Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it. 

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom. 

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up 

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal. 

“Yeah?!” 

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral. 

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault. 

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower. 

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.” 

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold. 

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1 

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me. 

My fault... 

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt. 

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt. 

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either… 

(FLASHBACK). 

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more. 

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there. 

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy 

and the hatred in them clear. 

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.” 

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously. 

“Nikki –” Eric began. 

Frowning I stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder. “I‘ll handle this.” 

shook his head, “I don‘t think that‘s wise, let‘s get you

you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned as Eric slowly backed off. “Jax, let me handle this. Stay, just don‘t

so he can report back to his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The

always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with

a bitter laugh “Are you for real? You actually care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead!

ex!” 

even gotten

afraid to have you tossed

not manhandle a

Take her, Eric, put her in for a day. I‘m sure Leo won‘t mind.”

yourself! You killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as Eric tried to drag her away,

hurt but she was hurting too... I stayed quiet because ultimately, she was a member of this pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax...

when Eric

her, she glanced at both Jax and I,

on the floor. “Leo is

my head, I sighed. “No, he won‘t because he won‘t know. He already has enough on

it be. No one is to relay

looked down at his hands. “I understand that Luna... but

Jax

shook my head. “Not this

(END OF FLASHBACK) 

many more would lose their lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal

I turned sharply to see Leo enter, his eyes

to shower with your clothes on.” He said quietly as he walked over

I brushed my soaking hair off my face giving him a dirty look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men enter without permission. “Iturned

me as he stepped into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like

feel my wolf fighting me as she wanted to give in to him. It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and there was nowhere else

I said I‘m fine.”

I fought him – refusing to turn towards him. I growled as

reach his eyes, which were still filled with concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do whatever the fuck you

comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I really didn‘t fucking mean it the way you took it. I just meant

Maybe... 

him to grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total bitch, with no

to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking

he wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew,

terrifying

around, realising the anger and hurt I had felt had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the

do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have to! How else do

his fingers brushing my cheeks as he gazed into my eyes. “So, I take it that every time I piss you off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get that staple gun...” I

noticeable now, but I was not

staple gun?” He asked. I peered at him suspiciously. Was he seriously asking me that? I mean, he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold water. His eyes flashed with surprise as he looked at me

surprise, he simply chuckled, crashing his lips right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me,

in my mind, making me