Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

CHAPTER 27

Chapter 27

“I don’t get it, so she told you that you’d have all the benefits of a shifted wolf, but you won’t be able to shift?” King asked incredulously, his face conveying how hard he was finding it hard to believe me.

I nodded my head, still reeling from what Nyx had told me.

I’d stayed in the forest for an hour or so before going back to the small, three-bedroom cabin we called home. Thanks to the cash Beth gave us and some from King, we were able to rent the cabin. It was in a secluded area in the forest and offered us privacy. Of course, it wasn’t a permanent dwelling, but it was a start.

“It doesn’t make any sense,” Raven whispered, looking at me as if she could figure out what the hell was happening.

“I know,” I sighed. “But that’s what she told me.”

“Can you feel her? Are you able to communicate with her?” This came from King.

“Yes, but that’s the extent of it.”

What Nyx told me kept playing in my mind. I was so confused that a headache had begun working its way from the back of my head. Most of all, I was just disappointed. Disappointed that nothing had gone the way I’d expected and hoped for.

I never imagined that when I turned twenty-one, I would be banished, accused of a crime I didn’t commit, pregnant, detested by the father of my baby, and unable to shift. Everything was just piling up on me, trying to suffocate me. Sometimes it was hard to keep my head above water, and that’s what it feels like since that night months ago. Like I was struggling to keep myself from drowning.

“She didn’t say anything else?” Raven’s question pulled me back from my thoughts.

“No… Only that I wasn’t ready to shift, that I should focus on getting better and stronger, and that one. day everything will make sense,” I replied, feeling all around drained.

“Interesting.” King whispered, but left it at that.

I wanted to sleep and forget what a clusterf**k my life had turned into, but even sleep didn’t come easily. Not when I was hunted by the nightmares that plagued me. The nightmare I went through when I was in that dungeon.

Raven must have sensed my tiredness because she asked, “You want to rest?”

I just nodded my head, even though I dreaded closing my eyes.

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“You know I can help with that, right?” she asked.

“With what?”

know you don’t sleep peacefully; I know that nightmares hunt you every time you try to sleep. You’re barely surviving with only

“How did

about the

us every time because you always look like you’re in a trance. Like your

answered. My eyes kept shifting from him to Raven. I never wanted them to know what I was going through, but I guess I wasn’t hiding

cast a spell that will put you out cold. Nothing will be able to disturb your sleep.”

be if it weren’t for Beth

softly, after thinking about it for a

on sleep. It wasn’t healthy for me or my baby. I couldn’t let myself wither

and sooner than I’d anticipated, my eyes started dropping. I fell into a dreamless sleep, and it was peaceful. It’s the best one I’ve had in a

Two months later

carpet. For some weird reason, the noise drowned the ones in my head.

than I care to admit. More than is healthy for me. In my defense, it’s hard for me not to think or get lost in my

me vacuum the house was a chore.

like a brat. I am not. I just wanted to help. I wanted to be useful. I’m not used to having others cater to every

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keeping busy is good for me. I don’t want to be drowned in the darkness. I’m trying to escape the dark thoughts that filled my head and

of the old

to get used to sharing my body

“Yes”

curious. “I mean, I don’t want to come off as cold and heartless, but the old you was nice. Too nice, in fact. Haven’t you ever heard of the saying, Nice girls finish last? Let’s

whoever set you up.”

was always nice, even to those who treated me like trash. I was nice to Alec, even when he treated me like I didn’t exist. Even for the girls who bullied and talked trash about how I dressed, how fat I was, and how ugly I was, I still went out of my way

first to volunteer to help. I was kind to everyone, and where the hell did that get me? In the f**g dungeon, being tortured while the same f**g people I went out of my

The anger and hatred I feel

be completely heartless, but you can balance being kind and having a backbone. Be strong- willed and

tell her the same when I

yourself?” I looked up to find King looking at me

Raven replied

Looking back now, I should have known it was a sign that

let’s get you comfortable,” Raven said softly,

about this. We decided I wouldn’t give birth in the hospital since it was too risky. Luckily,

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on the bed, and after that, things happened so