Accepting My Twin Mates by Unwise Owl

Accepting My Twin Mates Chapter 35

CHAPTER 35 – MY PROBLEM?

Badru

I trudged back alongside Evie, a step behind her. She hadn’t looked at me once or spoken a word.

“Evie? I really am sorry,” I tried to apologise again and reach out for her hand. She snatched it away as soon as my finger brushed her palm.

All I was met with was more silence. She didn’t growl or glance back to glare at me. It was as though I didn’t exist. I didn’t like this type of anger. Her scowls, her threats and her borderline murderous rage, I adored. It was a playful anger. This type was filled with a quiet sadness and I was the cause, again.

f**k! I had been doing so well! Astennu had said it wasn’t a race between us; it was easy for him to say that. Evie was already swooning all over him. I wanted the same, so badly. As soon as the words fell out of my mouth, I knew something was amiss. In my head, I thought the words sounded ‘sexy and slick’, and showed her just how much I wanted her. Clearly, I was wrong.

‘Let me try,’ Baniti suggested.

I had nothing else to lose, except my mate…and I was pretty confident I had lost her all on my own. Dropping back behind her step, I stripped down as fast as I could, stuffing my clothes back into the backpack. Letting the shift take over, my wolf grabbed up our bag and bolted to catch up with our mate. Baniti had control of our wolf form and softly rubbed our snout into her hand dangling by her side. She flinched away at the contact, making him whimper quietly and our ears flattened back. Her eyes trailed over our face, squinting, figuring out who was behind the steering wheel, so to speak.

Reaching up, she ran her hands under our jaw and up to our ears, rolling them around her fingers.

“It’s not you I’m angry with. It’s your dumb human,” she leant her head down to us. I internally sighed at the gesture, even if my heart clamped in a vice because it wasn’t me that the intimate embrace was intended for.

‘Phew, that’s a relief,’ Baniti exhaled, as though all was right in the world.

‘No it isn’t!’

‘Is for me,’ and I could feel him wanting to raise his nose in the air to snub me.

Great, just great. Even my wolf was a peg ahead of me. At this rate, Finley would have a better shot!

‘I think we just found your problem,’ Baniti cut through my escalating thoughts.

‘What’s that supposed to mean?’

‘Our brother is so right about you. You’re clueless…’

When, in the ever-living f**k, did my wolf become so cryptic? If he was so smart, why didn’t he walk me through this great epiphany I was supposed to have?

We were approaching the main pack house and Evie was headed to the live-in quarters where most of the staff resided. Debating whether I should follow, Baniti took the risk and tried to follow. She stopped before we exited the treeline, turning her head briefly without looking directly at us.

“I’m going alone,” her voice was barely above a whisper.

We sat, watching her figure leave and vanish inside. Both my wolf and I released a final whimper, picking up our bag to go home. I shifted as I approached our private main door, stepping into a pair of pants and went straight to my bedroom to be alone. How had this day gone so wrong? Why did I keep sabotaging myself every time I was presented a chance to tell her how I felt? I sunk to my floor, inhaling lungfuls of air that Evie’s scent still clung to. Back here once more, after a grand total of three days. I had made a promise that I wouldn’t squander the chance she had given me and I pissed it away with one single sentence I word-vomited out.

My door squeaked open and clicked closed, his presence only churned the guilt in my stomach. Had I killed his chances as well?

“You’re in your despair pit again,” Astennu finally spoke. “Wow, you really must’ve f****d up.”

He squatted down next to me and slid to a sitting position, leaning back on the wall.

“What happened? And don’t say ‘nothing’. I felt all of it,” he poked me in the head with his foot.

I had mind-linked him as we trekked to the hot springs to let him know things might get a little ‘twitchy’. He would have felt the exact moment when it all changed.

“I said something stupid…”

He exhaled loudly and I just knew he was wanting to tell me ‘how surprised he was’. I could feel the words in his mouth. He may as well have mind-linked me for how strongly I sensed it.

“What did you say, exactly?” He settled for.

I repeated the whole event. We kept nothing from each other and I knew I could talk to him about more intimate details.

“You’re pissing off all the women today. Do you hear yourself, as you say these words, ever?”

“I don’t need telling I made it worse. I’m aware this time,” I wiped my hand down my face in frustration with myself.

