Accepting My Twin Mates by Unwise Owl

Accepting My Twin Mates Chapter 35

CHAPTER 35 – MY PROBLEM?

Badru

I trudged back alongside Evie, a step behind her. She hadn’t looked at me once or spoken a word.

“Evie? I really am sorry,” I tried to apologise again and reach out for her hand. She snatched it away as soon as my finger brushed her palm.

All I was met with was more silence. She didn’t growl or glance back to glare at me. It was as though I didn’t exist. I didn’t like this type of anger. Her scowls, her threats and her borderline murderous rage, I adored. It was a playful anger. This type was filled with a quiet sadness and I was the cause, again.

f**k! I had been doing so well! Astennu had said it wasn’t a race between us; it was easy for him to say that. Evie was already swooning all over him. I wanted the same, so badly. As soon as the words fell out of my mouth, I knew something was amiss. In my head, I thought the words sounded ‘sexy and slick’, and showed her just how much I wanted her. Clearly, I was wrong.

‘Let me try,’ Baniti suggested.

I had nothing else to lose, except my mate…and I was pretty confident I had lost her all on my own. Dropping back behind her step, I stripped down as fast as I could, stuffing my clothes back into the backpack. Letting the shift take over, my wolf grabbed up our bag and bolted to catch up with our mate. Baniti had control of our wolf form and softly rubbed our snout into her hand dangling by her side. She flinched away at the contact, making him whimper quietly and our ears flattened back. Her eyes trailed over our face, squinting, figuring out who was behind the steering wheel, so to speak.

Reaching up, she ran her hands under our jaw and up to our ears, rolling them around her fingers.

“It’s not you I’m angry with. It’s your dumb human,” she leant her head down to us. I internally sighed at the gesture, even if my heart clamped in a vice because it wasn’t me that the intimate embrace was intended for.

‘Phew, that’s a relief,’ Baniti exhaled, as though all was right in the world.

‘No it isn’t!’

‘Is for me,’ and I could feel him wanting to raise his nose in the air to snub me.

Great, just great. Even my wolf was a peg ahead of me. At this rate, Finley would have a better shot!

‘I think we just found your problem,’ Baniti cut through my escalating thoughts.

‘What’s that supposed to mean?’

‘Our brother is so right about you. You’re clueless…’

When, in the ever-living f**k, did my wolf become so cryptic? If he was so smart, why didn’t he walk me through this great epiphany I was supposed to have?

We were approaching the main pack house and Evie was headed to the live-in quarters where most of the staff resided. Debating whether I should follow, Baniti took the risk and tried to follow. She stopped before we exited the treeline, turning her head briefly without looking directly at us.

“I’m going alone,” her voice was barely above a whisper.

We sat, watching her figure leave and vanish inside. Both my wolf and I released a final whimper, picking up our bag to go home. I shifted as I approached our private main door, stepping into a pair of pants and went straight to my bedroom to be alone. How had this day gone so wrong? Why did I keep sabotaging myself every time I was presented a chance to tell her how I felt? I sunk to my floor, inhaling lungfuls of air that Evie’s scent still clung to. Back here once more, after a grand total of three days. I had made a promise that I wouldn’t squander the chance she had given me and I pissed it away with one single sentence I word-vomited out.

My door squeaked open and clicked closed, his presence only churned the guilt in my stomach. Had I killed his chances as well?

“You’re in your despair pit again,” Astennu finally spoke. “Wow, you really must’ve f****d up.”

He squatted down next to me and slid to a sitting position, leaning back on the wall.

“What happened? And don’t say ‘nothing’. I felt all of it,” he poked me in the head with his foot.

I had mind-linked him as we trekked to the hot springs to let him know things might get a little ‘twitchy’. He would have felt the exact moment when it all changed.

“I said something stupid…”

He exhaled loudly and I just knew he was wanting to tell me ‘how surprised he was’. I could feel the words in his mouth. He may as well have mind-linked me for how strongly I sensed it.

“What did you say, exactly?” He settled for.

I repeated the whole event. We kept nothing from each other and I knew I could talk to him about more intimate details.

“You’re pissing off all the women today. Do you hear yourself, as you say these words, ever?”

“I don’t need telling I made it worse. I’m aware this time,” I wiped my hand down my face in frustration with myself.

“As the experienced one, should I grab a pen and paper, and take notes from you?” He tried to joke, but I wasn’t in the mood.

“Stop, ok?!” I snapped, sitting bolt upright. “I f****d up, yet again, I get it.”

