Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

Chapter 0115

Sadie.

I barely slept a wink last night, and you could tell by the eye bags under my eyes. I haven't had a moment of rest or peace since Alec walked back into my life.

If I'd known all the shit that would come with him walking back into my life, I would have moved to a different continent. Hell, a different planet if that were possible. I want my life to go back to how simple it was a few weeks ago. Sure, I had my scars, both physically, emotionally and mentally, but I was at peace. I didn't have all these mysteries surrounding me. I didn't have constant migraines from thinking too much. I didn't carry the weight of lifting a fucking curse on my shoulders.

Sometimes I wonder if things would have been better if I hadn't fallen in love with Alec. I've gone over what I would have done differently more times than I could count. The end results are always the same. Despite the pain and heartache, I wouldn't have changed a thing. Changing things and wishing they were different would mean Aspen never existed... and I would never regret her.

There is also the matter of Beth, Raven, King and my pack. If things hadn't happened the way they did, I wouldn't have met any of them.

"Will you pay attention?" Nyx's irritated voice pulls me from my thoughts.

"Sorry," I reply sheepishly.

Nyx hadn't been joking when she said we would start training. The moment we were done with breakfast, she had demanded we leave so that we could start training.

Since I had a hard time sleeping, I woke up pretty early. After debating whether to go downstairs for breakfast, I took a shower and headed for the kitchen. You have no idea the relief I felt when I didn't find anyone inside.

ready to face my previous pack. It would be overwhelming for me. I still had a hard time being around their alpha, seeing them would be too

with a still sleeping Aspen, I'd gone into Raven's room to let her know of my whereabouts so she isn't worried. After that,

want you to clear your head," she says

"Nyx..."

too many thoughts running around your head. For this to work, you need to completely focus on our powers. You can't serve two masters at the same time. You can't focus on both your thoughts and

in the pack. Piper and I played here countless times when we were little kids. I loved the flowers and just how green and bright

I get comfortable and close

try to chase away your thoughts, just let them wander, but don't focus on them. Don't hold onto them. Your brain

hard. I'm the kind of person that overthinks things. I tend to overanalyze and overthink things until they

to trying to squeeze

for what seems to be forever until finally, I just stop. I stop trying to

pack. The mysterious woman. The hybrids. My powers. The other alpha female. The curse. On and

whichever direction they desire. Soon enough, my body starts swaying, and I feel like I am in a trance. I've never meditated before, but I

not sure how much time had passed when

head has never been this free.

drawls. "I almost fell asleep waiting for you to clear that

in case you

meant you mind, which, by the way, is messier than a teenager's