And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

I hadn't meant to ask that question out loud. It was supposed to be internally done, but unfortunately, my brain and my mouth right now were not communicating properly and with me asking that question, he let out a soft chuckle that made me blush. "How do I make you feel?"

The question alerted me to reality and caused me to quickly step around him and out of his touch. My mind raced with a million and one thoughts of Lucas, of Silas, of my brother and Trixie, of everything that had happened since I came to this God forsaken place. "I don't even know how I feel about things, let alone know how you make me feel or anybody else. And I have a mate. I don't understand this. Why is it that I'm so attracted to you?"

He stood staring at me for a moment, as if he was contemplating his next words with another heavy sigh escaping him as he nodded, gesturing for me to take a seat on my bed. "I think I might be able to explain things to you in some kind of way. But first, I do want to say how sorry I am that I didn't tell you sooner. I prolonged our visits at the library because I wanted to spend more time with you, which was selfish of me."

"Are you saying you withheld information from me that could have possibly sped this up a lot faster because you wanted to hang out with me?" I grumbled, anger slowly bubbling inside of me realizing this could have all been sorted out long ago.

Opening and closing his mouth, he nodded his head. "Kind of. It's a little more complicated than that, but if you give me a chance, I'd like to explain everything to you."

I wanted to protest to tell him to get the fuck out of my room because he had wasted so much of my time, but I wanted to know what he had to say. I wanted to hear his explanation because part of me longed for him, thought of him day and night, just as I did for Lucas, and none of that made sense to me.

"Fine, explain. But make it quick because right now, I'm more upset than I was when I walked into this room." I reluctantly replied. However, as I waited his brows furrowed in recognition of what I had said. "Why were you crying? What happened?"

was completely ignoring I had allowed him to explain himself and instead was going back to why I was upset when he walked in here. If he hadn't noticed when

matter. Just

my feet, not able to sit down anymore as

going to tell him

stop thinking

know you more, and at first, I didn't understand it either. But honestly, the only thing I

together."

the forwardness. It wasn't what I was expecting. I knew he enjoyed being around me, but with

I have a mate," I whispered as he stepped closer

woman that you are. I do, though I can be that