Babysitting The Amnesiac Lycan King

Chapter 101

Chapter 101

One shoe.

That's what I walked back with. Just one fucking shoe, and maybe I was also carrying bits and pieces of my heart as well.

And I wish I could say it was a metaphor, but no. Literally. One shoe on, the other hand gripping the other pair like I'm some deranged Cinderella with swollen eyes and mascara bleeding into her jawline.

Goddamnit, how pathetic do I look right now. Zoe would probably look at me and her face would scrunch up.

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My feet drag across the palace floor, the silence so thick it scratches at my eardrums. It's already past midnight, everyone is either asleep or hiding from their Alpha King's rage.

I don't even make it to my bed. I collapse face-first into the mattress of my sofa and scream. Into the pillow, of course, because I'm still pathetic enough to care about who hears me.'

"Ah!" I punch the pillow, my voice being muffled by the cotton.

I scream until I'm lightheaded. Until my throat is dry. Until I'm sick of my own damn voice.

Enoch's still out there. Somewhere. Probably throwing shit at walls. Maybe punching a tree or murdering some political advisor or-fuck if I care.

But I do.

I care so much it's disgusting. This is what had gotten me here. This stupid attention to everything.

My face is still wet when I flip over, staring blankly at the ceiling like it might have answers. The chandelier above mocks me, sparkling like a fucking dream I never should've had in the first place.

All this, it's a stupid dream and I might as well be back in the Woodridge Pack and even though I was an Omega, things were peaceful. Hell, I would have handled Kallias' rejection a whole lot better than whatever this is Enoch and I have right now.

"You just loved." I feel Eris shifting in my head. The lump in my throat grows heavy and before I knew it, my arm finds their way over my eyes as I wipe a new tear that fell astray.

"That's the problem," I whisper. "I loved."

Eris shifts inside my head and before I knew it, she falls silent. I'm scared. I'm scared of the love I have for him. I know it will ruin me, and I also kn

fully well I will let it.

A knock startles me off the mattress and up to my feet as a very rushing fist bangs

at my door. Geez, it's 1AM, have some decency. I immediately wipe any visible traces of tears In my face.

It's not even a hesitant one-no courtesy for the broken girl on the other side. Just a swift, sharp tap-tap and then the door cracks open.

"Miss Sinclair," a soft voice peeps in on the door. One of the maids, the one who always smiles too much. "The Queen Dowager would like to see you."

I blink. Once, twice. The room spins. It's past midnight? What in the world is an old woman staying up at this time for?

"Now?" I croak.

She nods.

Of course she does.

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"I'll be there in a minute."

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closes the door, and I breathe through my nose, march to the mirror with shoulders that weigh like lead, and

then she'd smack

looks as tired as I feel. Red-rimmed eyes. Puffiness. A split lip I didn't even notice from

I mutter, tapping concealer under my eyes as if it'll erase the damn truth. "You've survived worse." I close my eyes, muttering to

Another inhale. Another exhale.

when I'll be leaving. I'm still not entirely sure what I'm supposed to do with the job the Dowager Queen entrusted me with, but perhaps I can tell her

pull my cardigan tighter around my body-hoping I wouldn't bump with a particular someone

Then I leave.

old royalty and forgotten wars. The kind of place you

I knock once.

"Come in, dear."

tapping the

find my medication," she mutters, frustrated. "Your eyes

I almost smile. Almost.

over, taking the jar from her hand.

nations. She's once a queen, alright. “I swear these jars multiply

back to bed, I'll look for it." I suggest. She turns to me and nods as I lead her back to the sheets, taking her cane after she sat down. I settle her onto the cushion, still sitting

is comforting. Maybe this is

to the table. I find the correct label, pick up the tiny capsule, and turn around

it about

My breath stutters.

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wobbles under my grip,

too small.

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knowing. "You may be

screams in the spaces between

hand her the cup. My hands shake. This woman knows everything, I swear. I can't

fingers are cool but firm, the skin worn like paper from years of surviving shit

fine," I lie, chuckling for

which tells me she's absolutely not buying my shit. "You're not. Sit down before you fall down." Her

for once, I don't

of the bed. She

the seat like she's inviting

times tonight. I

me," she urges. Fuck it, this woman

my eyes before I can stop myself. I recall everything that's happened in the past two hours, and before I knew it, the words slip out of

"I think I'm done."

hums. "No,

do," I whisper. "I've tried. So hard. I've waited. I've hoped. I've bent myself backwards for him. I gave him everything, and now there's nothing left

give."

really no more?" She sips again, eyes on the windows. I always thought it's a bit rude for that. But, right now, all I could think about is how much comfort not having those eyes scrutinize me

there. I let him take down my walls, and then... he

girl I know," she says, eyes sharper than they should

laugh bitterly. "You

know enough.

the first time all those weeks ago. When you

were lost. You

blink, immediately looking up at her.

it?" She smiles. "I can tell

an eye."

cold.

first came in,

cuts me off,

if reading mt thoughts, "Your

in the war with my

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