Contractually Yours, Alpha by Giftemmy

Chapter One Hundred and Forty One

I tried to keep it from her because I didn't want her to worry about me, but as the days passed, it became harder to conceal.

The withdrawal symptoms had kicked in hard. Kaida was only aware of the progress I was making, but I didn't let her know what I had to endure. I wiped away the blood trickling from my nose. It had been five days since I stopped taking the doses of wolfsbane, and every moment had been pure torment. Breaking free from my addiction' was easier said than done.

I rarely got any work done. The withdrawal symptoms were impossible to ignore- involuntary shaking, random bleeding, a relentless pounding in my head, dizziness, irritability, and the tiny lapses in time that seemed to stretch wider with each passing day without my doses.

I stared at the bottle of aged bourbon spiked with wolfsbane, sitting on the wooden cabinet. all I had to do was reach out, take a drink, and it would be all over; the pain would disappear. I hadn't realized when I rose from my chair and made my way toward it. I picked it up, pulled off the cap- then Kaida's face flashed through my mind. I had to do this for her.

With a sharp breath, I let the bottle slip from my grasp, watching in agony as the very last spiked liquor shattered against the floor.

voice called,

expecting to see

reserved than the rest of my advisors; he only approached me when he had important information or when

than ever but that didn't make things any easier. If anything, it only made them more... overwhelming. So overwhelming that I still ended

was a reasonable question; in my state, I didn't think I could

but feel irritated at

banes was a secret-one that only a few had any

as if to create a good distance between the both of us. "It had always been speculation-l had no real

still doesn't explain why you