And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

by his outburst.”I asked

dawned on him, and as

talk her out of picking those

is adamant that those are the children’s names and

Castor can be shortened to Cassie, which I’m sure that she will go by, and Pollux is a strong, sturdy name, and if he really wanted to shorten, he could shorten it to Polly, which is

disbelief, absolutely speechless, as James

of the nursery where she was folding baby clothes. “Why don’t you tell them

a seat back in the small rocking chair I had near

first set of twins born in Gemini. Their bloodlines are strong and if you pay close attention, you can feel their power within them…I can’t explain

Kate muttered, scrunching her brows as in confusion. “That’s impossible.

the last one hundred years,” Priscilla said as she walked through the door with a cup of hot

silent thank you. The steam from the

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

will help to

dying. I knew it was my mind tormenting me because I was so

try to get some sleep. The problem is whether Pollux will allow me to get some

room chuckled, and my mother smiled, standing to her feet as she walked towards me. “Did you express milk today like I told

but being a new mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse from me.

like you said. There is enough for tonight,

with a smile on her face as she glanced at Priscilla. “Priscilla and I will

done, mother,” I scoffed as I lifted the teacup to my

as hard as you think, and

try to accompany it and

she had talked to her mate Blake. He was growing impatient, but

your mate sent me with parting words to give to you,” kate said

And what were those

home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless. He wants your one -on-one game night

what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,” I said nonchalantly, watching as Kate’ s eyes widened and a look of

absolutely fucking disgusting. I am not your sex correspondent person over here. You two need to learn how to figure out

disgust over what she

trying to keep my spirits high, but

seemed to bring

at each other before Kate sighed. “I wasn’t able to find anything, but we have

kind