Chapter 86

Somedays… I question getting out of bed.

I’d add today to that list because… dying.

And I really don’t want to d ie. But how cr uel is this world

that the one thing I wanted… The one thing I hoped could be

granted to me finally is.

Only when I’m too si ck to see the dream become a reality.

I think of the little boy or girl who I’ll probably never get to hold. The eyes like mine or dark like Aaron’s. If they’d have his strength and my compassion. If they’d like chocolate or vanilla

ice cream.

I close my eyes and imagine their laughter. Their first steps.

Seeing them grow up and marry and start their own families.

The hugs and cuddles I’ll never feel. The baby I’ll never get to feed or rock to sleep.

Every beautiful milestone of a child’s life. Walking, talking, learning to read, to ride a bike. Teaching my child to swim and

climb trees.

arms when

them I love them each

thoughts come to me

grab my phone. I

to call

part of me wants him to have the truth. To share

think he’d be

shouldn’t assume.

know that my pack would be pleased. It cements Aaron’s claim to this pack through my

stomach.

much love swirls in my heart I

texts me: We need to abort. You

can try again for a baby, Leah.

values my life over my child’s.

it’s probably the right

it doesn’t

baby deserves a chance.

phone to another name.

from my mind, no matter

I hit send.

is answered on the second ring. “Hey

That voice.

bass that

extremities.

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