Contractually Yours, Alpha by Giftemmy

Chapter One Hundred and Forty Three

"Have you gone to see the healers?" Kaida questioned.

"No." I answered; she got the clue that there's nothing they could do to help me right now. "I'm fine."

"You're not," she said. I couldn't blame her-she might even be scared that I was losing my mind. "How long has this been going on?" she asked. There was something about her voice that kept me calm.

"Ever since I stopped taking the doses."

"Why didn't you tell me? I told you that we would do this together; you should have told me..."

"What would you have done?" I asked.

I saw anger flicker across her face. "You told me you wouldn't push me away. You promised me."

silence was pushing her away? Guilt settled deep in my chest-a reminder that I didn't

You were so happy when I told you about my

just so scared. I

her, bringing her close once again and hoping I don't start bleeding all over her. "This will pass, but it's necessary. You have no reason to be scared; this

Normal?

was particularly normal. Yet I wanted her to believe that; I didn't want

presence alone makes it all bearable. But

"I almost couldn't

"Do you think you would feel

feel better if we did, but I had noticed three days ago, when I was deep inside her warmth, that I hadn't cared about anything else in the world-l hadn't even wanted anything more. She had all my attention. But after our moment was over, the feeling crept back. Yet, I could

can't do that to

is the only way I can help, and

but when I pulled away, it returned. It felt similar to what

a bath and join you.