And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 104: Losing Control

Ivy.

Burning fires, distant roars, signs of blood, and many more.

These were things that filled my mind every time I closed my eyes, and though I sought comfort and love that I had for my children, I felt incredibly vulnerable.

It had been three days since I’d had the children and three days since I had even touched Damien. He was still not home, and my heart broke every moment he was away. 

Some might think I was being selfish because I had three more mates here that doted on me endlessly and wanted my attention, but the problem was, it was hard when part of you was missing.

I wasn’t trying to be complicated.

wasn’t trying to ruin the relationships that I had. Everybody seemed to think I should just be okay, but nobody knows what it’s like to have a piece of you torn away. 

To have someone you love taken from you, and not knowing whether they are alive or dead. That feeling was incredibly raw. 

One moment you’re trying to pretend you’re okay, and the next you’re sobbing.

‘Hey, you,” kate said, knocking on my door. I hadn’t seen her since the day the babies were born. She was full of life, but

when we found out that Damian was taken, she headed back home in search of answers.

“You’re back,” I said with a small smile as I stood from where

hug I feared would end.

“I told you I’d be back now. Where are my little babies at?”

With a small giggle, she strolled over to the crib and looked down at the two sleeping babies within. They were beautiful in every way, and I was still amazed every day at how lucky was to have them.

“Castor is the sleeping beauty, as always. But her brother Pollux does not enjoy sleeping for more than three hours.”

her nose. “I still cannot believe that those are the two names that you chose. Castor is such a boy’s name, and Pollux, are you trying to have the poor kid picked on?”

Laughter erupted from my lips for the first time in days, and as it did, I watched James pop his head around the corner, staring at me with surprise.

“Holy shit, how did you make her laugh? I’ve literally been trying to do that for the past few days.”

dumbfounded by his outburst.”I asked her why she picked those

and as he

talk her out of picking those names and

are the children’s

be shortened to Cassie, which I’m sure that she will go by, and Pollux is a strong, sturdy name, and if he really

in disbelief, absolutely speechless, as

is not the only reason you named them that,” Mom called from the other side of the nursery where she was folding baby clothes. “Why don’t you tell them the other part of the reason why

I had breathed out heavily and took a seat back in the small rocking chair I

had. They were the first set of twins born in Gemini. Their bloodlines are strong and if you pay close attention, you can feel their power within them…I

twins?” Kate muttered, scrunching her brows as in confusion. “That’s impossible. There haven’t been Gemini twins

said as she walked through the door with a cup of hot tea. “Sorry

The steam from

“This smells absolutely delicious.”

is, and the herbs infused in the tea will help to loosen you

it was my mind tormenting me because I was so concerned, but to picture him on a boulder

will try to get some sleep. The problem is whether Pollux

she walked towards me. “Did you express milk today

mother, it felt unnatural. Even though it was super convenient, I enjoyed the feeling of having my children nurse

did. I stocked just like you said. There is enough for

face as she glanced at Priscilla. “Priscilla and I will take tonight’s feeding shifts with the milk that you’ve stored. You will sleep and not wake until

easier said than done, mother,” I scoffed as I lifted the teacup to

hard as you think, and instead of

try to accompany it

to leave, no matter how many times she had talked to her mate Blake. He was growing impatient, but she told him he

know that your mate sent me with parting words to give to you,”

And what

simply said that if you don’t come home, he is going to come here and drag you home, regardless. He wants your one -on-one game night fun. Whatever the

and I knew exactly what that was a reference to. “Kate, you literally just passed a sex

that’s just absolutely fucking disgusting. I am not your sex correspondent person over here.

around us as we enjoyed Kate’s disgust over what she had just done. Moments like this were the ones

that you’re trying to keep my spirits high, but I have to

seemed to bring silence

at each other before Kate sighed.

kind