Accidental Surrogate for Alpha

Chapter 51

Ella

My mind goes blank at first. Sinclair is too close to the truth, to figuring out that I’m not as immune to him as either of us would like to believe. The voice in my head is panicking, but I try to keep it together. Praying for calm, I take a deep breath, and as I exhale I recall the ability to speak.

“Because we’re supposed to be in this together, and you played me.”I murmur, speaking the truth – but not the whole truth. I can’t admit to him that I feel utterly rejected by his ploy, that I feel unwanted on a visceral level and it’s tearing me up inside for reasons I don’t yet understand. “You played me like l’m one of those reporters, or the Prince.”

Sinclair’s face twists into a grimace, and the next thing I know he’s reaching for me, “Please, come here Ella.”

“No.” l insist stubbornly, preparing to move away if he tries to approach me.

“I’m sorry.” He expresses, looking truly remorseful. “I didn’t mean to do that. I care about you, I don’t want to hurt you that way.”

“Well you did.” I reply petulantly. I don’t know where this comes from. With anyone else I would have accepted the apology and moved on, whether l actually felt better or not. I’ve always chosen peace over my own feelings – but I find it very hard to pretend with Sinclair. I think he would know that I don’t actually feel better, so why should I fake it?

“I know.” He nods grimly. “I promise I’ll find a way to make it up to you.”

“I don’t need some sort of reparation.” I insist, “Just do better, Dominic.”

“I will.” Sinclair vows soberly, “You have my word.”

I breathe a sigh of relief, but Sinclair is surveying me closely. l can tell he wants to metaphorically k!ss and make up, but as l suspected, he senses my upset is not wholly resolved. “What else?” He prompts.

“Nothing important.” I shrug, not feeling brave enough to ask the questions I’m most curious about.

“Ella,” He says my name as an admonition, scolding me for not being honest with nothing but those two familiar syllables. “Come on, tell me what’s on your mind.”

I gnaw on my lower lip, hating that he can read me so easily, but also relieved that I might get my answers.

Alright, what was all that about discipline? Those things the Prince said about my insolence? It didn’t just sound like Alpha stuff.. I mean it’s one thing to be insubordinate to a leader, but the way you two were talking.. it made it seem like all men expect to be in charge of their mates.”

Sinclair’s lips quirk at the edges, and the energy in the limo abruptly shifts. The air around us goes taut, feeling suddenly tense and electric despite the fact that nothing has actually changed. Neither one of us have moved a muscle. Still I know Sinclair feels it too – it’s all too obvious in his reply. “Such a clever little human.”

the dominance thing? But that’s so backwards! You just said that

it comes down to power dynamics, and that dominance isn’t

men are physically stronger they get to boss around their mates?” I demand

possessed have been socialized

I guess, feeling a shiver run down my spine. “Even to

is the one who can best protect and provide for them. Their instincts drive them to test potential partners in order to figure out who is the strongest. They need to feel their mate’s dominance to know

of why I think you’d make such a good

think you have some of those same instincts. You may not realize it, but you often test your limits with me, the same way she-wolves

all that talk about discipline.. that was

Literal?”I squeak nervously.

me, invading my space with his big body. “Yes.” He rumbles deeply. “It was. Does that scare you?” I don’t know

Sinclair

she looks intrigued – curious. I can

Ella’s human values, but she clearly craves a strong mate just like any she-wolf – whether she realizes it or not. Her body has always responded

perfect “o” as she tries to wrap her mind around this idea, “if a she-wolf does something

not.” I explain, pulling

authority through violence or mistreatment. That isn’t our

“But you said “

abuse.” I correct

kind of consequences?” Ella asks, a tiny furrow appearing in her brow. I wish l could read her thoughts right now, but it’s enough to see the blend of eagerness and apprehension on her beautiful face – she’s excited by this conversation, and more than

watching Ella come to terms with these ideas. It hasn’t been easy for me to pull back my wolf from treating her

time outs and no

I say, to Ella’s obvious relief. “But mates aren’t pups.

settled in my lap. The sweet little human probably thinks I don’t have a

encourage. “Just say the first thing

voice no louder than a whisper.

I tease, stroking her

is?!” Ella exclaims, looking

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