Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

CHAPTER 27

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“I don’t get it, so she told you that you’d have all the benefits of a shifted wolf, but you won’t be able to shift?” King asked incredulously, his face conveying how hard he was finding it hard to believe me.

I nodded my head, still reeling from what Nyx had told me.

I’d stayed in the forest for an hour or so before going back to the small, three-bedroom cabin we called home. Thanks to the cash Beth gave us and some from King, we were able to rent the cabin. It was in a secluded area in the forest and offered us privacy. Of course, it wasn’t a permanent dwelling, but it was a start.

“It doesn’t make any sense,” Raven whispered, looking at me as if she could figure out what the hell was happening.

“I know,” I sighed. “But that’s what she told me.”

“Can you feel her? Are you able to communicate with her?” This came from King.

“Yes, but that’s the extent of it.”

What Nyx told me kept playing in my mind. I was so confused that a headache had begun working its way from the back of my head. Most of all, I was just disappointed. Disappointed that nothing had gone the way I’d expected and hoped for.

I never imagined that when I turned twenty-one, I would be banished, accused of a crime I didn’t commit, pregnant, detested by the father of my baby, and unable to shift. Everything was just piling up on me, trying to suffocate me. Sometimes it was hard to keep my head above water, and that’s what it feels like since that night months ago. Like I was struggling to keep myself from drowning.

“She didn’t say anything else?” Raven’s question pulled me back from my thoughts.

“No… Only that I wasn’t ready to shift, that I should focus on getting better and stronger, and that one. day everything will make sense,” I replied, feeling all around drained.

“Interesting.” King whispered, but left it at that.

I wanted to sleep and forget what a clusterf**k my life had turned into, but even sleep didn’t come easily. Not when I was hunted by the nightmares that plagued me. The nightmare I went through when I was in that dungeon.

Raven must have sensed my tiredness because she asked, “You want to rest?”

I just nodded my head, even though I dreaded closing my eyes.

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“You know I can help with that, right?” she asked.

“With what?”

every time you try to sleep. You’re barely

“How did

about the

sometimes it takes both of us to calm you down. You barely register us every time because you always look like you’re in a trance. Like your mind is still trapped in

to Raven. I never wanted them to know what I was going through, but I guess I wasn’t hiding it well enough. I didn’t

your sleep.” Raven holds. my hand

don’t know where I would be if it weren’t for Beth

said softly, after thinking about it for a

on running low on sleep. It wasn’t healthy for me or my baby. I

anticipated, my eyes started dropping. I fell into a dreamless

Two months later

some weird reason, the noise drowned the ones in my head. It distracted me

to admit. More than is healthy for me. In my defense, it’s hard for me not to think or get lost in my thoughts. I have nothing to do, given that King and Rave take

vacuum the house was

wanted to help. I wanted to be

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me. I don’t want to be drowned in the darkness. I’m trying to escape the dark thoughts that filled my head and the coldness that seemed to seep slowly into my heart. I don’t want to forget the old me, but slowly I feel like I’m

go of the old Sadie?” Nyx asked, popping into my

used to sharing my body with

“Yes”

seemed genuinely curious. “I mean, I don’t want to come off as cold and heartless, but the old you was nice. Too nice, in fact. Haven’t you ever heard of the saying, Nice girls finish last? Let’s face it, Sadie, you were weak

whoever set you up.”

like trash. I was nice to Alec, even when he treated me like I didn’t exist. Even for the girls who bullied and talked trash about how I dressed, how fat I was, and how ugly I was, I still went out of my way to be nice

pack needed help, I would be the first to volunteer to help. I was kind to everyone, and where the hell did that get me? In

p**s me off even more. The anger and

heartless, but you can balance being kind and having a backbone. Be strong- willed and never ever let anyone walk all over you,” Nyx pushes a mental image of what she

get it, and I was about to tell her the same when I felt liquid rushing

yourself?” I looked up

you idiot, her water just broke,” Raven replied while hitting him on the back

ignoring the discomfort. Looking back now, I should have known it

comfortable,” Raven said softly, guiding

talked about this. We decided I wouldn’t give birth in the hospital since it was too risky. Luckily, Raven knew what she was doing, having helped Beth deliver

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bed, and after that, things