And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

raised, she stared at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his outburst.”I

and as he looked at

of picking those names and sticking

are the children’s names and so, therefore,

to Cassie, which I’m sure that she will go by, and Pollux is a strong, sturdy

absolutely

the only reason you named them that,” Mom called from the other side of the nursery where she was folding baby

in the small rocking chair I had near their crib. My eyes

Gemini. Their bloodlines are strong

as in confusion.

through the door with a cup of hot tea. “Sorry it took me so long, my dear Hale had a few

thank you. The steam from the piping hot liquid filled my

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen you up and

Damian dying. I knew it was my mind tormenting me because I was so concerned, but to picture him on a

try to get some sleep. The problem is

mother smiled, standing to her feet as she walked towards me. “Did you express milk today like I

slowly. I had a breast pump, but being a new mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse from me. Having my body supply them with an ability

did. I stocked just like you said.

at Priscilla. “Priscilla and I will take tonight’s feeding shifts with the

I scoffed as I lifted the

as hard as you think,

situation, try to

no matter how many times she had talked to her mate Blake. He was growing impatient, but she told him he could come

let you know that your mate sent me with parting words to give

right? And what were those

come home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless. He wants your one -on-one game night fun. Whatever the fuck

exactly what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,” I said nonchalantly, watching as Kate’ s eyes widened and a look of disgust crossed her face

not your sex correspondent person

us as we enjoyed Kate’s disgust over what she had just done.

my spirits high, but I have to

in conversation seemed to bring silence

of them looked at each other before Kate sighed. “I wasn’t able

kind