Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it. 

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom. 

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up 

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal. 

“Yeah?!” 

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral. 

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault. 

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower. 

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.” 

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold. 

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1 

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me. 

My fault... 

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt. 

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt. 

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either… 

(FLASHBACK). 

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more. 

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there. 

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy 

and the hatred in them clear. 

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.” 

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously. 

“Nikki –” Eric began. 

Frowning I stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder. “I‘ll handle this.” 

shook his head, “I don‘t think that‘s wise, let‘s

“Both of you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned as Eric slowly backed off. “Jax, let me handle this. Stay, just don‘t speak.”

report back to his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The

mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When will you let that go, Nikki? Look ... Let‘s not do this

the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that

ex!” 

even

have you tossed

not manhandle a

not a weak, innocent woman. Take her, Eric, put her in

like yourself! You killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as Eric tried to drag her away, clamping his hand over her mouth.

as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m the future Alpha‘s

pissed when Eric let go

glanced at both Jax and I, before she ran off.

rock on the floor. “Leo is going

because he won‘t know. He

plate, he doesn‘t need extra. Leave it be. No one is to

that Luna... but she needs

Jax growled.

head. “Not

(END OF FLASHBACK) 

a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal Leo already. If I wasn‘t pregnant, I would have gone

turned sharply to see Leo enter, his eyes instantly landing on

shower with your clothes on.” He said

brushed my soaking hair off my face giving him a dirty look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do

into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said quietly, pressing his head against the side of mine.

my wolf fighting me as she wanted to give in to him. It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and there was nowhere else I‘d rather be than in his

I said

me, forcing me to turn, and I fought him – refusing to turn towards

concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do whatever the

to go take a dump, I do!” I snapped in response, although I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The

Maybe... 

grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I

me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking know. I can let my walls down and you‘ll see that I do not blame you for any

my head. He didn‘t need to prove anything to me. I could tell he wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew, going forward, he could kill someone right in front of me,

yet terrifying

had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I

it the most.” He taunted, clearly finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have to! How else do I

it that every time I piss you off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get that staple gun...” I glowered at him, trying to

now, but I

your dick obviously,

wait...” I muttered. To my surprise, he simply chuckled, crashing his lips right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as he claimed my trembling lips in a

you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words were