Chapter 86

Somedays… I question getting out of bed.

I’d add today to that list because… dying.

And I really don’t want to d ie. But how cr uel is this world

that the one thing I wanted… The one thing I hoped could be

granted to me finally is.

Only when I’m too si ck to see the dream become a reality.

I think of the little boy or girl who I’ll probably never get to hold. The eyes like mine or dark like Aaron’s. If they’d have his strength and my compassion. If they’d like chocolate or vanilla

ice cream.

I close my eyes and imagine their laughter. Their first steps.

Seeing them grow up and marry and start their own families.

The hugs and cuddles I’ll never feel. The baby I’ll never get to feed or rock to sleep.

Every beautiful milestone of a child’s life. Walking, talking, learning to read, to ride a bike. Teaching my child to swim and

climb trees.

arms when they’re si

love them each night before they

thoughts come to me and melt

phone. I scroll to Aaron’s

call

to have the truth. To share this joy-however brief it may be for me.

he’d be happy.

shouldn’t assume.

be pleased. It cements Aaron’s claim to

stomach.

love swirls in my heart I feel like

texts me: We need to abort. You can

the ca ncer. You can try again for a

values my life over my

the

it doesn’t feel right.

deserves a

to another name.

far from my mind, no matter how much I need him

it. I

the second ring. “Hey Leah.”

That voice.

bass that I can

extremities.

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