Accidental Surrogate for Alpha

Ella

Yes, yes, yes! The little voice in my head chants, so forcefully the words almost spill out of my mouth. I stop them just in time, even though I can’t stop my h!ps from j3rking up towards Sinclair’s hand. Still, i manage to clasp my fingers around his wrist before he can make contact with my aching cl!t, even as my blood sings for release.

I desperately want to let Sinclair’s give me the pleasure he’s offering, but I feel so overwhelmed by all this. Too many things have happened in the last 24 hours, and I’m beyond confused by my reaction to Sinclair’s discipline. All my emotions have been thrust together, smashed up and blended into a violent, swirling maelstrom- too muddied to differentiate. It’s as though I’ve been completely unmoored, no long understanding my own heart or mind.

I look up at Sinclair, my eyes wide and still stinging with leftover tears. He’s wearing that ravenous expression that makes me feel like he’s about to gobble me up, but there’s a softness in his eyes – an understanding that my body’s base instincts are not on the same page with my distraught mind.

“I don’t think I’m ready for that.” I confess, my voice very soft. How surreal is it, that twenty four hours ago I was ready to give myself to him completely? To let him make love to me right there in the middle of the forest, despite all our efforts to keep our relationship platonic?

Maybe the Prince did us a favor with his attack think bitterly. He kept us from taking a step we wouldn’t be able to take back – from making a terrible mistake.

How can you say that? My conscience demands.

Look at what Sinclair just did for you.

What? Spank me like a child? Make me cry like a baby? I bite back.

You know you feel better now The infuriating voice replies, It hurts, but hurting is better than feeling nothing.

I’m not so sure about that. The feelings that flowed out of me after the spanking provided an entirely different kind of release than the one I need now, pouring out pent up emotions with no other outlet than tears.

However I’m acutely aware that those feelings were only a drop in the bucket, the surface waters of a bottomless well of anguish I am not prepared to face.

lgnoring my conscience, I peek up at the huge Alpha.

“ls that okay?”

“Ella, of course it’s okay.” Sinclair answers, studying me closely. “Do you want me to leave you, so you can take care of it yourself?” He offers, though there’s a low, growly quality to his voice that makes me think his wolf doesn’t like this idea one bit.

“No.” I object immediately, grasping for his shirt before I can think better of it. I don’t want him to leave, to lose his soothing touch- but l also have a sneaking suspicion that staying in his lap is a bad idea. I can feel his hardness digging into my sore backside, and I’m both squirming to relieve the sting of my punished flesh and the ache between my legs.

“Easy sweetheart.'” Sinclair chuckles, “I’m not going anywhere.” He k!sses my hair. Then, seeming to sense the problem, he sets me beside him on the bed. I wince, preferring the feel of his warm thighs over the cool silk of the duvet, but before I can feel too sorry for myself Sinclair slides his palm to my bare belly, feeling for the pup.

feelings he

to understand any of this.

he very frightened last night?” I inquire, closing my eyes

could feel your fear, but everything he knows is in response to you. And his own feelings

tell what he was making me crave.” I remind him, striving

are all reflexive instincts, not emotions.” I sigh, taking this in and pressing my nose to his chest and breathing in his scent. “You see?” |I can hear a smile

you because it’s what he

way with mothers and pups – that’s why I say you have a connection every bit as magical as my own. Your wants and needs become one in

Sinclair shares.

make. The more time that passes, the more I’m learning that magic and

also haven’t forgotten the reason we fought. My ball gown remains in a puddle on the floor, it’s gauzy, gemstone studded skirts glinting up at

Dominic?”

and down my arm in the most distracting way. His touch is featherlight, and I know it’s intended to comfort me rather than excite, but I’m beginning to think that it’s impossible to be in physical contact with this man without being turned on. Hell, I was even turned on when he was spanking me – and it hurt like hell. On some level l understand it was

think I need you to stop touching me.” I whisper, hating myself even as I say

small body away from his. I instantly feel cold and incomplete, and my feelings must show on my face because Sinclair laughs and taps his finger on my

bossy statement. Probably something about not hiding

“Ella-“

off, “Please just

heavily, “Go

that I wasn’t okay.” I begin, feeling resigned. “But l wasn’t wrong either. We can’t let the Prince

“But you need your rest. You’ve been through

I didn’t intend on sharing that with Sinclair, but I need him to know l’m not going to fall to pieces at the first sign of danger. He doesn’t look surprised, he merely grimaces, as if he hates hearing this but also wants to ask for more

it, the Prince will

breeding mate.” Sinclair counters, “pregnant she-wolves get a lot

| state stubbornly. “He’ll feel emboldened like his plan is working. We have to show him

for a long moment. “ls this truly what you want, or are you trying to prove something to me –

know.” I answer saucily, feeling a bit more of

my body at the

think you didn’t learn your