Accepting My Twin Mates by Unwise Owl

Accepting My Twin Mates Chapter 11

Chapter 11 – Did I Want To Know?

Badru

I tried to make a joke… again… and it had backfired… again.

Evie wasn’t amused in the slightest. She actually shivered away from me further. My brother punched me in my bicep, making me glare at him before he absconded up the trellis. Like I needed a reminder of how stupid I was. Our mate looking at me with disgust was all the reminder I needed.

I just wanted to hold her properly. The only contact I had had so far was her sending me sailing through the air and the world’s most eye-watering nut-shot. Despite that, the tingles I had felt were all I wanted to feel for the rest of my life. My entire soul had erupted in life during our brief contact and there wasn’t another brush of skin I wanted more than hers. And her scent? What kind of pheromones was she emitting? I could drink the spicy vanilla aroma for eternity and it still wouldn’t be enough. I knew I affected her too. I saw how she checked out both Astennu and myself and swiftly turned her pink cheeks away, thinking she hadn’t been caught ogling.

I may have been the impulsive one, but I was confident with it. Evie, however, made me feel unnaturally insecure and I didn’t know how to approach her. I had innocently flirted with girls in the past, without it meaning anything; a cheeky wink here and there, flash a little grin and usually, girls tripped over themselves, giggling and blushing. This was all I knew and none of it was working with my mate. Goddess above, this woman made me nervous.

‘Maybe try and be a little more innocent. Appeal to her wolf, she’s the one that wants to communicate, I can feel it,’ my wolf suggested.

‘How the hell do I play innocent?’ Even as a child, I hardly looked innocent.

‘Bat your eyes and give her the puppy look! How can she say no?’ Baniti seemed awfully sure and enthusiastic about his idea.

I up-turned my brows, hoping this was ‘puppy’ enough to melt her wolf. She huffed loudly, throwing her head back… did I just win?!

Evie

The look Badru gave me was enough to melt me into the snow where I stood. I didn’t want to give up and lose this stand-off, but heavens, was it hard to resist those big deep blues of his… of both of them.

‘Oh for goddess’s sake, just toss the pup a bone,’ Evva sniggered. I noticed she was growing increasingly quiet. Was she linking with their wolves? Guess I was being guilt-tripped by everyone today.

I sighed loudly, admitting defeat. “What the hell, turn around. No way I’m holding on to the front.”

His face lit up instantly, like an excited pup on Winter Solstice morning, the werewolf version of Christmas. If anything, it made him even more deliriously handsome. He turned and dipped a little; we weren’t that vastly different in height, so it wasn’t as though I had to climb him like a tree. I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly and gripped his waist securely with my thighs, almost losing my grip when my ankle brushed against his rigid c**k. Goddess above, he felt perfect. The naturally strong scent from his marking site where my head lay on his neck wasn’t helping either in keeping me lucid. Its warm and maddening swirl of cinnamon and nutmeg coupled with being wrapped around his naked body was starting to make certain regions throb.

‘And you humans call us wolves the hormonal ones,’ Evva sniggered. Though I could feel she was overly enjoying our close proximity just as much, if not more.

The tingles, now that I could fully appreciate them, were simply wonderful. I would never admit to it aloud, but I never wanted to let either go. They were equal in strength and distinct in touch. Both instilled a sense of relief; the sparks from Astennu were a blanket, warm and steadfast and the sparks from Badru held excitement and devotion. The calm and the tranquillity came with a double-edged sword; as beautiful as they felt, I couldn’t hope to become attached to them.

brought me back here to

up again in the pit of my stomach at the thought. Even as Astennu helped me through the window, now thankfully wearing a pair of sweats that hung low showing his prominent V-lines, I couldn’t stop myself from backing away and averting my eyes as naked Badru climbed through afterwards. Thankfully, his brother handed him

could feel their heated stare on my skin but I

it and we can all

already feel the sting in my eye and I had broken my promise not to cry in front of the twins once. I

yelled. “I don’t wanna

you for years. We both have. We want you, there’s no debate in it,” Astennu tried to step forward towards me, but I took two back.

truth, Evie,’ my wolf threw her

just accept them, forget

we weigh our options,’ Evva said, determined and resolute. ‘But for that, we need to

her rational advice. It was too logical and reasonable when all I wanted was to either throw myself down dramatically and sob, or

Astennu spoke looking worried and making me realise I had been quiet for far

wide eyes and I could swear I could feel his and his twins’ abject fear flowing through them at that

answer was: I truly

don’t know,” I answered honestly, noticing the hurt in their eyes, but false hope would do none of us any good. “I need to think. And I want to keep this between us

we don’t want to hide you! I’m pretty sure our parents have organised some huge party for us. I want you on our arm, I want

needed, not wanted. “You want people to know we’re mates, when I don’t even know whether I want to give

the face. Maybe I had been a little too brutally honest. I really need to learn how

starting to feel my eyes

past… right now, I don’t know if I can just let that go,” my voice quivered. “I just need some time to decide and I’d rather do that in peace than have pack members giving me s**t and telling me

come to terms with all this. I didn’t need pack members saying I was no good, or saying I should be grateful and accept the twins, or that I was being an overdramatic b***h to make

my cheek. I

you into anything,” and he made a point to look directly at his brother

time you need, baby,” Badru tried to smile charmingly, but he was

to wrap me in a hug, but my wolf snarled and rather viciously, I might add. He leapt backwards like I had just bitten him, Astennu’s mouth was practically gaping and

Fear me, b***h,’ Evva preened

you’d be

see your memories. Just because they’re our mates, doesn’t mean I’m about to accept them so easily either. They want us, they earn us,’ she

would be able to make that sort of sound before shifting. We werewolves were born with two sets of vocal chords: one controlled by the human side that produced our

I silently appreciated how much my mates

have the right to…” Astennu glanced down as

was just a bundle of confused emotions and needed time to figure out what I really felt and