A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 100

Alena

I swore I didn't even catch a glimpse of Ana moving as she tried to process the words that came out of my mouth. She stayed frozen in her spot, staring at me as if I had just dropped a bomb-it was unintentional for it come out that way.

After what happened with my previous pregnancy, it was hard news for everyone. I had mixed feelings with myself because I couldn't understand if I was supposed to be happy or sad by my current pregnancy. I was still grieving Marco but I knew I needed to move on.

I had assumed this was a second chance for me to move on after Marco. However, I was doubting myself if I could ever move on from my baby boy. I was scared if I couldn't be the best version of myself when I became a mother, especially if I still had glimpses of Marco in my mind.

It wasn't going to be an easy journey for Matteo and I but we knew we needed this to move forward. Life was too short to stay sad. Besides, we both knew our boy, Marco was in a better place. We just needed to accept the face instead of camouflaging the truth. "That's... that's news," Ana replied.

"I know. That's why I don't want to tell anyone else,"

"Alena," she called out before she went to pull me in for a hug.

I didn't understand my own feelings and I thought a hug wasn't going to be a relief. However, the moment Ana wrapped her arms around my body and pulled me in, I knew I needed that the most. I felt so close with my sister, something I hadn't felt in awhile. As a woman to woman, she understood me better than anyone else.

Matteo could be there for me and support me but I knew he had his own struggles as well. I couldn't always depend on hi for my own comfort because it was going to drain him. I never wanted to drain my own partner mentally for the sake of my well being. "When did you find out?" She asked, looking at me.

"Yesterday," I replied.

"Does Matteo know?"

I nodded, slightly smiling.

Truth be told, I was happy by how accepting Matteo was with the whole situation but I was still having doubts with us. Maybe, he had to accept my pregnancy because it was our baby. Maybe, he wasn't even ready yet but he had to be ready. He wasn't going to say those words to my face, it was bound to ruin me,

Then again, I could just be judging him and pretending I could read his mind.

""How do

you

feel? Are you okay?"

The two main questions. The ones that could determine if I was fine or not.

My heart broke at the thought of Marco, knowing I had lost him forever. My baby boy was never going to come back into my life even if I wanted that more than anything else but what if I was given another chance at happines? What if this was the rainbow baby? I stared

at

say. I didn't have the answer even if

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okay? Was I fine? How was I cooping with this? The

don't know. I feel okay but I'm still

what happened. This is all still new for both

I fail again, Ana? What if I get another

head before cupping onto my face, "Don't ever question yourself like that. You are by far the greatest person I know and you deserve so much more than what

years younger than me but filled with

was her age and I was going through a lot. I knew she was going through a lot on her own as well but she had a good way of hiding it without letting anyone see

don't know that," I

beings going through life without knowing what's going to happen next. That is what makes

tell Mama. It'll

you

don't know how she will be able to

to question her daughters. Please, she'll

guess I need all the support I

warmth of her body against mine especially when we hadn't seen each other in awhile. It was good to reconnect with my sister. I had wished

little bit confused. "What do

"Actually, I'm transferring here."

surprise, "Holy shit.

on family just because I keep craving freedom. I want

my god. Ana... you've got to

I'm always kidding around

other as tightly as we could, jumping up and down in excitement. I had always wanted my little sister around because growing

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was the chance forme to

you told Mama

yet. You're the first one to

have you around!" My lips curved up into a wide smile before I pulled her in for a hug once more, this time it was longer and tighter. I swore we could have problem breathing if we hugged much longer but at this point, we couldn't be bothered. Our cheers were loud in the kitchen, it had caused Matteo to stand by the doorway to check up on us. He was always worried if anything happened especially after I was kidnapped, he knew

be

You'll have someone

on the way." Ana added, causing Matteo to turn and

my waist-he knew by the smile on my face, I needed all the happiness I could get. Besides, Ana deserved to know. "I told her. I hope you're okay