And Then There Were Four (Lilith Carrie)

Chapter 178: Shocking Confessions

Cassie.

I wasn't sure what I was doing or what was going to happen, but something about Silas being close to me was overwhelming. Something about him staring at me the way he did drove my heart crazy. He was supposed to simply be a friend... a guy I had met on campus who happened to help me when I needed it most with Lucas.

Yet, during the time we had spent together things had changed and every part of me screamed out to be with him.

I had done it once before... and I can't resist the urge to do it again.

The moment my lips crashed upon his, a fire burnt through me that was something I hadn't experienced before, and I knew he felt it too because the heat that poured off his body told me he wanted this as much as I did.

With the lift of his arms around my body, he pulled me up higher upon his chest, my legs wrapping around his waist as he held me to him. Our tongues battled for dominance as he walked me towards the sofa, sitting down with me straddling his lap.

As much as I wanted to continue, he broke the kiss, his hands in my hair as he stared at me with darting eyes that seemed to search for answers I didn't know how to explain.

‘'Cassie-" he breathed out shallowly trying to catch his breath, "what are we doing?"

As much as I wanted to answer him with something serious, I couldn't. A snort of laughter escaped me as I pressed my lips gently to him again. "Kissing... don't stop-"

Attempting to kiss him again, he stopped me once more, shaking his head. "Cassie, we can't, trust me I want to but we can’t."

“Why not?" I frowned in confusion at his refusal. "We have before-"

“Yes, but you're not the same as before, Cassie," he replied, cutting me off. 'You’re not just a celestial half-breed. You're the future of this realm, and you're meant to be paired with a mate from the games. Not someone like me."

There were no words I could say that would explain the heartache I felt, and I couldn't be angry because I could see in his own face the upset he felt in saying it. It was clear the games were more of a problem for me than I wanted to admit, and taking them seriously was something I was obviously going to have to do.

"Don't say that..." I muttered softly, shaking my head, his hands falling to my thighs as he cast his gaze to the far while breathing deeply. "Silas, don’t say that... I can't lose you.'

be assigned to you as your guardian, but I will always be here for you. From now... until forever, Cassie. I just can’t be this that you want. You deserve

we both knew we wanted, but I understood how he thought he was helping to save me from doing something that could harm my reputation or anything else forthat matter. It was my life, and the fact I was being faced with all the royal bullshit and now Silas wanting to suddenly

Here I was in the mood to have him ravish me and help me forget about all the bullshit I was going through, and instead, he stops and worries about how I would look to other

up picking

as a chuckle escaped his lips, and he stared at me with amusement in his eyes. 'You don't get to pick, Cassie.

understanding what he meant, I opened my mouth to speak but instead,

I couldn't lie and say I wasn't because, in a way, I sort of was. Sansa had tried to

head, "I won't

sad glance. 'Unfortunately, you don't

what I was able to do was disappointing. I would have thought that by now, he would have known I was able to do anything I set my mind to unless I was a fool to believe I could. 'I can

Only just a moment ago, we were making out, and I at least was hoping for more, and now he is standing in front of me with a nonchalant

was because, besides Sansa, I really wanted him on my side. Yeah, he may have been willing to help me figure out the shit I was supposed to do... but, this was ridiculous

argue... this isn't what I

me grit my teeth as I narrowed my gaze

wording correctly before responding. I wasn't sure why he had come if it hadn't been to spend time with

you and apologize for leaving," he replied politically as if suddenly he was indifferent to our interaction. Yet, even though he spoke, I

can tell there is more to what you're telling me. So why don’t you spit it out

his throat, I knew my assumptions were correct. "Well, I was sincere in saying I would help you with the games, Cassie. However, I did want to

are you talking

he stared down with a sense of knowing that drove me crazy with curiosity. "Do you

off guard, and as I stared at him with my lips parted, completely dumbfounded, I shook

You should be. There is more going on behind the scenes than you know, and even though you're angry at me because of what has taken place tonight... I’m not what you should worry yourself with. There are going to be people here who are going to test you, and if you're not prepared, you will fall...

warning, and as I watched him turn and head towards my bedroom door,

can't just leave things like that," I snapped angrily as I marched after him grabbing his upper arm, stopping him

he stared for a moment before pulling his arm from my grasp. "Cassie, if I stay around like I was before, I will only complicate things for you. Sansa and others are