And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

and brows raised, she stared at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his outburst.”I asked her why she picked those baby

as he looked

her out of picking those

those are the children’s names and so, therefore, I will not argue with

that bad. Castor can be shortened to Cassie, which I’m sure that she will go by, and Pollux is a strong,

me in disbelief, absolutely speechless, as James sighed at

where she was folding

I had breathed out heavily and took a seat back in the small rocking chair I had

bloodlines are strong and if you pay close

brows as in confusion. “That’s impossible. There

a cup of hot tea. “Sorry it took

gave her a silent thank you. The steam from the

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

is, and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen

knew Priscilla was right, but the problem was every time! closed my eyes, I saw Damian dying. I knew it was my mind tormenting me because I was so concerned, but to picture him on a boulder as a sacrificial lamb being slaughtered, it was a

is whether Pollux will allow me to

chuckled, and my mother smiled, standing to her feet as she walked towards me. “Did you express milk today like I told you to do

moment, I nodded my head slowly. I had a breast pump, but being a new mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse from me.

you said. There is

and I will take tonight’s feeding shifts with the milk that you’ve stored. You will sleep and

scoffed as I

hard as you think, and instead of

to accompany it and

was no winning with this woman. She refused to leave, no matter how many times she had talked to her mate Blake. He was

that your mate sent me with parting words to give to you,” kate said as she

that right? And

home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless. He wants your one -on-one game night fun. Whatever the fuck that

a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex message,” I said nonchalantly, watching as Kate’ s eyes widened and a look of

sex correspondent person over here. You two

what she had just done.

that you’re trying to keep my spirits high, but I

conversation seemed to bring silence

of them looked at each other before Kate sighed.

kind of