Contractually Yours, Alpha by Giftemmy

Chapter One Hundred and Forty Three

"Have you gone to see the healers?" Kaida questioned.

"No." I answered; she got the clue that there's nothing they could do to help me right now. "I'm fine."

"You're not," she said. I couldn't blame her-she might even be scared that I was losing my mind. "How long has this been going on?" she asked. There was something about her voice that kept me calm.

"Ever since I stopped taking the doses."

"Why didn't you tell me? I told you that we would do this together; you should have told me..."

"What would you have done?" I asked.

I saw anger flicker across her face. "You told me you wouldn't push me away. You promised me."

how she felt? Did she think my silence was pushing her away? Guilt settled deep in my chest-a reminder that I didn't deserve

you to worry. You were so happy when

"I'm just... I'm just so scared. I don't

bleeding all over her. "This will pass, but it's necessary. You

Normal?

normal. Yet I wanted her to believe that;

Your presence alone makes it all bearable. But when

almost couldn't feel anything-I could almost forget the raging need for wolfsbane.

eyes. "Do you think you would feel better

warmth, that I hadn't cared about anything else in the world-l hadn't even wanted anything more. She had all my attention. But after our moment was

that to you,

way I can help,

when she was in heat-the moment I touched her, the pain had ceased, but when I pulled away, it returned. It felt similar to what I was going through now, except this wouldn't pass in a few days. She didn't understand

join you. Have you eaten?"