Beauty and The Beta (Bailey)

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Chapter 59-Asher My heart would not stop racing the moment I left Bailey. The thought of Isla was fresh within my mind. It tore at my very core. All my efforts at pushing thoughts of Isla back were failing so miserably. I did not know what to do. All I had known was that I needed to get away from Bailey before she saw me fall apart. She was new to the pack… I was to be her Beta, and I was expected to be strong and composed. Her father was a Beta, she knew what was expected of a Beta and I did not need her to see any weakness in me. There would be no hope of sleep finding me tonight. No. Perhaps it was more a case of there was no way I wanted sleep to find me tonight. I knew that dreams of Isla would be too overpowering. Too painful. All from a conversation about finding your fated mate. Maybe avoiding the new girl was a better idea. I returned to my office without the coffee I needed so badly and continued with the work that I needed to do. Processing all the files that Caleb had given me to do on his behalf. Never mind them being glad when that new baby arrived, I would be too, so that my additional duties would be gone. I would have that extra time to be out running, allowing Zion his extra freedom he so frequently craves to escape the day-to-day stresses and to take his pain out on some unsuspecting rogues… Hour after hour passed as I sat focused on the work in front of me. Determined not to allow myself to fall asleep. Determined not to allow the thoughts of Isla take over my mind. Despite. that, her name was not far from my thoughts. And the 0.00% persistent pain within my chest reminded me of why I was here. Why i could not go to sleep. I could not witness the pain of losing her all over again. Suddenly, the office door opened and I looked up, irritated that whoever it was had not bothered to knock. One of my major bug bears. This was my office. Would it hurt them to knock? However, Caleb walked in, looking bright and breezy. Something I felt so far from it was unreal… “Morning Ash.” He greeted me with a smile, then as he looked at me, he frowned. “**it bro, you look

again, have you, Asher?” This time he sounded angry. 09.401 “Caleb I a fine. Give it a rest.” I snapped. 288 Wouchers “No. This is not okay, Ash. Things are difficult enough as they are right now. With Eden laid up, I don’t need you burning yourself out. You know you need to be careful. What is wrong? I thought things were okay? Are you struggling again?” Caleb’s face was full of concern and I hated myself for adding more pressure and worries to the shoulders of my friend. He does not need this right now and I know it “Caleb, I said I was fine, so will you just take my f**g word for it for a change?!” I said bluntly. “You know ever since I lost Isla my sleep has

he did that Thor, Caleb’s wolf would be shifting too, and all hell would break loose. My office would be destroyed and the two of us would be seriously injured. Like the last time we fought… Caleb was needed right now… he did not have time to recover from a full- on fight… as much as I wanted to kick his a**, I fought hard to push Zion back. + “Why am I not able to do my job, Caleb? Have I not been doing everything expected of me and more?” I said a little more calmly this time, so he could see I was not as angry, I needed him to see my anger was under control… “But this not sleeping and being on edge all the time isn’t normal, Ash. Can you not see that? Did you see the pack doctor like I asked? Or the therapist?” Caleb asked

my friend… It is just that my sleep is plagued with visions of my mate. Losing her. Reliving the pain Chapter 59-Asher 288 Wouchers as she leaves me. Waking me in floods of tears… or sweating, desperate to try to save her… yet can’t… having to relive her loss all over again… all on repeat… “Therapy could work though, and you know it could, Asher.” Caleb began, but I gave him a dark look. “Not going over this again. Not happening. Was there something you came in here for? If not, then I have work to do, you know, the work you should be doing, but I am doing for you. because I am a good Beta?” I snapped, knowing I am being a d**k, but he had irritated me that much I couldn’t help myself. Caleb sighs, dropping himself on the sofa. “Eden wanted me to find out how the induction went is all.” “Well, the new girl is still alive if that is what she needs to know. I didn’t eat her or lose her.” I smiled sarcastically at my friend. Caleb chuckled. “I don’t think she thought you would. But, I may tell her you did just to see her reaction…” I see him thinking, so I can only imagine where his mind has gone. “On your head be it, if you do.” I warned him, as Eden was grumpy at the best of times in a morning, even more so during her pregnancy. “Seriously though, did the induction go okay? Bailey know all she needs about pack? You show her around all the pack? Please tell me you were nice to her?” I rolled my eyes. Did they think I was incapable of being nice? I think I was nice… wasn’t I? I even gave her some sympathy… or tried… oh I don’t f**g know.