A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 100

Alena

I swore I didn't even catch a glimpse of Ana moving as she tried to process the words that came out of my mouth. She stayed frozen in her spot, staring at me as if I had just dropped a bomb-it was unintentional for it come out that way.

After what happened with my previous pregnancy, it was hard news for everyone. I had mixed feelings with myself because I couldn't understand if I was supposed to be happy or sad by my current pregnancy. I was still grieving Marco but I knew I needed to move on.

I had assumed this was a second chance for me to move on after Marco. However, I was doubting myself if I could ever move on from my baby boy. I was scared if I couldn't be the best version of myself when I became a mother, especially if I still had glimpses of Marco in my mind.

It wasn't going to be an easy journey for Matteo and I but we knew we needed this to move forward. Life was too short to stay sad. Besides, we both knew our boy, Marco was in a better place. We just needed to accept the face instead of camouflaging the truth. "That's... that's news," Ana replied.

"I know. That's why I don't want to tell anyone else,"

"Alena," she called out before she went to pull me in for a hug.

I didn't understand my own feelings and I thought a hug wasn't going to be a relief. However, the moment Ana wrapped her arms around my body and pulled me in, I knew I needed that the most. I felt so close with my sister, something I hadn't felt in awhile. As a woman to woman, she understood me better than anyone else.

Matteo could be there for me and support me but I knew he had his own struggles as well. I couldn't always depend on hi for my own comfort because it was going to drain him. I never wanted to drain my own partner mentally for the sake of my well being. "When did you find out?" She asked, looking at me.

"Yesterday," I replied.

"Does Matteo know?"

I nodded, slightly smiling.

Truth be told, I was happy by how accepting Matteo was with the whole situation but I was still having doubts with us. Maybe, he had to accept my pregnancy because it was our baby. Maybe, he wasn't even ready yet but he had to be ready. He wasn't going to say those words to my face, it was bound to ruin me,

Then again, I could just be judging him and pretending I could read his mind.

""How do

you

feel? Are you okay?"

The two main questions. The ones that could determine if I was fine or not.

My heart broke at the thought of Marco, knowing I had lost him forever. My baby boy was never going to come back into my life even if I wanted that more than anything else but what if I was given another chance at happines? What if this was the rainbow baby? I stared

at

of what to say. I didn't have the answer even if I tried because I couldn't

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I cooping with this? The questions lingered in

don't know. I feel okay but I'm still

especially after what happened. This is all still new

if I fail again, Ana?

"Don't ever question yourself like that. You are by far the greatest person I know and you deserve so much more than what life can offer you. Losing Marco was the worst but maybe, this new baby can be a

ten years younger than me but

the one to give her advice, to support and guide her but she was the one persuading me to feel better. I remembered when I was her age and I was going through a lot. I knew she was going through a lot on her own as

don't know that,"

without knowing what's going to

Mama. It'll

you be so

don't know how she will be able to accept

the one to question

I need all the support I

before pulling me in for a hug again. It was nice to feel the warmth of her body against mine especially when we hadn't seen each other in awhile. It was good to reconnect with my sister. I had wished for her to be around more often but I knew she had her own busy life to deal with. "You'll get

my brows, a little bit

"Actually, I'm transferring here."

widened in surprise, "Holy shit.

and his crazy plans but it's not worth it. It's not worth missing out on family just because I keep craving freedom. I

my god. Ana... you've got to be

I'm always kidding around but I'm

her in for a hug. We were hugging each other as tightly as we could, jumping up and down in excitement. I had always wanted

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to reconnect and strengthen

you told Mama

yet. You're the first

hug once more, this time it was longer and tighter. I swore we could have problem breathing if we hugged much longer but at this point, we couldn't be bothered. Our cheers were loud in the kitchen, it had caused Matteo to stand by the doorway to check up on us. He was always worried if

transferring here. She'll be around more often," I replied,

great. You'll have someone around when

the way." Ana added,

waist-he knew by the