A Lifetime With You by Athrhteera

Chapter 100

Alena

I swore I didn't even catch a glimpse of Ana moving as she tried to process the words that came out of my mouth. She stayed frozen in her spot, staring at me as if I had just dropped a bomb-it was unintentional for it come out that way.

After what happened with my previous pregnancy, it was hard news for everyone. I had mixed feelings with myself because I couldn't understand if I was supposed to be happy or sad by my current pregnancy. I was still grieving Marco but I knew I needed to move on.

I had assumed this was a second chance for me to move on after Marco. However, I was doubting myself if I could ever move on from my baby boy. I was scared if I couldn't be the best version of myself when I became a mother, especially if I still had glimpses of Marco in my mind.

It wasn't going to be an easy journey for Matteo and I but we knew we needed this to move forward. Life was too short to stay sad. Besides, we both knew our boy, Marco was in a better place. We just needed to accept the face instead of camouflaging the truth. "That's... that's news," Ana replied.

"I know. That's why I don't want to tell anyone else,"

"Alena," she called out before she went to pull me in for a hug.

I didn't understand my own feelings and I thought a hug wasn't going to be a relief. However, the moment Ana wrapped her arms around my body and pulled me in, I knew I needed that the most. I felt so close with my sister, something I hadn't felt in awhile. As a woman to woman, she understood me better than anyone else.

Matteo could be there for me and support me but I knew he had his own struggles as well. I couldn't always depend on hi for my own comfort because it was going to drain him. I never wanted to drain my own partner mentally for the sake of my well being. "When did you find out?" She asked, looking at me.

"Yesterday," I replied.

"Does Matteo know?"

I nodded, slightly smiling.

Truth be told, I was happy by how accepting Matteo was with the whole situation but I was still having doubts with us. Maybe, he had to accept my pregnancy because it was our baby. Maybe, he wasn't even ready yet but he had to be ready. He wasn't going to say those words to my face, it was bound to ruin me,

Then again, I could just be judging him and pretending I could read his mind.

""How do

you

feel? Are you okay?"

The two main questions. The ones that could determine if I was fine or not.

My heart broke at the thought of Marco, knowing I had lost him forever. My baby boy was never going to come back into my life even if I wanted that more than anything else but what if I was given another chance at happines? What if this was the rainbow baby? I stared

at

of what to say. I didn't have the answer even if I

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I fine? How was I cooping with this?

feel okay but I'm still not sure," the truth came

is all still new

I fail again, Ana? What if I

onto my face, "Don't ever question yourself like that. You are by far the greatest person I know and you deserve so much more than what life can offer you. Losing Marco was the worst but maybe, this new

sister be ten years younger than me but filled with

support and guide her but she was the one persuading me to feel better. I remembered when I was her age and I was going through a

don't know

human beings going through life without knowing what's going to happen next. That is what makes

can't tell Mama.

you be so

I don't

we know Mama. She has always been there for us throughout our whole lives and she was the never the one to question her daughters. Please, she'll be there with you through this whole journey and it'll

guess I need all the support I can get

me in for a hug again. It was nice to feel the warmth of her body against mine especially when we hadn't seen each other in awhile. It was good to reconnect with my sister. I had wished for her to be around more often but I knew she had her

brows, a little bit confused. "What do you

"Actually, I'm transferring here."

surprise,

I wanted to pursue my studies away from home was to run away from Papa and his crazy plans but it's not worth it. It's not worth missing out on family just because I

my god. Ana... you've got to

I'm always kidding

as tightly as we could, jumping up and down in excitement. I had always

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the chance forme to reconnect and strengthen

told

yet. You're the first one

a wide smile before I pulled her in for a hug once more, this time it was longer and tighter. I swore we could have problem breathing if we hugged much longer but at this point, we couldn't be bothered. Our cheers were loud in the kitchen, it had caused Matteo to stand by the doorway to check up on us. He was always worried if anything happened especially after I was kidnapped, he knew the enemy could come at

She'll be around

someone

with the baby on the way." Ana added, causing Matteo

went to place his hand on my waist-he knew by the smile on my face, I needed all the happiness I could get. Besides, Ana deserved