Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it. 

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom. 

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up 

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal. 

“Yeah?!” 

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral. 

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault. 

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower. 

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.” 

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold. 

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1 

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me. 

My fault... 

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt. 

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt. 

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either… 

(FLASHBACK). 

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more. 

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there. 

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy 

and the hatred in them clear. 

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.” 

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously. 

“Nikki –” Eric began. 

Frowning I stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder. “I‘ll handle this.” 

don‘t think

raised an eyebrow, “Both of you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned as

can report back to his Alpha.”

he was mine, he was always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When will you let that go, Nikki? Look

you for real? You actually care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that

ex!” 

that even gotten

afraid to have you tossed in

not manhandle a

woman. Take her, Eric, put her

it‘s our pack who suffered! For an entitled princess like yourself! You killed her! You killed my

ultimately, she was a member of this pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m the

his head clearly pissed when Eric let

at both Jax and I, before she ran off.

rock on the floor. “Leo is

“No, he won‘t because he won‘t know. He

be. No one is to relay this

his hands. “I understand that Luna... but she needs to be

agree.” Jax growled.

head. “Not this

(END OF FLASHBACK) 

lose their lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal Leo already. If I wasn‘t pregnant, I would have gone after Judah

see Leo enter, his eyes instantly landing

to shower with your clothes on.” He said quietly as he walked over to

look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men

stepped into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking

was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and

said I‘m fine.”

him – refusing to turn towards him. I growled as

an amused smirk on his face, one that didn‘t reach his eyes, which were still filled with concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do whatever the fuck you want, just don‘t

him a scathing glare. “I don‘t, when I need to go take a dump, I do!” I snapped in response, although I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk

Maybe... 

him to grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total bitch, with no class or compassion, yet you were

to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking know.

wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew, going forward, he could

yet terrifying

had felt had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the

taunted, clearly finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have

my cheeks as he gazed into my eyes. “So, I take it that every time I piss you off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and

becoming more noticeable now, but I was not going to show him that.

gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold water. His eyes flashed with

on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as he claimed

girl, I love you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words were echoing in my mind.