And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his outburst.”I asked her why she picked

as he

out of picking those names and sticking

children’s names and so, therefore, I will not argue with

by, and Pollux is a strong, sturdy name, and if he really wanted to shorten, he could shorten it to

in disbelief, absolutely

side of the nursery where she was folding baby clothes. “Why don’t you tell them

and took a seat back in the small rocking chair I

bloodlines are strong

scrunching her brows as in

door with a cup of hot tea. “Sorry it took me so long, my dear Hale had a few

you. The steam from the piping hot liquid filled my nostrils, and I closed my

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

is, and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen you

knew it was my mind tormenting me because I was so concerned, but to picture him on a boulder as a sacrificial lamb being slaughtered, it was a horrible sight

to get some sleep. The problem is whether Pollux will allow me to

mother smiled, standing to her feet as she walked

though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse from me. Having my body supply them

stocked just like you said. There is enough for tonight,

as she glanced at Priscilla. “Priscilla and I will take tonight’s feeding

than done, mother,” I scoffed as

as hard as you think, and

to accompany

She refused to leave, no matter how many times she had talked to her mate Blake. He was growing impatient, but

that, I wanted to let you know that your mate sent me with parting words to give to you,” kate said as she turned to my mother, whose eyes

that right? And

come here and drag you home, regardless.

I knew exactly what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,” I said nonchalantly, watching as Kate’ s eyes widened and a look of disgust crossed her face as she glanced between

I am not your sex correspondent person over

she had just done. Moments like

to keep my spirits high, but I have to know… did

in conversation seemed

them looked at each other before Kate sighed. “I wasn’t able to

What kind