A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 47

Alena

The drive was long and tiring so when I had reached the villa, all I could do was lay down on the king-sized bed.

My eyes were swollen from crying throughout the whole drive which made it even harder to keep them open. Memories of our marriage kept replaying in my head and I had regretted my impulsive decision but I kept going, wanting to leave it all behind. At least for the time being. Luckily enough I was s still

on maternity leave because if not, I was going to risk my career too. A career I had worked hard for was not worth risking; despite my current mental health issues. I looked up at my hands, feeling them oddly light without the two rings.

I had somehow gotten used to wearing them, that somehow it felt empty now.

Just like that, the tears began to fall again. The sobs used to be quiet but now I didn't have to hide them anymore as they filled the quiet room.

I didn't know where else to go other than our vacation villa which was located seven hours away from our home-it felt far enough yet somehow safe. This villa was always empty, we only occasionally stop by whenever we wanted to be away from the city but the last time we went, we had filled the villa with beautiful memories.

My hands soothed the sheets, somehow they smelled like home.

I couldn't understand the main reason behind all of this but I knew I wanted my own time alone, further else.

When the time came, I was going to home.

go

I just didn't know where home was anymore.

away from anyone

As I closed my eyes, I remembered back to when Matteo had brought me here. He carried me all the way from the car to the front door, in bridal style. We felt like newlyweds even when we had been married for months at the time.

The way he kissed my lips and showered me with his love; he was always perfect.

also remembered when he took care of me when I was sick. Those rough nights with high fever that I had to be admitted to the emergency, not once did he leave my side. He had stayed beside me the whole night, holding my hand until he fell asleep. I realised I how hard

hard it was to love me. Yet, he pushed through and made it seemed so easy.

Throughout my first trimester was hard but he made the journey bearable. Every morning was the worst because I couldn't stop going to the bathroom to throw everything up, yet he soothed and comforted me. He fulfilled my cravings. He understood my mood swings. I was blessed with a good husband. Why was I throwing it all away?

My heart ached at the thought of losing Matteo. We were never apart ever since we got married. Now, I was convincing myself we just needed a bit of time away until we could think straight, without hurting each other.

I knew if I told him the reason why, he was never going to let me leave.

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This was a healing journey of my own until I could find peace within. It didn't mind how long it was going to take for me to find it but I wanted to come back stronger and better, where Matteo and I could be ourselves again.

hurt him. I hated

went through before me and I never wanted to put him

I

my time to walk down the stairs and glanced at the

sighed, pulling the

how much of a mess I was. I spent hours driving on my own, crying and I didn't even

yourself,

I asked, closing the

"I have my ways."

"Shit-"

before I could say the

a

be

it

is going

two?"

Still

me." I shrugged, making my way towards the kitchen with her trailing

by the grocery store before coming here. At least I could eat something in the morning. Maybe, for as long as I was going to be here.

car. That's how I found you," she

us, it's only for the sake of our

stare. Knowing her well enough, she had a lot to say but she was trying hard not to burst. She had a lot to ask as well. "Matteo and your father are looking everywhere for you." Mama added, grabbing my hand before

"Did

tell them? Did

No.

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wrapped her arms around my body. I hadn't felt the warmth of her body in awhile and how much I had missed her touch, regardless of how far I went. She was always my

like that, sweetheart. You're my strong

girls don't breakdown."

the time. How you come

him." I muttered, knowing well enough I meant

to know it was Marco I meant. Mama was the most excited after Matteo when she heard about my pregnancy and she had planned many things. Of course, when I had lost Marco, she was the most disappointed

she

to anyone and she never blamed me for my angel baby. She knew Marco

all do, sweetheart. We all

ache, hating the fact I could never

tell Matteo

long do you plan on staying

long as

sighed, "He

just can't be around