Chapter 86

Somedays… I question getting out of bed.

I’d add today to that list because… dying.

And I really don’t want to d ie. But how cr uel is this world

that the one thing I wanted… The one thing I hoped could be

granted to me finally is.

Only when I’m too si ck to see the dream become a reality.

I think of the little boy or girl who I’ll probably never get to hold. The eyes like mine or dark like Aaron’s. If they’d have his strength and my compassion. If they’d like chocolate or vanilla

ice cream.

I close my eyes and imagine their laughter. Their first steps.

Seeing them grow up and marry and start their own families.

The hugs and cuddles I’ll never feel. The baby I’ll never get to feed or rock to sleep.

Every beautiful milestone of a child’s life. Walking, talking, learning to read, to ride a bike. Teaching my child to swim and

climb trees.

them in my arms when they’re

them each night

to me and melt

I scroll to

to call

of me wants him to have the truth. To share this joy-however brief it

he’d be

probably shouldn’t assume.

pleased. It cements Aaron’s claim to this

stomach.

much love swirls in my heart I feel

to abort. You can

ncer. You can try again for a baby, Leah.

life over my

the

doesn’t

baby deserves

scroll through my phone to another

my mind, no matter how much

it. I hit

on the second ring.

That voice.

A rumbling bass that

extremities.

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