Accepting My Twin Mates by Unwise Owl

Accepting My Twin Mates Chapter 11

Chapter 11 – Did I Want To Know?

Badru

I tried to make a joke… again… and it had backfired… again.

Evie wasn’t amused in the slightest. She actually shivered away from me further. My brother punched me in my bicep, making me glare at him before he absconded up the trellis. Like I needed a reminder of how stupid I was. Our mate looking at me with disgust was all the reminder I needed.

I just wanted to hold her properly. The only contact I had had so far was her sending me sailing through the air and the world’s most eye-watering nut-shot. Despite that, the tingles I had felt were all I wanted to feel for the rest of my life. My entire soul had erupted in life during our brief contact and there wasn’t another brush of skin I wanted more than hers. And her scent? What kind of pheromones was she emitting? I could drink the spicy vanilla aroma for eternity and it still wouldn’t be enough. I knew I affected her too. I saw how she checked out both Astennu and myself and swiftly turned her pink cheeks away, thinking she hadn’t been caught ogling.

I may have been the impulsive one, but I was confident with it. Evie, however, made me feel unnaturally insecure and I didn’t know how to approach her. I had innocently flirted with girls in the past, without it meaning anything; a cheeky wink here and there, flash a little grin and usually, girls tripped over themselves, giggling and blushing. This was all I knew and none of it was working with my mate. Goddess above, this woman made me nervous.

‘Maybe try and be a little more innocent. Appeal to her wolf, she’s the one that wants to communicate, I can feel it,’ my wolf suggested.

‘How the hell do I play innocent?’ Even as a child, I hardly looked innocent.

‘Bat your eyes and give her the puppy look! How can she say no?’ Baniti seemed awfully sure and enthusiastic about his idea.

I up-turned my brows, hoping this was ‘puppy’ enough to melt her wolf. She huffed loudly, throwing her head back… did I just win?!

Evie

The look Badru gave me was enough to melt me into the snow where I stood. I didn’t want to give up and lose this stand-off, but heavens, was it hard to resist those big deep blues of his… of both of them.

‘Oh for goddess’s sake, just toss the pup a bone,’ Evva sniggered. I noticed she was growing increasingly quiet. Was she linking with their wolves? Guess I was being guilt-tripped by everyone today.

I sighed loudly, admitting defeat. “What the hell, turn around. No way I’m holding on to the front.”

His face lit up instantly, like an excited pup on Winter Solstice morning, the werewolf version of Christmas. If anything, it made him even more deliriously handsome. He turned and dipped a little; we weren’t that vastly different in height, so it wasn’t as though I had to climb him like a tree. I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly and gripped his waist securely with my thighs, almost losing my grip when my ankle brushed against his rigid c**k. Goddess above, he felt perfect. The naturally strong scent from his marking site where my head lay on his neck wasn’t helping either in keeping me lucid. Its warm and maddening swirl of cinnamon and nutmeg coupled with being wrapped around his naked body was starting to make certain regions throb.

‘And you humans call us wolves the hormonal ones,’ Evva sniggered. Though I could feel she was overly enjoying our close proximity just as much, if not more.

The tingles, now that I could fully appreciate them, were simply wonderful. I would never admit to it aloud, but I never wanted to let either go. They were equal in strength and distinct in touch. Both instilled a sense of relief; the sparks from Astennu were a blanket, warm and steadfast and the sparks from Badru held excitement and devotion. The calm and the tranquillity came with a double-edged sword; as beautiful as they felt, I couldn’t hope to become attached to them.

brought me back

a pair of sweats that hung low showing his prominent V-lines, I couldn’t stop myself from backing away and averting my eyes as naked Badru climbed through afterwards. Thankfully, his brother handed him some

was palpable, bitter in its taste. I could feel their heated stare on my skin but I couldn’t make

just do it and we can all

and I had broken my promise not to cry in front of the twins once. I didn’t want to end up like Lucy… having my mates use our bond to hurt me, just because they

don’t wanna

there’s no debate in it,” Astennu tried to step forward towards me, but I took

Evie,’ my wolf threw her opinion

just accept them,

options,’ Evva said, determined and resolute. ‘But for that,

beginning to dislike her rational advice. It was too logical and reasonable when all

are you thinking?” Astennu spoke looking worried and making me realise I had been quiet

you’re not about to reject us, are you?” Badru asked with wide eyes and I could swear I could feel his and his twins’ abject

answer was: I truly didn’t know

would do none of us any good. “I need to think. And I

huge party for us. I want you on our arm, I want everyone to know we’re…”

listening to what I needed, not wanted. “You want people to know we’re mates, when I don’t even know whether I want to give you a chance? You go right ahead and be left standing there with your d**k

like I had just slapped them, hard, right across the face. Maybe I had been a little too brutally honest. I really need to learn how to

to feel my eyes sting once more

of you have really hurt me in the past… right now, I don’t know if I can just let that go,” my voice quivered. “I just need some time

truth. A rogue-born Luna… their parents would probably blow a gasket. But I didn’t need the hassle while I was trying to come to terms with all this. I didn’t need pack members saying I was no good, or saying I should be grateful and accept the twins, or that I was being an overdramatic b***h to make the guys wait. My position in the pack was less than favourable and them knowing I was mated to the heirs and to be their Luna, a whole separate issue I wouldn’t even begin to fathom yet,

damned traitorous tear slipped down my cheek. I swiped

of us are going to pressure you into anything,” and he made a point to look directly at his brother

all the time you need, baby,” Badru tried to smile charmingly, but he was seriously reading the

and rather viciously, I might add. He leapt backwards like I had

me, b***h,’ Evva preened

you’d

doesn’t mean I’m about to accept them so easily either. They want us, they earn us,’ she bristled, raising her metaphorical hackles. ‘Before was pillow talk

there would ever be a wolf spirit who was so resistant to the bond and yet here she existed. I would f*****g high-five her if I could. The snarl had even made me flinch. I didn’t know I would be able to make that sort of sound before shifting. We werewolves

thankful for the badass power move by my wolf and I silently appreciated how

hate us and you have the right to…” Astennu glanced

you… it’s just complicated,” I mumbled. I knew I could never truly hate them, ever. I was just a bundle of confused emotions and