Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

Chapter 0115

Sadie.

I barely slept a wink last night, and you could tell by the eye bags under my eyes. I haven't had a moment of rest or peace since Alec walked back into my life.

If I'd known all the shit that would come with him walking back into my life, I would have moved to a different continent. Hell, a different planet if that were possible. I want my life to go back to how simple it was a few weeks ago. Sure, I had my scars, both physically, emotionally and mentally, but I was at peace. I didn't have all these mysteries surrounding me. I didn't have constant migraines from thinking too much. I didn't carry the weight of lifting a fucking curse on my shoulders.

Sometimes I wonder if things would have been better if I hadn't fallen in love with Alec. I've gone over what I would have done differently more times than I could count. The end results are always the same. Despite the pain and heartache, I wouldn't have changed a thing. Changing things and wishing they were different would mean Aspen never existed... and I would never regret her.

There is also the matter of Beth, Raven, King and my pack. If things hadn't happened the way they did, I wouldn't have met any of them.

"Will you pay attention?" Nyx's irritated voice pulls me from my thoughts.

"Sorry," I reply sheepishly.

Nyx hadn't been joking when she said we would start training. The moment we were done with breakfast, she had demanded we leave so that we could start training.

Since I had a hard time sleeping, I woke up pretty early. After debating whether to go downstairs for breakfast, I took a shower and headed for the kitchen. You have no idea the relief I felt when I didn't find anyone inside.

but that doesn't mean I'm ready to face my previous pack. It would be overwhelming for me. I still had a hard time being around their alpha, seeing them would be

Martha. After she'd settled in my room with a still sleeping Aspen, I'd gone into Raven's room to let her know of

to clear your head," she

"Nyx..."

thoughts running around your head. For this to work, you need to completely focus on our powers. You can't

little kids. I loved the flowers and just how green

the grass, I get comfortable and close my

your thoughts, just let them wander, but don't focus on them. Don't hold onto them.

so fucking hard. I'm the kind of person that overthinks things. I tend to overanalyze and overthink things until they

to dwell on my thoughts is similar to trying to squeeze water from a rock. It is

I just stop. I stop trying to dwell on them, and just

The mysterious woman. The hybrids. My powers. The other alpha female. The curse.

them, and just let them go in whichever direction they desire. Soon enough, my body starts swaying, and I feel like I am in a trance. I've never meditated before, but I think

much time had passed when I realized that

eyes, I'm impressed. The entire thing is amazing because my head has never been this free. It has never been empty. As long as I can

fell asleep waiting for you to clear that

in case you

which, by the way, is messier than a teenager's