Contract Marriage with My CEO Boss

Chapter 65

Chapter 65 KYLAN'S POV

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I didn't matter how many fucking times Kylan tried; he couldn't calm his breathing. He couldn't quiet his racing mind. His fingers were flexing into repeated fats at his sides, his nails pressing hard to his inner palms each time his fists closed Stupid. He was so f*cking stupid

This was far from the first instance that Kylan had reacted poncle

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poorly to a situation, but it might take the place of number one

Perhaps the worst part of it all was that he felt wholly out of control like he couldn't speak. Like he couldn't fix it. Like he didn't know how, Or rather, he didn't deserve to try.

And Pck, if Katrina didn't deserve to be treated better. To be cherished. To be loved. To be worshipped like the damn goddess Kylan knew her to

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There had always been something special about her. Some innate part of her character that didn't entirely put Kylan off from talking to her, from having her work for him over the years she had been with Ross Corp. Her patience, her poise, her work ethic, all of it made it easy for Kylan to keep her on as his personal assistant.

She was a breath of fresh air, even if he never said as much to her. Even if he hadn't realized just how important or vital she was to him until only recently.

didn't want to soak all in. If he didn't want to out how to talk to her. To be with woo her.

But there was a barrier. A nearly visible stone fortress around his mind, his heart, prevented him from opening up to her. From talking to her. Really talking to her. Each time Katrina chipped at that armor, the armor he had relied on nearly his entire life, it only gained in strength and Layers

The monsters atop the fortress would then lean over the walls and all but toss Katrina of them as she was climbing, clawing, and trying to reach the

Any time she got too close. Kylan grew more afraid.

Any time he indulged himself in her just a little bit, he became more frantie, the monsters loading their cannons and preparing for a damn siege. just to keep him trapped

this wasn't healthy. He knew it wasn't right or fair, to either of them.

a fuck attitude and fancy cars and suits. Underneath it all, he was drowning in

time she did... Kylan hated himself more.

never gave up, even throughout the worst of his self-sabotaging behaviors. He hated it. But he was also grateful for it. He wished he could tell her

All of it was

of it was too

he didn't deserve

was she special. And oh, did he loathe himself all the more for hurting

Easier to pretend. He had been doing it for so long after

fire her own weapons against it, to ricochet her way through the outermost layers in the

She was never meant to make him feel, to

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never lose anyone again. That it was too much, that it wasn't worth it. That he didn't need to let anyone get too close and beyond the spikes, or the moat of angry alligators with their gnashing jaws Chapter The contract was meant to be so simple. So bulletproof. It was easy enough, writing the rules with every intention of following

day of their fake wedding, sign that damn fake mamage contract, and pay her for her forts. No big

know that he was a monster. That he was the last

was the opposite of every sludge filled, cracked, broken piece of himself. She was the light in

deserved everything he could never give her.

constant war within himself, the battle between heart, mind, and what little of Kylan's soul

himself.

it happened in ways he didn't understand. He would react before he could

and ghosts that haunted the halls of his mind, of his heart that loomed over him to beg him to throw

had the same three faces. The same three faces and

worth it. That he never would be. That people would always leave him, in one

f*ck would he

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executives and billionaires like they were nothing. Like they

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his voice or his personality to fit them. At the end of the day, he could make them a lot of money, and that's the only

was patient with Kylan. He never understood why, and he hated. to consider the disgusting notion

his mother's death. He hated the questions, the passing glances, the feigned sad eyes. It was the main reason he moved in with Kenny in the first place so that he that he could I get t away from Rhode Island and one of

with her, she seemed to know how to talk to him. How to calm him down, how to help him before he ever needed to guide her. She was patient with hins. She never

to him. The way she looked at him. The way she touched him. The way she melted parts of the ice has heart was in. All of it, all of her broke him over and over aga All of her caused him to talk about things, to reminisce about things he never talked about. Never thought about. Not since... Not since