Babysitting The Amnesiac Lycan King

Chapter 101

Chapter 101

One shoe.

That's what I walked back with. Just one fucking shoe, and maybe I was also carrying bits and pieces of my heart as well.

And I wish I could say it was a metaphor, but no. Literally. One shoe on, the other hand gripping the other pair like I'm some deranged Cinderella with swollen eyes and mascara bleeding into her jawline.

Goddamnit, how pathetic do I look right now. Zoe would probably look at me and her face would scrunch up.

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My feet drag across the palace floor, the silence so thick it scratches at my eardrums. It's already past midnight, everyone is either asleep or hiding from their Alpha King's rage.

I don't even make it to my bed. I collapse face-first into the mattress of my sofa and scream. Into the pillow, of course, because I'm still pathetic enough to care about who hears me.'

"Ah!" I punch the pillow, my voice being muffled by the cotton.

I scream until I'm lightheaded. Until my throat is dry. Until I'm sick of my own damn voice.

Enoch's still out there. Somewhere. Probably throwing shit at walls. Maybe punching a tree or murdering some political advisor or-fuck if I care.

But I do.

I care so much it's disgusting. This is what had gotten me here. This stupid attention to everything.

My face is still wet when I flip over, staring blankly at the ceiling like it might have answers. The chandelier above mocks me, sparkling like a fucking dream I never should've had in the first place.

All this, it's a stupid dream and I might as well be back in the Woodridge Pack and even though I was an Omega, things were peaceful. Hell, I would have handled Kallias' rejection a whole lot better than whatever this is Enoch and I have right now.

"You just loved." I feel Eris shifting in my head. The lump in my throat grows heavy and before I knew it, my arm finds their way over my eyes as I wipe a new tear that fell astray.

"That's the problem," I whisper. "I loved."

Eris shifts inside my head and before I knew it, she falls silent. I'm scared. I'm scared of the love I have for him. I know it will ruin me, and I also kn

fully well I will let it.

A knock startles me off the mattress and up to my feet as a very rushing fist bangs

at my door. Geez, it's 1AM, have some decency. I immediately wipe any visible traces of tears In my face.

It's not even a hesitant one-no courtesy for the broken girl on the other side. Just a swift, sharp tap-tap and then the door cracks open.

"Miss Sinclair," a soft voice peeps in on the door. One of the maids, the one who always smiles too much. "The Queen Dowager would like to see you."

I blink. Once, twice. The room spins. It's past midnight? What in the world is an old woman staying up at this time for?

"Now?" I croak.

She nods.

Of course she does.

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"I'll be there in a minute."

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lead,

she'd smack him for

mirror meets my auburn eyes and she looks as tired as I feel. Red-rimmed eyes. Puffiness. A split lip I didn't even notice from when I bit it

mutter, tapping concealer under my eyes as if it'll erase the damn truth. "You've survived worse." I close my

Another inhale. Another exhale.

I'm going to have to think when I'll be leaving. I'm still not entirely sure what

tighter around my body-hoping I wouldn't bump with a particular

Then I leave.

usual lavender and soap. Like old royalty and forgotten wars. The kind of place you whisper in without meaning to. Goddess,

I knock once.

"Come in, dear."

her cane tapping the floor as she moves toward

"Your eyes are young-come. Help an old

I almost smile. Almost.

jar from her hand. "You sure it's not

used to ruling nations. She's once a queen, alright. “I swear these jars multiply just to mock me." I smile at her, although I'm pretty sure it

to me and nods as I lead her back to the sheets, taking her cane after she sat down. I settle her onto the

comforting. Maybe this is just exactly what I

the correct label, pick up the tiny capsule, and turn around again to grab the cup of water-only

about Enoch

My breath stutters.

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cup wobbles under my grip, water

too small.

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"You may be quiet, girl, but

screams in the spaces between

hand her the cup. My hands shake. This woman knows everything, I

skin worn like paper from years

fine," I lie,

blink, however which tells me she's absolutely not buying my shit. "You're not. Sit down before you fall down." Her voice is

for once, I don't

sit. Right beside her on the edge of the bed. She doesn't look at

seat like she's inviting

already done a couple of times tonight. I really don't wan

Fuck it,

throat catches. I swipe under my eyes before I can stop myself. I recall everything that's happened in the past two

"I think I'm done."

"No, you

I've hoped. I've bent myself backwards for him. I gave him everything, and now there's nothing

give."

a bit rude for that. But, right now, all I could think about is how much

belonged there. I let him take down my walls, and then... he lit my soul on fire." I murmur, fiddling with my fingers and she

not the girl I know," she says, eyes sharper than they

bitterly. "You don't know

me. "I know enough. I knew

my room the first time all those

lost.

looking up at her.

She smiles. "I can tell a Lancaster in a blink

an eye."

blood runs cold. She...

I first came

she cuts me

if reading mt thoughts, "Your father-George.

the war with

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