Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

Chapter 0187

"I'll win your love back. Mark my words!"

His words keep ringing in my head over and over again. I try to block them, to bury them, to ignore them, but nothing works. They keep playing in my head like a broken record.

I scoff at both his words and my inability to ignore them. It sounds ridiculous when you think about it. I mean, how does he think he's going to win back my love? You can't win back a love that's already dead. You can't win back something that you yourself destroyed. I drop on a log once I am certain I've put some distance between us. I knew that coming back to his pack would be a challenge, but I never thought it would be this difficult.

Everywhere I turn, there are memories that haunt me. I have lived here since I was a baby. It's hard to ignore almost twenty-one years' worth of memories even though most of them become tainted when this pack, along with its leader and my best friend, turned their backs on me.

I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I can see them clearly. The memories of the naïve fool I used to be. I can still feel the love I had for Alec, as if it's still alive in me somehow. I can even taste my tears every time I cried because, unknowingly, he broke my heart. Looking back at my former self, I can't help but be disappointed and disgusted. I can't believe that I chased a man. I can't believe I continued to chase after Alec even though I knew he would never consider me as a lover. That's why I prayed so hard for him to be my mate, because I knew he wouldn't have chosen me otherwise.

my lips. I did get my wish, and my prayers were answered, but things didn't go as I had

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with lives without care in the world. Does she sit on her all-mighty throne and laugh as she plays with our lives? It's not once or twice since my life went toshit that I questioned if

that!" Nyx growls so viciously, it makes me topple over just from

the sides of my head, hoping it will ease the pain she caused. "Technically speaking, I didn't

it's not!" She fires

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all her children. She has the best interest for us at heart. She is good and

going to have to stop you there, Nyx. You are trying to make her sound

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