And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

raised, she stared at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his outburst.”I asked

dawned on him, and as he looked

her out of

but she is adamant that those are the children’s names and

that bad. Castor can be shortened to Cassie, which I’m sure that she will go by, and Pollux is a strong, sturdy name, and if he really wanted to

stared at me in disbelief, absolutely speechless, as James sighed at my

called from the other side of the nursery where she was folding baby clothes. “Why don’t you tell them the other part of

I had breathed out heavily and took a seat back in the small rocking chair

twins born in Gemini. Their bloodlines are strong and if you pay close attention, you can feel their

Kate muttered, scrunching her brows as in confusion. “That’s impossible.

of hot tea. “Sorry it took me so long, my dear Hale had a few questions

The steam from the piping hot liquid filled my nostrils, and I closed

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

it is, and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen you up and clear your minds so that you

was my mind tormenting me because I was

problem is whether Pollux

chuckled, and my mother smiled, standing to her feet as she walked towards me. “Did you express milk today

moment, I nodded my head slowly. I had a breast pump, but being a new mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse from me. Having my

stocked just like you said. There

will take tonight’s feeding shifts with the milk

said than done, mother,” I scoffed as I lifted the teacup

as you think, and instead of

situation, try to accompany it and

to her mate Blake.

wanted to let you know that your mate sent me with parting words to give to you,” kate said as she turned to my mother,

that right? And

if you don’t come home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless. He wants your one -on-one game night fun. Whatever

me off guard, and I knew exactly what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,”

not your sex correspondent person over here. You two need to learn how to figure out your

us as we enjoyed Kate’s disgust over what she had just

that you’re trying to keep my spirits high, but I have to know… did you find

in conversation seemed to bring silence to

each other before Kate sighed. “I wasn’t able to find anything, but we

kind