“As the experienced one, should I grab a pen and paper, and take notes from you?” He tried to joke, but I wasn’t in the mood.

“Stop, ok?!” I snapped, sitting bolt upright. “I f****d up, yet again, I get it.”

My chest tightened and my voice felt trapped, locked behind a lump in my throat.

“Ru…”

our mate hates me, but likes you. I’m just f*****g this up for

been fine with reacting in the moment. Act first, think later was always my credo; for better, for worse. But around her, I

it to work with Evie,

you?” My twin leant forward, resting his arms on his knees.

always been that way… but sometimes… I don’t feel good enough to measure up to you,” I confessed. Even though Astennu was only six minutes older, I still looked up to him. “You’re way better at planning, and the paperwork

too,” he interrupted, making me turn his way, taken aback. “You’re better at overseeing training than I am. And when we were telling our dad

reminded me. “This isn’t a race or a competition between us. Stop trying to

head. Was I really insecure? The mate bond, providing it was accepted, was meant to bring out the best in the other. What I had shown today wasn’t my best in any shape or form. Perhaps this was what I needed. How

a breakthrough?” My brother nudged my side with the tip of his toe, making me jerk and flinch, much

you in a headlock!” I threatened. One thing I knew I had over him;

how’re

the first step. It was how to open the door

my wolf stated

that,’ I furrowed my brows. Although,

biggest motivations. We could hunt down some large game and bring

front door. Even I have the foresight

make that cheat pizza dough?”

Astennu

it would make me feel better, it wouldn’t help Badru. That patience of mine

had, the feelings of arousal from both my twin and my mate, had been tricky. And thankfully, I had been alone, having already finished up working with my father when he returned home. I loved my bond with my twin, we were closer than any other wolves. Only identical

I hoped my brother’s gesture of homemade food would

our mother’s scent preceded her before she appeared in the kitchen with

she insisted on kissing us both on the cheek, looking over

and hang out with a friend or something,” I tried to make our excuses. “We

Catalina? Are you giving her a chance,” she beamed

is never gonna stop pushing that, is she?’ Aasim groaned. ‘I swear, the

answered through slightly

surprised look that he would

am giving her a chance: not

such a lovely future Luna, I can just

his neck grew. Our dad hadn’t noticed

down to nuzzle into her

Badru and I glanced towards each other, suspiciously. What precisely did

out of nowhere in a nonchalant tone, only fueling our

details and finances,” I shot back, my eyes narrowed because I knew she was

home and I had finally managed to convince my father this morning to grant me access to some of our financial records. He was maintaining his reluctant stance on letting an ‘outsider

still determined with the Delta

warned. We were

gone all day?” Our mother ignored our dad’s grumblings. She had to be angling

in the morning, we should be back by early afternoon.”

good,” she hummed, smiling

is she planning?’ I

‘Nothing, don’t you worry.’

worried,’ Aasim muttered. ‘Very

Evie

Tamlyn exclaimed, slapping her hand down on the table. “He had the home run and the dumb f**k fumbled. This, right here, is why

to do with it in

sighed. All the appetite I had, evaporated as I regaled the girls

Lucy held out

have a few glasses with us,” Catalina shimmied one of the bottles. “Complaining about men and drinking vino go hand in hand.

talked me into coming with them to Catalina’s room for a private dinner, all of us together, but I knew they were after the dirty details of my day with Badru.

leaving dinner wasn’t just that I wasn’t particularly hungry. For some reason, my room felt like the right

presently heated bedroom. My distraction was short-lived; none of the movies held any appeal and Badru’s silver hoodie stared at me from the base of my bed. Astennu’s t-shirt engulfed my

my Alpha sandwich too. As it stands currently, we’re

protests of my wolf. These sensations could only mean one thing, or two things, in my case. My mates were approaching. I stared at my door, waiting for the knock on its

I heard the knock come from behind me, a rattle at my window. I yanked my curtains open to see two sets of identical sapphires staring

windows the method of choice today?” I hissed, sliding it open. “What

light

have done if I wasn’t

waited for you,” Badru tried to give me a sheepish smile that I did everything in my

way meant you’d have to stare at our sad faces if you didn’t

only one of you I’m angry with,” I

brought pizza,” Astennu jingled the foil-covered items in

dough, melted cheese and spicy meat wafted in

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