My chest tightened and my voice felt trapped, locked behind a lump in my throat.

“Ru…”

hates me, but likes you. I’m just f*****g this up for the both

reacting in the moment. Act first, think later was always my credo; for better, for worse. But

to work with Evie, like it does between the two

My twin leant forward, resting his arms on his knees. “This isn’t just because she and

we’re meant to be equals and we’ve always been that way… but sometimes… I don’t feel good enough to measure up to you,” I confessed. Even though Astennu was only six minutes older, I still looked up to him. “You’re way better at planning, and the paperwork side of

overseeing training than I am. And when we were telling our dad about Evie being our ‘assistant’, you didn’t hesitate and had an answer

race or a competition between us. Stop trying to overcompensate for something that doesn’t need

I had shown today wasn’t my best in any shape or form. Perhaps this was what I needed. How could I show her my best if I was unconsciously focused

had a breakthrough?” My brother nudged my side with the tip of his toe, making me jerk and flinch, much to his delight. He knew how

threatened. One thing I knew I had over

how’re you

step. It was how to open the door to the first step where I

my wolf

than that,’ I furrowed my brows. Although, it might open that metaphorical

motivations. We could hunt down some large game and bring it to her,

carcass to her front door. Even I have the foresight

you still remember how to make that cheat pizza dough?” I asked Astennu with a loose idea

Astennu

slapped him. I thought about it, repeatedly. While it would make me feel better, it wouldn’t help Badru. That patience

Trying to work through the most intense erection I had ever had, the feelings of arousal from both my twin and my mate, had been tricky. And thankfully, I had been alone, having already finished up working with my father when he returned home. I loved my bond with my twin, we were closer than any other wolves. Only identical multiples,

but I hoped my brother’s gesture of homemade food

and softly closed, our mother’s scent preceded her before she appeared in the kitchen with our father close

us both on the cheek, looking

something,” I tried to make our excuses. “We can make you one if

her a chance,”

gonna stop pushing that, is she?’ Aasim groaned. ‘I swear, the sooner

Badru answered through slightly gritted

shot him a surprised look that he would play

I am giving her a chance:

for you,” our mother practically clapped. “She’s such a lovely future Luna, I

about to implode, given how red his neck grew. Our dad hadn’t noticed anything other than our mom, laughing at her outburst and wrapped his arm around

into her neck. “You’ll have enough time to fuss over

I glanced towards each other, suspiciously. What precisely did that mean,

tomorrow?” She asked out of

honeymoon and we’re gonna go over some details and finances,” I shot back, my eyes narrowed because I

finally managed to convince my father this morning to grant me access to some of our financial records. He was maintaining his reluctant

So you are still determined with the Delta

again,” Badru immediately warned. We were not about

day?” Our mother ignored our dad’s grumblings. She had

be back by early afternoon.” And

hummed, smiling

is she planning?’ I

‘Nothing, don’t you worry.’

worried,’ Aasim muttered. ‘Very

Evie

exclaimed, slapping her hand down on the table. “He had the home run and

to do with it in any way,”

think I’m just going to go to bed,” I sighed. All the appetite I had, evaporated as I

want dinner first?” Lucy held out one of the serving

glasses with us,” Catalina shimmied one of the bottles. “Complaining about men and drinking vino go hand in hand.

They had talked me into coming with them to Catalina’s room for a private dinner, all of us together, but I knew they were after the dirty details of my day with Badru. Only, the details

wasn’t just that I wasn’t particularly hungry. For some reason, my room felt like the right

my phone to watch, wanting a distraction and enjoying not needing to wrap myself in a million blankets in my presently heated bedroom. My distraction was short-lived; none of the movies held any appeal and Badru’s silver hoodie stared at me from the base of my bed. Astennu’s t-shirt engulfed my body, wrapping me in its sweet tree

caving. I want my Alpha sandwich too. As it stands currently, we’re down a slice,’

rapidly and the pleasant tingling down my spine cut off any further protests of my wolf. These sensations could only mean one thing, or two things, in my case.

my window. I yanked my curtains open to see

today?” I hissed, sliding it open. “What was wrong with the

whether your light was on

would you have done if I

tried to give me a sheepish smile that I did everything in my willpower to

you’d have to stare at our sad faces if you didn’t let

I glared at

in? We brought pizza,” Astennu jingled

scent of dough, melted cheese and spicy meat wafted in through the open window, flipping

relented, stepping back