Beauty and The Beta (Bailey)

Chapter 0143

This is a conversation we have had so many times before. One of the reasons Eden and I get along so well, is she and Caleb were the ones there for me when I lost Isla, and they saw the effect it had upon me. They saw how damaged I was becoming, yet they never gave up on me.

"What if I am breaking Eden?" I whispered, and I felt her raising her gaze to look up at me.

"In what way, Ash?"

"I feel like I'm falling apart. Like things that I should know, or I feel like I do know, are all in doubt because it feels like my own mind is in doubt. Like I can't trust my own thoughts. I can't trust my own logic. Like I can't trust my own mind. My mind is a mess, Eden. Things are slipping out of my control. I don't like it." I told her, trying to put into words how I was feeling, and I saw the fear upon her face.

"Your anger?" she questioned, but I shook my head. Strangely, this time it wasn't my anger. That was still there simmering, of course. I doubted if that would ever go away. But my mind was overtaken with doubt of late. A doubt that I was struggling to trust my own judgment. It was making me question every little thought I had. Every decision I made. Whereas previously I was so sure of myself, now, I doubted each thought...

My commitment. Loyalty. Devotion." I found myself admitting, in spite of the

to?" Eden is stroking my

Caleb cannot resist about his mate. So unusual and rare, and truly beautiful, and

She reached up and stroked away a tear that had slipped down my cheek. "Your loyalty, devotion and commitment to Isla had never been in question, sweetheart, and it never will be. You have mourned for your mate for seven years.

my greatest moments. I wasn't at my best, of that there was no denying.

you think it

her tone, though I feel she likely knew the truth. She had

please, I do not want anyone to know about this." I told her urgently,

the familiar kind smile of the woman who had become as much like family to me as her mate had. "I won't say