Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it. 

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom. 

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up 

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal. 

“Yeah?!” 

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral. 

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault. 

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower. 

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.” 

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold. 

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1 

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me. 

My fault... 

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt. 

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt. 

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either… 

(FLASHBACK). 

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more. 

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there. 

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy 

and the hatred in them clear. 

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.” 

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously. 

“Nikki –” Eric began. 

Frowning I stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder. “I‘ll handle this.” 

think that‘s wise,

Jax frowned as

his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The

my head. “No, he was mine, he was always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When will you let that go, Nikki? Look ... Let‘s not do this at

pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that the man

ex!” 

had that even gotten out?

have you tossed in prison Nikki!” Jax growled, grabbing her

not manhandle a woman!” Nikki shouted.

warrior, not a weak, innocent woman. Take her, Eric, put

Once more it‘s our pack who suffered! For an entitled princess like yourself! You killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as Eric tried to drag her away, clamping his hand over her mouth.

her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m the

clearly pissed when

Jax

floor. “Leo is going

he won‘t because he won‘t know. He already has enough

one is to relay this to him. Am I clear?”

looked down at his hands. “I understand that

Jax growled.

head. “Not this

(END OF FLASHBACK) 

lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal Leo

door clicked open, and I turned sharply to see Leo enter, his eyes instantly landing on

your clothes on.” He said

look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men enter without permission. “Iturned my back on him, grabbing the

wrapped tightly around me as he stepped into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry,

to him. It was at times when we were at

said I‘m fine.”

turn towards him. I

response was an amused smirk on his face, one that didn‘t reach his eyes, which were still filled with concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d

I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I really didn‘t fucking mean it the way you took it. I just meant I

Maybe... 

my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in

and I was about to pull away only for him to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly,

he wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew, going forward, he could kill someone right in front of me, and if

yet terrifying too.

here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the urge to crush his balls. ‘I will crush your

every fucking time.” “Of course, I have to! How else do I get

going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get that staple gun...” I glowered at him, trying to ignore how

water was becoming more noticeable now, but I was not going

He asked. I peered at him suspiciously. Was he seriously asking me that? I mean, he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.”

on mine. Rivers

you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words were echoing in my