Bad Love an Alpha’s Regret by Elise Sinclair

Chapter 285

EMILY

I can’t escape the vague feeling of panic that’s been lodged in my chest ever since James and that bi ch Leah found me in the remote cabin.

It feels like any second now, someone is going to grab me and force me back into captivity.

And I think part of me would welcome that.

At least it’s familiar.

At least I know what to expect when I’m being held.

There are rules and I follow them if I want my life to be easy and pain free.

But now that I’ve been released, there are no rules.

Or, at least not the same rules.

I’m just free and there’s something slightly terrifying about it.

It’s easier to be in wolf form.

My wolt acts on instinct. She sees the world in more simple absolutes.

She can ignore the human anxieties and questions of what my life is even supposed to look like now.

She can ignore the question of how I’m going to hide the truth. from the rest of the pack.

me in so many ways, I can’t even remember the girl I used to be before the old Roberts Alpha

aren’t just emotional

and his father experimented on me in ways I

plan

become the strongest, fastest, most deadly

any other pack, or even the Council should they decide

I was the lab rat for their

finds out, I’ll be immediately kicked out

executed immediately.

disgusted with me as I am

can feel the lure of going rogue teasing

in. To push into my wolf consciousness so completely that the shift

wouldn’t be so bad. The lands here are so open. I could sleep beneath the stars, maybe even merge into

I’m frightened of

Because I’m dangerous.

am absolutely terrified of

and run,

I can’t

Jessica, James, Aaron and I used to play

next to a

under a layer of snow,

grasses and wildflowers, and the stream flows faster, tumbling

late into the night after the sun went down, listening to the chatter or frogs and insects as a wide sky of impossibly bright stars dusted

wish more than

I could somehow travel back in time

a different