Crawling Back To Her Series Redemption and Refuse

Book3 Chapter4.

A sudden rush of blood to my head left me dizzy.

Is my Ethan Harris really back?

I turned around stiffly, my shoulders and calves trembling uncontrollably, my heart trembling along with them. His name was on the tip of my tongue, but when I met his indifferent gaze, the words froze.

Ethan Harris had never looked at me like that. Whenever he looked at me, his eyes were always filled with warmth, his gaze enveloping me in tenderness.

The sudden shift from despair to hope made my heart ache. I lowered my head, hiding the tears welling up in my eyes.

"Detective Parker told me, but he didn't mention you," he said slowly, analyzing, "You feel familiar, but not in the way colleagues do. Every time I see you, I feel guilty, even a bit scared. You know I'm allergic to mushrooms, and that red string around your neck... it's just like mine."

The red string was something we got together at Xianyan Temple. I wished for his safety; he wished for my dreams to come true. The string had two silver charms attached, each engraved with our initials.

I had forgotten that Ethan had been a reconnaissance soldier. Even without his memory, his instinctive vigilance remained. Detective Parker and the others' unusually warm behavior wouldn't have escaped his notice. It was only a matter of time before he figured out something was off-and my identity... whether he guessed it and didn't dare believe it, or couldn't guess at all, I wasn't sure.

I slowly lifted my head to meet his scrutinizing gaze, but he lowered his eyes to my ring. "Jessica said you're married. You. I."

I knew his fists were clenched,

his life, only to have a woman suddenly appear who might be connected to

I finally managed to say, "Yes, I'm married, but.. it has nothing

the visible relief wash

the most painful second of

day would come when Ethan Harris would be relieved that I had

―

his face when I agreed to be his girlfriend

"And him? Your husband?"

at the man in front of me, tears started to fall uncontrollably. He stared at me, flustered, and quickly

a daughter, but you and I aren't really connected. I'm

fall. "Your parents prayed for your safety, and just

stared at me in silence, but I had no strength left to keep up

to set his mind at ease

even know how I made it back to my room. I thought I was holding it together,

covered my face with both hands and collapsed in the corner of the bathroom, crying for what felt like an eternity. Five years! I had dreamed of Ethan coming back to me for five years. But the moment he appeared, I had to push him away!