Crawling Back To Her Series Redemption and Refuse

Book3 Chapter9.

Ethan Harris - Epilogue We returned to Maplewood at sunset. The first thing we did was visit my parents' graves. As I looked at their pictures, I finally understood where I got my features from— the gentle eyes from my mother, the stern expression from my father.

After lighting incense, I asked everyone else to leave, wanting some time alone with my parents. I spoke to them about the past five years.

By the time I descended the hill, the traces of tears had long dried on my face, leaving only the smell of incense smoke on my clothes.

But as I took in the increasingly familiar surroundings, my heart still felt empty, as if something was missing. It felt like I had forgotten something really important.

Detective Parker drove us to my parents' house, an old-fashioned neighborhood with all the amenities. The moment we opened the door, a cloud of dust rose into the air.

"Wow, it's really dusty in here," I said, coughing.

I made my way to the living room wall, where a large family portrait hung. Something inside me struggled as I looked at it. In the photo, I was in my police uniform, arms around my parents, all of us smiling contentedly. It was a picture of a happy family.

But something felt off, like I was missing a crucial detail.

Jessica and I spent some time cleaning up the house. When I saw the old mountain bike on the balcony, a memory flashed in my mind - blue skies, a boy riding a bike with a girl fast asleep on the backseat, her softness making my heart ache.

The image was fleeting, but it lingered.

We found many old photos from my childhood. Jessica was fascinated by them, but I felt nothing. When we were nearly done cleaning, Jessica asked me to go buy some essentials at the store. I had no idea where the store was, but as soon as I stepped outside, I instinctively turned right and lifted my right hand as if I were supposed to be holding onto something.

As if on autopilot, I walked to the end of the alley and found a small grocery store.

The store owner's wife looked surprised to see me. "Ethan, you're finally back. You have no idea how long Sienna waited for you."

She kept talking, saying how, after I left, she often saw Sienna sitting alone outside her little store. Whenever she asked why I wasn't with her, Sienna would just smile and say, "Next time."

But each time, she was alone.

Sometimes, as she spoke, her eyes would well up with tears.

The store owner's wife told me she had never seen such a heart-wrenching girl and urged me not to fight with her anymore, to take good care of her.

I listened to her, but I didn't know how to respond.

Images of Sienna kept flashing through my mind -her holding my hand, chatting endlessly about what our future life together should be like, the way she looked at me, love shining in her eyes.

But I had Jessica now, and Sienna had moved on. Whatever we had... it should be in the past by now.

Almost in a panic, I quickly bought some essentials and left the store.

I couldn't understand why, but the thought of Sienna disappearing from my life for good made my chest ache.

I lit a cigarette, standing on the street corner, looking at this familiar yet strange town. An indescribable feeling washed over me —I just wanted to leave, to go back to the island.

When the cigarette was done, a bus pulled up in front of me. The doors opened, and I inexplicably got on. The bus was filled with students in blue and white uniforms, and in the hazy fragments of my memory, I saw someone dressed like that, sitting by the window.

It was as if I could see eighteen-year-old Sienna waving at me, asking me to sit down and explain a problem to her.

The bus had thirteen stops, but I got off at a crossroads. Just ahead was a new community, Maple Grove Estates. It felt strangely familiar.

Just as I was about to walk in, Jessica called me. I hailed a cab to head back home, watching the community fade away in the rearview mirror. But as I drove away, it didn't feel like I was getting closer to home. Instead, it felt like I was moving farther away.

Jessica and I had been in town for three days, meeting old friends and colleagues.

Their faces were unfamiliar, but their enthusiasm was overwhelming. I felt guilty.

They patted my shoulder, often crying, "It's just good to have you back.

It's just..

have you

weren't saying. It was as if they expected me to ask them something, as if I shouldn't be the way I

day, Grace found me. She said I had another apartment, and suddenly, a place came to mind. When she brought us to Maple Grove Estates, it matched exactly with the

on the third floor. When Jessica asked, "Which one?" I was already standing at the door on the left. Grace, holding

"Yes, it's 302."

was around eight or nine in the

room was bathed in warm "The sunlight

Ethan?"

sure, but a more perfect reason seemed to exist somewhere in

whole apartment was filled with shades of orange-orange curtains, an orange sofa cover, orange

marks on the walls, as if picture

no alcohol-just an assortment of herbal teas, at least a dozen varieties.

a

an orange cat dashed out of the bedroom, his fur completely orange except for a white patch around his neck. Strangely, the cat ran straight to me, circling my legs and rubbing against me desperately, meowing insistently. I

a friendly kitty!

up, but Buddy swatted at her

him, and he's

wonder he was so affectionate toward

into the bedroom and took a can of food from the bedside cabinet.

lid, as if he was

He won't eat when

have to go now. If

had scratched her. I quickly pulled out the first-aid

did you know

It just

who was eating contentedly. "I guess he doesn't like me very

few more days, but something

people I needed to see. I had met a lot of people, but it still felt like I hadn't seen the one

came down with a fever, my whole body burning up, lost in a

dreamed of a boy being born

his bike to school every

backpack...

went to college - police academy. Everyone was so proud of him. At the celebration, he

be for our wedding."

girl blushed, but he took the

string around his wrist, wishing for his safety. He gave her one in return, hoping she'd stop teasing him about the

he meticulously planned his proposal. He was a bit of a troublemaker, so he devised an elaborate scheme, turning the proposal into a car crash scene. The car burst through the setup, revealing his proposal. The girl cried, and he

her, "It's time." He knew she would marry

plan - taking wedding photos, designing the invitations, booking the hotel. They even tested the menu four times. He

movements awkward and stiff. When it finally ended, he received orders from the police department. The girl reassured him that it was okay to go, and he promised her he'd be back in a week to marry her. But the mission was tough, and they were

The suffocating pressure slowly eased as I came to, and I saw the open photo album

dead of night, I rushed out of the house, heading back to

as I opened the door, I heard a voice, "The sunlight feels so

can we live

Buddy, and a daughter someday, we'll have a

let's buy

that was the real

hurt your throat.

like rose

stubborn -I want

I suddenly realized - it

wedding for the late afternoon because I was afraid she'd throw a fit and refuse to marry me if she woke up too early. But in the

saying