A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 100

Alena

I swore I didn't even catch a glimpse of Ana moving as she tried to process the words that came out of my mouth. She stayed frozen in her spot, staring at me as if I had just dropped a bomb-it was unintentional for it come out that way.

After what happened with my previous pregnancy, it was hard news for everyone. I had mixed feelings with myself because I couldn't understand if I was supposed to be happy or sad by my current pregnancy. I was still grieving Marco but I knew I needed to move on.

I had assumed this was a second chance for me to move on after Marco. However, I was doubting myself if I could ever move on from my baby boy. I was scared if I couldn't be the best version of myself when I became a mother, especially if I still had glimpses of Marco in my mind.

It wasn't going to be an easy journey for Matteo and I but we knew we needed this to move forward. Life was too short to stay sad. Besides, we both knew our boy, Marco was in a better place. We just needed to accept the face instead of camouflaging the truth. "That's... that's news," Ana replied.

"I know. That's why I don't want to tell anyone else,"

"Alena," she called out before she went to pull me in for a hug.

I didn't understand my own feelings and I thought a hug wasn't going to be a relief. However, the moment Ana wrapped her arms around my body and pulled me in, I knew I needed that the most. I felt so close with my sister, something I hadn't felt in awhile. As a woman to woman, she understood me better than anyone else.

Matteo could be there for me and support me but I knew he had his own struggles as well. I couldn't always depend on hi for my own comfort because it was going to drain him. I never wanted to drain my own partner mentally for the sake of my well being. "When did you find out?" She asked, looking at me.

"Yesterday," I replied.

"Does Matteo know?"

I nodded, slightly smiling.

Truth be told, I was happy by how accepting Matteo was with the whole situation but I was still having doubts with us. Maybe, he had to accept my pregnancy because it was our baby. Maybe, he wasn't even ready yet but he had to be ready. He wasn't going to say those words to my face, it was bound to ruin me,

Then again, I could just be judging him and pretending I could read his mind.

""How do

you

feel? Are you okay?"

The two main questions. The ones that could determine if I was fine or not.

My heart broke at the thought of Marco, knowing I had lost him forever. My baby boy was never going to come back into my life even if I wanted that more than anything else but what if I was given another chance at happines? What if this was the rainbow baby? I stared

at

the answer even if I tried because I couldn't determine my

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I okay? Was I fine? How was I cooping with this? The questions lingered in

okay but I'm still not sure," the truth came

after what happened. This is all still new

I fail again, Ana?

the greatest person I know and you deserve so much more than what life can

could my sister be ten years younger than me but

was the one persuading me to feel better. I remembered when I was her age and I was going through a lot. I knew she was going through a lot on her own as well but she had a good way of

know

human beings going through life without knowing what's going to

can't tell Mama. It'll break

you be so

after I lost Marco. I don't know how

us throughout our whole lives and she was the never the one to question her daughters. Please, she'll be there with you through this whole journey and it'll be a lot easier to

guess I need all the support I can

to reconnect with my sister. I had wished for her to be around more often but I knew she had her own busy life to deal with. "You'll get all the support you need, alright. I'll always be here

a little bit confused. "What do you

"Actually, I'm transferring here."

surprise,

but it's not worth it. It's not worth missing out on family just because I keep craving freedom. I want to be

my god. Ana... you've got to be kidding

always

we could, jumping up and down in

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was the chance forme to reconnect and strengthen

told

You're the

we couldn't be bothered. Our cheers were loud in the kitchen, it had caused Matteo to stand by the doorway to check up on us. He was always worried if anything happened especially after I was kidnapped, he knew the enemy could come at any time and he needed to be

is transferring here. She'll be around more often,"

great. You'll have someone around when

way." Ana added,

to know. However, he immediately smiled before he went to place his hand on my waist-he knew by the smile on my face, I needed all the happiness I could get. Besides, Ana deserved to know. "I