Bad Love an Alpha’s Regret by Elise Sinclair

Chapter 309

My whole body goes cold as I hear Aaron’s order for the doctor.

Well, colder than I already felt, anyway.

It’s like there’s ice water in my veins instead of blood.

I wonder if that’s better or worse than the white–hot lava of rage that’d been boiling through my body since Aaron told me he was leaving and I saw that bitch, Leah, who just keeps ruining my life over and over.

Axel helps me to my feet and then leads me over to the bed.

“That won’t be necessary,” Axel says in a clipped tone, and I can practically feel him standing protectively over me. “She’s calm now. She won’t get angry like that again, will you, Emily?”

The way he says my name–almost making it sound exotic when it’s plain as Jane–makes me shiver and I quickly shake my head, avoiding the judging gazes of both Aaron and the doctor.

“She did cut her hands, though,” Axel continues, tone a little more reasonable now it seems like Aaron’s not about to sedate me into oblivion. “So maybe the Doc can take a look at that.”

The doctor looks questioningly at Aaron, waiting for permission, only moving toward me when Aaron gives a single nod.

eyes are ghillering with his wolf.

Anger is practically radiating off him.

I know he’s upset about what I did–attacking his wife and mate, the woman who is technically my Luna and the one I should look to above all other female pack members–but I think he’s also pissed at what he overheard.

About Axel being my mate and rejecting me.

I wonder what Aaron is angrier about.

The fact that someone like Axel is my mate in the first place, or that Axel rejected me out of hand without even giving us a chance to know one another?

What will I do if Aaron insists on Axel honoring the mating bond after all?

if I’m intrigued or

and clamped his

who hasn’t bothered hiding the fact that he doesn’t like me and is forced to

on top of me–the weight of him bearing

alluring, masculine scent of him inundating my senses–all I’d wanted to do was submit.

in a puddle beneath him and let him do

was a weakness to

was a weakness to want to kiss him just

years being

turned that want into more anger.

seen myself in the mirror.

was to becoming the monster on the outside that I was

I’d only been furious and

knew, wouldn’t inspire Aaron to have

responsibilities over to Jessica when he left,

party, and I’d slowly but surely felt more comfortable with members of the

back to life.

to

and actually think I belong here among these wolves, with this pack that

to go and what I’m going to do, because I can’t stay here hiding what I

might lose control even worse than I did today, and I know I wouldn’t be able to live with

wounds are superficial and should heal quickly enough on their own.

checks me over while Aaron and Axel stand by

judgement and disappointment settling

tells him I seem fine

you to leave several doses of sedative with

demand, even though I’m sure I don’t want to hear the

answer.