Crawling Back To Her Series Redemption and Refuse

Book3 Chapter9.

Ethan Harris - Epilogue We returned to Maplewood at sunset. The first thing we did was visit my parents' graves. As I looked at their pictures, I finally understood where I got my features from— the gentle eyes from my mother, the stern expression from my father.

After lighting incense, I asked everyone else to leave, wanting some time alone with my parents. I spoke to them about the past five years.

By the time I descended the hill, the traces of tears had long dried on my face, leaving only the smell of incense smoke on my clothes.

But as I took in the increasingly familiar surroundings, my heart still felt empty, as if something was missing. It felt like I had forgotten something really important.

Detective Parker drove us to my parents' house, an old-fashioned neighborhood with all the amenities. The moment we opened the door, a cloud of dust rose into the air.

"Wow, it's really dusty in here," I said, coughing.

I made my way to the living room wall, where a large family portrait hung. Something inside me struggled as I looked at it. In the photo, I was in my police uniform, arms around my parents, all of us smiling contentedly. It was a picture of a happy family.

But something felt off, like I was missing a crucial detail.

Jessica and I spent some time cleaning up the house. When I saw the old mountain bike on the balcony, a memory flashed in my mind - blue skies, a boy riding a bike with a girl fast asleep on the backseat, her softness making my heart ache.

The image was fleeting, but it lingered.

We found many old photos from my childhood. Jessica was fascinated by them, but I felt nothing. When we were nearly done cleaning, Jessica asked me to go buy some essentials at the store. I had no idea where the store was, but as soon as I stepped outside, I instinctively turned right and lifted my right hand as if I were supposed to be holding onto something.

As if on autopilot, I walked to the end of the alley and found a small grocery store.

The store owner's wife looked surprised to see me. "Ethan, you're finally back. You have no idea how long Sienna waited for you."

She kept talking, saying how, after I left, she often saw Sienna sitting alone outside her little store. Whenever she asked why I wasn't with her, Sienna would just smile and say, "Next time."

But each time, she was alone.

Sometimes, as she spoke, her eyes would well up with tears.

The store owner's wife told me she had never seen such a heart-wrenching girl and urged me not to fight with her anymore, to take good care of her.

I listened to her, but I didn't know how to respond.

Images of Sienna kept flashing through my mind -her holding my hand, chatting endlessly about what our future life together should be like, the way she looked at me, love shining in her eyes.

But I had Jessica now, and Sienna had moved on. Whatever we had... it should be in the past by now.

Almost in a panic, I quickly bought some essentials and left the store.

I couldn't understand why, but the thought of Sienna disappearing from my life for good made my chest ache.

I lit a cigarette, standing on the street corner, looking at this familiar yet strange town. An indescribable feeling washed over me —I just wanted to leave, to go back to the island.

When the cigarette was done, a bus pulled up in front of me. The doors opened, and I inexplicably got on. The bus was filled with students in blue and white uniforms, and in the hazy fragments of my memory, I saw someone dressed like that, sitting by the window.

It was as if I could see eighteen-year-old Sienna waving at me, asking me to sit down and explain a problem to her.

The bus had thirteen stops, but I got off at a crossroads. Just ahead was a new community, Maple Grove Estates. It felt strangely familiar.

Just as I was about to walk in, Jessica called me. I hailed a cab to head back home, watching the community fade away in the rearview mirror. But as I drove away, it didn't feel like I was getting closer to home. Instead, it felt like I was moving farther away.

Jessica and I had been in town for three days, meeting old friends and colleagues.

Their faces were unfamiliar, but their enthusiasm was overwhelming. I felt guilty.

They patted my shoulder, often crying, "It's just good to have you back.

It's just..

have

something else in their eyes, something they weren't saying. It

a place came to mind. When she brought us to Maple Grove

asked, "Which one?" I was already standing at the door on

"Yes, it's 302."

or nine in the morning,

warm "The sunlight is amazing here. Is that why you

Ethan?"

a more perfect reason seemed to exist somewhere in

was filled with shades of orange-orange curtains, an orange sofa cover, orange bed sheets, giving the

walls, as

bar counter, but strangely, no alcohol-just an assortment of herbal teas, at least a dozen varieties.

have a surprise for

around his neck. Strangely, the cat ran straight to me, circling my legs and rubbing against me desperately,

kitty!

out to pick him up, but

him, and he's been keeping me

wonder he was so

a can of food

could even open the lid, as if he

to be you. He

now. If you need anything,

pulled out the first-aid

how did you know there

didn't know. It

contentedly. "I guess he

more days, but something came up at the restaurant, so Jessica

I had met a lot of people, but it

came down with a fever, my whole body burning up, lost in a deep

a boy being born in this apartment, attending the

to school every day, always leaving the back seat empty for someone

backpack...

and he went to college - police academy. Everyone was so proud of him. At the celebration, he wrapped his arm around a girl and made an exaggerated promise,

be for our wedding."

he took the

his wrist, wishing for his safety. He gave her one in return, hoping she'd stop teasing him about the

crash scene. The car burst through the setup, revealing his proposal. The girl cried, and he thought it was because she was moved. After all, the whole scene was filled with her favorite flowers, an orange backdrop,

she would marry him, so he dared to plan such

- taking wedding photos, designing the invitations, booking the hotel. They even tested the

was just a rehearsal, he was incredibly nervous, his movements awkward and stiff. When it finally ended, he received orders from the police department. The girl reassured him that it was okay to go, and he promised her he'd be back in a week to marry her. But the mission was tough, and they were ambushed. Gravely

woke up drenched in cold sweat, gasping for air. The suffocating pressure slowly eased as I came to, and I saw the open photo album on the

out of the house, heading

voice, "The sunlight feels so warm, and Buddy loves

Ethan, can we live

Buddy, and a daughter someday, we'll

let's

that was

hurt your throat. Let me make you some

you like

being stubborn -I want

types of herbal tea, I suddenly realized - it wasn't

The large wooden bed -I scheduled the wedding for the late afternoon because I was afraid she'd throw a fit and refuse to marry me if she woke up

-I once slept on it for two nights after saying something wrong and wrote a