Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it. 

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom. 

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up 

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal. 

“Yeah?!” 

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral. 

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault. 

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower. 

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.” 

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold. 

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1 

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me. 

My fault... 

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt. 

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt. 

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either… 

(FLASHBACK). 

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more. 

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there. 

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy 

and the hatred in them clear. 

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.” 

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously. 

“Nikki –” Eric began. 

Frowning I stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder. “I‘ll handle this.” 

head, “I don‘t think that‘s wise, let‘s get you home.”

of you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned

report back to his Alpha.” Nikki said,

You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs

bitter laugh “Are you for real? You actually care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone

ex!” 

that even gotten

have you tossed in

a woman!” Nikki shouted.

scoffed. “For real? You‘re a warrior, not a weak, innocent woman. Take her, Eric, put her in for a day.

pack who suffered! For an entitled princess like yourself! You killed her! You killed my

hurting too... I stayed quiet because ultimately, she was a member of this pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked

his head clearly pissed when

she glanced at both Jax and I, before she ran

a rock on the floor. “Leo is going

won‘t because he won‘t know. He already has enough on

need extra. Leave it be. No one is to relay

hands. “I understand that

Jax

shook my head. “Not

(END OF FLASHBACK) 

fool to think no one... I wish

open, and I turned sharply to see

new trend was to shower with your clothes

something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men enter without permission.

tightly around me as he stepped into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said quietly, pressing his head

to him. It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and there was nowhere else I‘d rather be than in

I said I‘m

me, forcing me to turn, and I fought him – refusing to turn towards him. I growled as I shoved him. “For someone who‘s

that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do whatever the fuck you want, just don‘t fucking

take a dump, I do!” I snapped in response, although I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I really didn‘t fucking mean it the way you took it. I just meant I fucking hate him.”

Maybe... 

for him to grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total bitch, with no class or compassion, yet

my arms and I was about to pull away only for him to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking know. I can let my walls down and you‘ll see that I

I would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew, going forward, he could kill someone right in front of me, and if he denied it, I would believe

yet terrifying too.

here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the urge to crush his balls. ‘I

finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have to! How else do I get my revenge? You‘re so

an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get

water was becoming more noticeable now, but I was not going to show him

was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold water. His eyes flashed with

down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as

love you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words