Contractually Yours, Alpha by Giftemmy

Chapter One Hundred and Forty Three

"Have you gone to see the healers?" Kaida questioned.

"No." I answered; she got the clue that there's nothing they could do to help me right now. "I'm fine."

"You're not," she said. I couldn't blame her-she might even be scared that I was losing my mind. "How long has this been going on?" she asked. There was something about her voice that kept me calm.

"Ever since I stopped taking the doses."

"Why didn't you tell me? I told you that we would do this together; you should have told me..."

"What would you have done?" I asked.

I saw anger flicker across her face. "You told me you wouldn't push me away. You promised me."

Did she think my silence was pushing her away? Guilt settled deep in my chest-a reminder that I

You were so happy when I told you about my progress-I didn't want

"I'm just... I'm just so scared. I don't want anything to happen

wrapped my hands around her, bringing her close once again and hoping I don't start bleeding all over her. "This will

Normal?

this was particularly normal. Yet I wanted her to believe that; I didn't

Your presence alone makes it all bearable.

of her black hair between my fingers. "I almost couldn't feel anything-I could almost forget the raging need for wolfsbane.

eyes. "Do you think you would feel

three days ago, when I was deep inside her warmth, that I hadn't cared about anything else in the world-l hadn't even wanted anything more. She had all my attention. But after our moment was over, the feeling crept back. Yet, I could see in her eyes what

do that to you,

I

back to when she was in heat-the moment I touched her, the pain had ceased, but when I pulled away, it returned. It felt similar to what I was going through now, except this wouldn't pass in a few

a bath and join you.