Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

CHAPTER 27

Chapter 27

“I don’t get it, so she told you that you’d have all the benefits of a shifted wolf, but you won’t be able to shift?” King asked incredulously, his face conveying how hard he was finding it hard to believe me.

I nodded my head, still reeling from what Nyx had told me.

I’d stayed in the forest for an hour or so before going back to the small, three-bedroom cabin we called home. Thanks to the cash Beth gave us and some from King, we were able to rent the cabin. It was in a secluded area in the forest and offered us privacy. Of course, it wasn’t a permanent dwelling, but it was a start.

“It doesn’t make any sense,” Raven whispered, looking at me as if she could figure out what the hell was happening.

“I know,” I sighed. “But that’s what she told me.”

“Can you feel her? Are you able to communicate with her?” This came from King.

“Yes, but that’s the extent of it.”

What Nyx told me kept playing in my mind. I was so confused that a headache had begun working its way from the back of my head. Most of all, I was just disappointed. Disappointed that nothing had gone the way I’d expected and hoped for.

I never imagined that when I turned twenty-one, I would be banished, accused of a crime I didn’t commit, pregnant, detested by the father of my baby, and unable to shift. Everything was just piling up on me, trying to suffocate me. Sometimes it was hard to keep my head above water, and that’s what it feels like since that night months ago. Like I was struggling to keep myself from drowning.

“She didn’t say anything else?” Raven’s question pulled me back from my thoughts.

“No… Only that I wasn’t ready to shift, that I should focus on getting better and stronger, and that one. day everything will make sense,” I replied, feeling all around drained.

“Interesting.” King whispered, but left it at that.

I wanted to sleep and forget what a clusterf**k my life had turned into, but even sleep didn’t come easily. Not when I was hunted by the nightmares that plagued me. The nightmare I went through when I was in that dungeon.

Raven must have sensed my tiredness because she asked, “You want to rest?”

I just nodded my head, even though I dreaded closing my eyes.

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“You know I can help with that, right?” she asked.

“With what?”

that nightmares hunt you every time you try to sleep. You’re barely surviving with

“How did

know about the

You barely register us every time because you always look like you’re in a trance. Like

never wanted them to know what I

a spell that will put you out cold. Nothing will be able to disturb your sleep.”

don’t know where I would be if it weren’t

after thinking

sleep. It wasn’t healthy for me or my baby. I couldn’t let myself wither away when

chanting, and sooner than I’d anticipated, my eyes started dropping. I fell into a dreamless sleep, and it

Two months later

slowly over the carpet. For some weird reason, the noise drowned the ones in

place I like getting lost in, but it happens more than I care to admit. More than is healthy for me. In my defense, it’s hard

vacuum the

I just wanted to help. I wanted to be useful. I’m not used to

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darkness. I’m trying to escape the dark thoughts that filled my head and the coldness that seemed to seep slowly into my heart. I don’t want to forget the old me, but slowly

so bad to let go of the old Sadie?” Nyx

sharing my body

“Yes”

want to come off as cold and heartless, but the old you was nice. Too nice, in fact. Haven’t you ever heard of the saying, Nice girls finish last? Let’s face it, Sadie, you were weak and didn’t have a backbone. That’s why you

whoever set you up.”

could also see the truth in her words. I was always nice, even to those who treated me like trash. I was nice to Alec, even when he treated me like I didn’t exist. Even for the girls who

hell did that get

more. The anger and hatred I feel feeds the darkness and coldness that are

saying that you should be completely heartless, but you can balance being kind and having a backbone. Be strong- willed and never ever let anyone walk all over you,” Nyx pushes a mental

to tell her the same when I felt liquid

yourself?” I looked up

just broke,” Raven replied

I should have known it was a sign that I was about

you comfortable,” Raven said softly, guiding me

was too risky. Luckily, Raven knew what she was doing, having helped Beth deliver a

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me lie down on the bed, and after that, things happened