Alpha Dom and His Human Surrogate by Caroline Above Story

Accidental Surrogate for Alpha by Caroline Above Story Chapter 104

Chapter 104 – Three Little Words

Ella

“Ella, I love you, but you’re driving me crazy.” My sister’s voice floats through my phone, sounding more exasperated than irritated. After his shower, Sinclair went to his office, and I promptly called my sister for advice.

“What do you mean?” I inquire hesitantly, I’ve just finished explaining

“I mean,” She sighs heavily, “Who are you, and what have you done with my sister? You’ve always known exactly what you wanted and done whatever was necessary to make it happen. You are a strong, independent woman – not some bratty, indecisive, emotional basket-case who’s too caught up in a man to know her own heart.” She groans.

I wish I could argue with her a*sessment of my behavior, but I know she’s right. However, before I can acknowledge as much, she continues, “It’s like: you like Sinclair, you don’t like Sinclair. You want to be with him one moment, and the next you’re trying to foist him off on another woman – just make up your mind! I swear, I don’t even recognize you anymore!”

“Can’t you see that’s the problem! I don’t even recognize myself anymore.” I exclaim, rubbing my sore neck. “My entire life has been turned upside down –”

“I know! Because that’s all you ever talk about anymore.” She bursts, interrupting me. “Do you have any idea when you last asked me about my life? That you showed interest in anything other than your own problems?”

Her words sting, and I realize she’s right. I have been so wrapped up in my own drama that I’ve been neglecting my sister. I hate to think it, but the truth is I don’t have any idea what’s going on with her. “I’m sorry, Cora. What’s going on with you?”

“Nothing, but it would be nice to know you care!” She snaps, sounding more than a little petulant.

And she had the nerve to call us bratty! The little voice in my head observes.

are trying to kill me, Cora. A psychotic bitch drugged and attempted to rape the father of my child. I’m committing a fraud of epic proportions in order to save an entire fucking species from civil war.

to do that!” Cora argues, “you made that choice

had to be the strong

defensively, “maybe if you had, I would have learned to stand on my own rather

seizes my stomach, and I clench my eyes shut. “You know what I went through in order to protect you.” I finally say, my voice

voice is small when she speaks again. “You know that isn’t what I meant… but I have to live with the guilt of knowing you were hurt because of me. And sometimes I just think that maybe… maybe if you hadn’t protected me

forgiven myself if I had.” I share, even as a wave of sorrow swells inside me to learn how she struggles with

scoffs. “I suppose that’s one thing I

maybe that’s why this is all so hard for me. I feel so… raw. I don’t think I’ve ever been so emotionally vulnerable, and I don’t have

you also have to take responsibility for learning now that you recognize the

our situation is insane.” I object pointedly. “It’s not

time I’ve been able to acknowledge that I pa*sed the point of no return – even to myself. I’m not just falling, I’m completely in

call your relationship with that little weasel love, I will come over there and smack

it started out that way.” I defend, wondering if I’m being

ask you something. Did you ever feel even a fraction of what you feel for

denial about Sinclair that I haven’t even considered comparing my feelings for the men. As soon as I think back on the relationship, I see the truth glaring back at me, “No.” I exhale sadly.

in love with him for all those years?” She presses. “Why do you think you let him treat

the first idea what

little shit preyed on you from day one – we were just too young and inexperienced to realize it at the time.” She has the grace not to say “I told you so.” The fact is that Cora tried to warn me about Mike more than once over the years, but I was too stubborn to listen to her. Instead she continues, “I wish I could go back in time and kick him in the balls before he

I chuckle,

question is: What are you going to do about

what if my baggage is causing all these mixed-up feelings? That doesn’t change the situation we’re in. I can’t make myself a wolf, and I can’t make him a human or non-alpha – I probably wouldn’t even if I could, because then he wouldn’t be the

you’re not just trying to protect yourself from getting hurt?” Cora questions. “I mean I know you’re in hot water with the campaign and