And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

brows raised, she stared at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his outburst.”I

and as

out of

the children’s names and so, therefore, I will not argue with

Pollux is a strong, sturdy name, and

in disbelief, absolutely

reason you named them that,” Mom called from the other side of the nursery where she was folding baby clothes. “Why don’t you tell them

heavily and took a seat back in the small rocking chair I had near

I had. They were the first set of twins born in Gemini. Their bloodlines are strong and if you pay close attention, you can feel their power within them…I can’t explain

brows as in confusion. “That’s impossible. There haven’t been Gemini

one hundred years,” Priscilla said as she walked through the door with a cup of hot tea. “Sorry it took me so long, my dear Hale had a

you. The steam from the piping

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen you

was my mind tormenting me because I

to get some sleep. The problem is whether

walked towards me. “Did you

my head slowly. I had a breast pump, but being a new mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was

did. I stocked just like you said. There is enough for

I will take tonight’s feeding shifts with the milk that you’ve stored. You will sleep and not wake until

done, mother,” I scoffed as I lifted the teacup

as you think,

try to accompany it

she had talked to her mate Blake. He was growing impatient, but she told him he

me with parting words to give to you,” kate said as she turned

And what

you don’t come home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless.

I knew exactly what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,” I said nonchalantly, watching as Kate’ s eyes widened and a look

person

what she had just done. Moments like this were the ones I looked

to keep my spirits high, but I have

conversation seemed to bring silence

Kate sighed. “I wasn’t able to find anything, but we have

What kind