I think I was always meant to die in this clearing. No … I was told that I did die here once. In another timeline. How… poetic.”

“Myra… Myra, you’re not making any sense,” I said desperately. “Timelines? I don’t…. I don’t understand.”

And she closed her eyes, shaking her head ever so slightly.

“No… I don’t suppose you would…,” she said, slipping away.

“Hey! Myra! You need to open your eyes now

I’m going to get you out of here,” I cried, trying to shake her a little. “I’m going to save you. I’m going to… I’m….”

“Rheyna… leave me… behind. My time… is done…,” she rasped, her breathing becoming more shallow. “Please… save Clarissa. Promise me… you’ll save her.”

“NO! Don’t say that… I refuse. You’re not allowed to stay behind….”

It was getting harder to see her through my own tears, yet it was clear that she was quickly losing consciousness despite everything I was doing to try and save her.

“Did you hear me, Myra?!” I choked out. “I said you can’t stay here. You can’t… you can’t leave me.”

to relax, a calm washing over her… and as I felt her last breath slowly leave her,

“…Cai,” she sighed.

was over.

She was… gone.

her, choking with so much agony and yearning. To have had something so briefly, something that gave me hope and filled a hole that

world was too

what I’d always wanted… only to rip it away. Just

It was sickening.

said to my left, limping towards

her during my attempt to run to Myra, having

on the trees ahead. Never

was enough to reignite that same spark of fury inside

my eyes. “You knew and you didn’t say anything. If you’d just told me

finally snapped to meet my own,

“You’d miraculously carry both me *and* an exhausted Myra to safety whilst we’re being hunted? Get all three of us killed when you’re inevitably slowed down severely? I know you’re

attitude quickly made me angrier, standing back up to confront her.

insane?! What she ‘wanted’?” I shouted. “Are you actually implying

“That’s exactly

you even saying right

“But she grew tired of being alive a very, very long time ago, Rheyna. She knew that commanding all of these wolves would mean she’d become incapacitated, and she was prepared for this very outcome. She was ready. And now she has died in a way that honours the very thing she always held dearest; her commitment to those she loved, the only thing that has kept her going for so long. Don’t discredit her sacrifice due to your own selfish desires for

you bring up my

glimpses from the side, I could have sworn I saw a bit of moisture near her

mother figure. And no matter how many times I see her death, it never gets easier,” she said quietly. “However, at the end of the

“…What?”

before turning to look at me once more. “At the end of the day… all of this is going to be in vain if we don’t leave. Right now. Did you really want

tiniest morsel of sympathy I’d had for her

I did realise she was right. On one thing, at

want to make Myra’s sacrifice mean nothing.

up. We don’t have much

ass behind for how she was treating me. But… Myra had wanted me to save her. It was her

felt like I had no choice.

she instructed, the two of us quickly sprinting into the woods once more.

going?” I asked after a minute, though I hated

my guide and now, without her, it really was like I was running blindly in the dark.

left here,” Clarissa said. “We’re going to start looping around the

asked confused. “Why? We’re already

speak, they’re sending people to the northern border. They’re expecting us to try

scent and

can’t run forever… they’ll catch up

Rheyna. And I’ve already got a plan for that. But, just for now… keep

said, choosing not to argue

for some time, a length

I managed to push through it, unwilling to fail again. Even if it was just for an entitled, bratty girl who I was quickly starting to loathe.