A Gift from the Goddess

Book Two – Ch.# 48

“What?!” I yelled, feeling as if my legs were going to give out from under me. “What did you just say?”

… You killed him,” she repeated, stating it in a matter-of-fact way. “Why are you so surprised? I don’t think I’ve ever seen you look so queasy about killing someone before.”

Was this some kind of sick joke? How could I not be surprised to hear that? I owed so much to Kieran that even the thought of ever physically hurting him seemed unthinkable.

“…Rheyna… the way you’re acting…,” she started, looking confused again. “It’s almost like… well, it’s just… you don’t have feelings for him, do you?”

Instantly, I became flustered feeling put on the spot. This conversation had taken such a turn that I didn’t know how to react.

“Well, I… I-I mean…,” I stuttered. “He did so much to help me….”

And Clarissa’s face paled even more, clearly not expecting that answer. “…I thought you were just joking. I never expected you of all people to fall for him, let alone give a shit about the mate bond. Rheyna, his sister literally tries to kill you, not to mention she brings doomsday. He’s just like the rest of them-.”

“-No,” I said, cutting her off. “No, he’s not. He’s different.”

But Clarissa just shook her head slowly in disbelief. “…This is a bad dream. I can’t believe this is happening right now,” she whispered to herself.

How could I be so different to my past self? None of this was making any sense. If this timeline was meant to align with the first one, then how was it that we had completely different mindsets towards Kieran? Let alone have it in me to… do that to him.

…Almost as if I’d never changed from the Raven I’d been for my father.

“You need to reject him as soon as possible,” she then said. “I mean it. There is a war coming, one that we will emerge victorious. But I can’t have you distracted from what needs to be done in order to achieve that.”

“Reject’? I already told him we couldn’t be together…,” I said, unsure of her meaning.

However, she sighed, clearly annoyed by my ignorance. “I mean you need to break the mate bond. Officially reject him. Normally, it’s one of the first things you do upon returning. Once there is no connection between you, it removes one more catalyst for Allison. Plus, it’s not like you usually care about magical bonds anyway.”

…But it wasn’t really the mate bond that had made me fall for Kieran. It was merely something that added to it.

“I need to warn you that it’ll be incredibly painful,” she added. “But the pain will become bearable if you just don’t pay attention to it. After a while, it’ll… sort of become like background noise. Or so you told me. Though I don’t think the dreams. ever truly stop, unfortunately.”

“That sounds horrific…,” I pointed out. How the hell would that help either of us?”

“…Because if there comes a time where you finally have a chance to end Allison once and for all…,” she started darkly, “…then I need to know you won’t hesitate in doing what needs to be done. We can’t have anything holding you back from our mission.”

I stood perfectly still, confliction flowing through me. She wasn’t wrong in thinking it had been Kieran’s influence that had stopped me from attacking Allison sooner, but… that didn’t mean I wanted to go through with what she was proposing.

“Rheyna,” she said, snapping me from my thoughts. I looked towards her tentatively. “I need you to promise me that you’ll do this.

Book Two Ch.# 48

That you’re committed to the cause and doing whatever it takes.”

“I…,” I fumbled.

Hadn’t I told Clarissa I’d stop fighting her and do exactly what she said? To put my faith in her? And whilst I hadn’t expected this… wouldn’t my pain still be worth it if it meant ultimately saving so many people?

“I… Okay,” I said, though my voice lacked any real confidence. “I’ll… I’ll reject Kieran when we next cross paths.”

Clarissa immediately looked relieved. “Good. I’m glad at least some sense can get through to you.”

She continued to talk after that, rambling off about how the rejection process worked, but the entire time she spoke, I just stared down at my hands. Almost as if I were seeing them coated in the blood of doing something unspeakable to Kieran… and it reminded me of something.

Weeks ago, when he had convinced me to try shifting in the Lockdale City Hotel, the time I had awoken from the blackout believing I had killed him… it had felt so real. I’d seen the blood everywhere, saw the large gash across his chest.

that image of him actually been a…

then went through my

for the best I didn’t recall my past

“Rheyna!”

looked up

“Are you listening?”

to stop thinking about the memory any further. ” Sorry… just trying

she said. “We’ve still got a long journey ahead, though… speaking

at just the thought of carrying her

where? Aren’t we still being hunted? It’s not like we can

I pointed out.

shook her head.

can go to stay hidden,” she said. “You

through the options presented, but none of them seemed right. The safest place to hide from Ashwood had recently been with my father… though

come to an

hide a body? Or… in

recognition instantly clicked… followed by

don’t

Just long enough to eat the soup and

to make the last part of the journey on foot. She didn’t need to explain further about why. My first attempt

lead to an interesting explanation.

the differences between influence and orders. This had been something nagging at me ever since Clarissa had demanded answers about the guard during the escape.

order someone was within the authority of a Saintess, one holding the power of the Goddess. An irrefutable command that forced the other to do as they wished, regardless of the pack they hailed from.

own choice. Completely undetectable as they took all responsibility for their actions. And this

needed to influence

ordered them. Demanded that they allow me through. Something that was noticeable to those around them,

specifically in recent times, someone

that it really

to the Silent Forest pack… and then, finally, one and a half days of trekking until we eventually made it safely across the border. A task that

did successfully make

now?” I huffed, continuing to walk down the main road out of habit. “It’ll be another few days if we try to walk

aware,” Clarissa

not actually expecting me to walk all the way there,

have to. We made it just in

could hear the sound of a

I asked incredulously.

she simply answered by holding out her little thumb

meant to explain why we’re out here? There’s nothing

think of something,” she said.

watched as a huge transport truck then started to slow down, pulling over to

over

asked the man. “What are you doing out

…Think…

said awkwardly. “Car battery

to Lockdale. But wouldn’t it be better to drop you off at Swanston? It’s a lot closer and there

condition. Her specialist lives

that sick though, then wouldn’t it be better to get her checked-.”

could help us

appreciate it….”

moments, his expression softening as he

he agreed. “Better to see the specialist. I’ll give you a hand to lift her into