Babysitting The Amnesiac Lycan King

Chapter 101

Chapter 101

One shoe.

That's what I walked back with. Just one fucking shoe, and maybe I was also carrying bits and pieces of my heart as well.

And I wish I could say it was a metaphor, but no. Literally. One shoe on, the other hand gripping the other pair like I'm some deranged Cinderella with swollen eyes and mascara bleeding into her jawline.

Goddamnit, how pathetic do I look right now. Zoe would probably look at me and her face would scrunch up.

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My feet drag across the palace floor, the silence so thick it scratches at my eardrums. It's already past midnight, everyone is either asleep or hiding from their Alpha King's rage.

I don't even make it to my bed. I collapse face-first into the mattress of my sofa and scream. Into the pillow, of course, because I'm still pathetic enough to care about who hears me.'

"Ah!" I punch the pillow, my voice being muffled by the cotton.

I scream until I'm lightheaded. Until my throat is dry. Until I'm sick of my own damn voice.

Enoch's still out there. Somewhere. Probably throwing shit at walls. Maybe punching a tree or murdering some political advisor or-fuck if I care.

But I do.

I care so much it's disgusting. This is what had gotten me here. This stupid attention to everything.

My face is still wet when I flip over, staring blankly at the ceiling like it might have answers. The chandelier above mocks me, sparkling like a fucking dream I never should've had in the first place.

All this, it's a stupid dream and I might as well be back in the Woodridge Pack and even though I was an Omega, things were peaceful. Hell, I would have handled Kallias' rejection a whole lot better than whatever this is Enoch and I have right now.

"You just loved." I feel Eris shifting in my head. The lump in my throat grows heavy and before I knew it, my arm finds their way over my eyes as I wipe a new tear that fell astray.

"That's the problem," I whisper. "I loved."

Eris shifts inside my head and before I knew it, she falls silent. I'm scared. I'm scared of the love I have for him. I know it will ruin me, and I also kn

fully well I will let it.

A knock startles me off the mattress and up to my feet as a very rushing fist bangs

at my door. Geez, it's 1AM, have some decency. I immediately wipe any visible traces of tears In my face.

It's not even a hesitant one-no courtesy for the broken girl on the other side. Just a swift, sharp tap-tap and then the door cracks open.

"Miss Sinclair," a soft voice peeps in on the door. One of the maids, the one who always smiles too much. "The Queen Dowager would like to see you."

I blink. Once, twice. The room spins. It's past midnight? What in the world is an old woman staying up at this time for?

"Now?" I croak.

She nods.

Of course she does.

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"I'll be there in a minute."

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weigh like lead, and start fixing the

smack him

mirror meets my auburn eyes and she looks as tired as I feel. Red-rimmed eyes. Puffiness. A split lip I didn't

it'll erase the damn truth. "You've survived

Another inhale. Another exhale.

to the room. I'm going to have to think when I'll be leaving. I'm still not entirely sure what I'm supposed to do with the job the Dowager Queen entrusted me with, but perhaps I can

around my body-hoping I wouldn't

Then I leave.

usual lavender and soap. Like old royalty and forgotten wars. The kind of place you whisper in without meaning to. Goddess, I already did.

I knock once.

"Come in, dear."

her cane tapping the floor as she moves toward a carved vanity table, squinting at a cluster of

my medication," she mutters, frustrated. "Your eyes are young-come. Help

I almost smile. Almost.

her hand.

are for my bones. This one's for sleep." She huffs, lowering herself onto the couch with all the grace of someone used to ruling nations. She's once a queen, alright. “I swear these jars multiply just to

you go back to bed, I'll look for it." I suggest. She turns to me and nods as I lead her back to the sheets, taking her cane after she sat down. I settle her onto the cushion,

this is just exactly

the table. I find the correct label, pick up the tiny capsule, and turn around again to

about

My breath stutters.

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wobbles under my grip, water sloshing over

did you-"I start, voice too small. I hate

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the

This woman knows everything, I swear. I can't

Her fingers are cool but firm, the skin worn like paper from years of surviving shit I probably

fine," I lie, chuckling for

blink, however which tells me she's absolutely not buying my shit. "You're not. Sit down before you fall down." Her voice is hoarse as she

for once, I don't

edge of the bed. She doesn't look

the seat like she's

couple of times

me," she urges. Fuck it, this

swipe under my eyes before I can stop myself. I recall everything that's happened in the past

"I think I'm done."

hums. "No,

I've waited. I've hoped. I've bent myself backwards

give."

the windows. I always thought it's a bit rude for that. But,

he walked into my heart as if he belonged there. I let him take down my walls, and then... he lit

I know," she says, eyes sharper than they should

laugh bitterly. "You don't

"I know enough. I knew who

into my room the first time all those weeks ago.

were lost.

looking up at

smiles. "I can tell a Lancaster in

an eye."

cold.

I first

me off,

thoughts, "Your father-George. He led the

in the war with my

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