And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 118: Returning Home

~~ One year since the fall~~

James.

One year.

It had been one year since the fall of the war, and Ivy still was not with us. My heart longed to see her again, and every day I passed where she slept on the bed, I contemplated if we would ever get her back, if the gods would ever release her from the prison she was in.

That was right. I blamed them.

They allowed her to do this, and they could have helped her out of this, regardless of what anybody said. Her mind needed rest, yes, but a fucking year.

Something was wrong, and she needed help.

What killed me the most was that I couldn’t help her.

Standing in the kitchen, I grabbed the rest of the towels from the basket I had washed and slowly folded them. It was time for the twins’ bath, and even though Hale had just come down and said they were perfectly content in the crib, staring at Ivy, I couldn’t help but feel slightly jealous they seemed to know something we didn’t.

“I don’t know why you’re always such a pessimist, James. You used to be so happy all the time,” Talon growled with irritation at my latest comment.

“You’re not treating them right on the training field, and you know it. The war has been over. You have to give those men a break every now and again.”

“Last time I checked, you weren’t in charge of training anymore. You were playing Daddy because you didn’t want to get a nanny,” Talon snapped, causing anger to soar through me.

“Go fuck yourself, Talon. Those are our children. How dare you fucking say something like that?”

“Yeah, I know they are. But you know what… we each have to have time for ourselves, too. You’re literally up there fucking killing yourself day and night, and even at night when they’re sleeping, you don’t sleep because the only thing you do is sit in the chair and watch them and watch Ivy as if you’re hoping she’ll actually fucking wake up. She isn’t coming back, James! We should have laid her to rest already!”

Talon, suggesting Ivy was dead, pissed me off more than anything. I knew he was only lashing out because he was angry, because he was hurt. He prayed in the beginning to the goddess all the time to bring her back and cried at her bedside.

But day after day after day, he was let down because she still wasn’t back

I could feel his pain through the bond. A pain I wish I could end for him. But Talon was the most messed up out of all of us.

At least he was until Damian woke up again.

Casting my gaze towards the small sitting room that led off of the kitchen, I watched Damian sit in the chair, his eyes staring out the window exactly the same as it was every day. 

We were on our own now. 

had returned to her pack and mate months ago, mourning the loss of a child who wasn’t dead. Kate had gotten

on as if Ivy wasn’t lying upstairs, missing out on

me, because she

the twins in the bath. We promised movie night tonight, and we’re going to

up.”

nodding his head. The conversation was over, and as I headed up the stairs, I couldn’t help but think something about today

about today that

wish I knew what

*********** 

Ivy.

free of the water holding

wide as I sat up, gasping and sputtering for air. A sense of joy and

in the fresh flowers and the smell of

airing

I saw Castor’s celestial orbs staring back at me with an excited expression. Her tiny hands clapped together frantically

Pollux.

me, but they weren’t the same small babies I had left behind

“Oh, my sweet babies.”

to get up from the bed, but unfortunately, my legs refused to cooperate. My time laid in bed caused the muscle mass in my body to weaken. It didn’t

I stared back at my children, I saw Castor look towards the bedroom door and get excited again before she turned to her brother, who seemed to be indifferent to

two… whose ready for

stack of towels in his hand, and as his eyes latched onto mine, he froze in his step. The only sound was Castor laughing and clapping

from the twins to me, and then

really wanna know how, or are you going to give

pressing his lips to mine in a slow, deep, passionate

away, I smiled softly, wincing at the pain in my

to my lap as he seemed to try and hold back the tears. “No

my hand over the side of his cheek, I kissed

don’t I surprise

he smiled at me. “What do you

I will show

both eager at this point to get out, and were trying their hardest to

me as they snuggled into my chest, laying their heads against my breasts. They had missed

thought of the others.

said through the link, causing James to

stairs, heading down the hallway straight for me. My door burst