Babysitting The Amnesiac Lycan King

Chapter 129

His hands are rough. Not cruel. Not gentle. Just... desperate.

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Fingers digging into the backs of my thighs, Enoch hauls me up like I weigh nothing. "Ah!" My breath catches as my knees hook instinctively around his waist, heat flaring between us-between my legs, between our chests, between what the fuck we are and what we've turned into.

We crash against the edge of a wooden table, and the clatter makes me flinch. Old paint peels under my fingertips as I grip the edge behind me. The wood groans under our weight. Enoch stands between my legs, his chest heaving like he's been fighting ghosts.

Maybe he has.

Maybe I'm one of them.

His pupils are blown wide, green barely visible now. His jaw ticks, his throat bobs, and his fingers flex around my thighs like he's scared I'll vanish if he lets go. Like I haven't already been disappearing, piece by piece.

I reach for his face. My left hand lands first, the good one. My right is slower, trembling, bloody from earlier. I press the pads of my fingers to his cheekbone, and he flinches-not from pain. From restraint.

He's burning. I feel it under his skin, in the way his body vibrates with tension, his lips trembling slightly. He's definitely seconds away from losing control. He could snap my neck like a fucking twig and part of me thinks he knows it. Maybe that's why he's breathing so hard.

As though he's trying to hold back the monster

"You're coming back with me." He growls. It

A threat.

God, I almost laugh.

everyone swears isn't real.

question. Not really. But not a command either. It's...a tantrum. A plea.

The Lycan King, reduced to begging like a boy who doesn't know what to do with

a woman who keeps slipping through his fingers. The same fingers now tightening slightly on my waist though he's trying to imprint me into his skin.

"I am," I lie.

I fucking lie through my teeth and I hate how easy it is.

"I'm coming with you." I murmur with assurance dripping in my tone.

He nods once, jerky. His forehead drops into my palm as though gravity dragged it there. Like I'm some kind of anchor in this storm he hasn't named. He takes my bloody hand and presses his much larger one over it, sealing it there against his face.

My skin burns where he touches.

Everything burns.

I try to ignore the way my lower back throbs from being pressed into the sharp edge of the table. I try not to react to the heat blooming between us again, how my stupid, hormonal body reacts to the smell of him-earth and spice and war.

He's shaking. Barely. But I feel it. In his breath. In his grip. In the way his words tremble when he says, "You'll be my queen after this, right? I'll put you on the throne. They'll kneel. They'll all fucking kneel."

His voice cracks around the fantasy. Like he can already taste it.

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He's already trying to believe that it's real. His queen? A woman that would rule beside him? Me?

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My stomach tightens-not just from nerves, but from the tiny life hiding inside me that he still doesn't know about. The secret I'm cradling under all this goddamn lying.

I nod as I lie through my teeth again. "Yes, baby. I'll be your queen" I murmur and his eyes close as I press my lips to his forehead.

One kiss. One trap.

Like we always do even back then and now.

Forehead.

Nose.

Mouth.

That's the ritual. That's how I soothe the beast. The routine that makes him calm enough to believe I'm still his.

He leans in again, nose brushing mine. His lips don't move for a while. I think he's scared to speak. And when he does, it's barely louder than a whisper.

love you so

in his voice shatters

please." His voice breaks. "You're

And it happens without permission-one fucking tear slips free. It betrays me.

face slightly, quick. I hope he didn't see it. But I know

than I intend.

you again."

Lies, lies, lies.

him for the last time. Finally, on his lips this

not to fall into it. Not to let it turn real. Because if it does, I won't run. And I have to run. For the sake of what matters

away, his eyes are still

second, I think-maybe

should let him know I'm carrying

I should stop

exhales, ragged. Hands still gripping my

Like I do. And I realize it's too late. We're too broken. Too fucked

He needs his queen.

can't give

me and I shiver. Every fucking part of me shivers under his

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from his cheeks and

and deliberate like he's

his breath against my skin right before he presses a kiss there, and it takes everything in me not to flinch. Not because I'm scared-okay, I

he's mine again. That he'll

But I know better.

let go of my own

voice small, almost sweet. I rest my palm on his cheek again, this time with less trembling. "It hurts my eyes. The dark, I mean. I've had it checked. One of the doctor here

fabricated,

Enoch fucking believes

course he does. Everything I say, he

lie but can't quite put a name to

he mutters, hand ghosting over my jaw. "I

I force a little

and something unspoken passes between

Or maybe

him that way-this little illusion where I'm honest and his

likes me like this, in the palm of his

back. Not far, just enough to breathe.

and yanks me forward like a puppet on a string. Holy sh-His mouth crashes onto mine, brutal

breathes into my mouth, "I'll burn everything in my fucking

against me, his forehead resting against mine, voice low enough to

"I won't spare anyone."

don't mean

to clench

says it-as though I'm his personal apocalypse. That he'd

fire just to smell the smoke

wobble

a breath.

word, steps echoing, the door clicking shut behind

the finality

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stare at that door as it's

This is it.

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I run.

bolt through the dark hallway, fingers scrabbling along the wall until I find the emergency exit Seraphina mapped out for

creaks, and my heart's pounding so violently I

it between my teeth.

for people who aren't being hunted by a goddamn Lycan King with abandonment issues

don't even stop to put

need

I just need distance.

in the face as I hit the alley behind the

for deliveries- shitty lighting, worse smell. My lungs are burning, ribs pinching under my bra. I press a hand to

"We're okay. I got you, baby.

But then-

BOOM.

The ground fucking shakes.

under my feet and echoes off the alley

just snapped. A second later, a car alarm wails.

the distance as if someone

my

I just left is glowing. Pulsing.