Dangerous Desires Novel

29 Selfish and inconsiderate
Luke.
I could not believe the level of Elisabeth’s selfishness and stupidity. She was barely breathing by the time I got to the hospital. Why would she do this to herself? She had left me a note, and I did not bother to read it because every second counted.
I knew Elisabeth could be irrational, but this was extreme. Why would she do this? I really hoped she would move on; I begged her to do so, but how could she when she had everything planned out.
I searched for my phone to call Tia, but it wasn’t on me. I must have left it in the bedroom. I never went back for it. I tried to find Tia’s parents in the hospital, but they were off duty. I was so mad. My intention was to call Tia on her mother’s phone and explain matters to her. I could not leave the hospital because I had to fill out some paperwork, and the doctor asked me to linger in case of an emergency, and they would need consent from me.
Elisabeth had disrupted my day altogether; I was afraid for her. I knew if she died, she would be solving a massive problem in my life, and I could have peace, but I did not want her to die. No one deserved to die like this. While I waited in the hallway, I reached in my pocket for her
note.
It was written in a rush, and it looked like she had shed some tears while writing it. I sat on a seat in the corridor to read while I waited for them to flush whatever she took out of her system.
“Luke, I will be gone by the time you finish reading this. I am sorry for what I did, but I could not take it anymore. We have been together for seven years, and I always thought it would be like that until your stepmother did this to us. Yet I was hopeful that I would still have you, but then you forgot about me completely as if we never were. You urged me to move on. The thought that you wanted me to be with someone else was killing. It showed how little you cared because I could never imagine you with someone else, let alone urge you to be with someone else. I loved you with all my heart Luke, but when you found someone young and new, you forgot about me completely. I got pregnant because I wanted a piece of you. I wanted our seven years together to count, Luke. Seven years of loving you and being there for you regardless of what people thought. We were hated and mocked together, yet I loved you still. I really didn’t care. The only reason I requested an open relationship was that I was told I was wasting my time and that when the time comes, you will never choose me; you will only do what your father wants and knowing your father disliked me, I knew I had no hope. Yet I could not bring myself to be with someone else. That one time was a mistake that I regret every day. If you noticed, I stopped drinking after that. I came to the Moon mansion to fight for you, to help you remember us but instead, I met a wall, and you humiliated me beyond repair by“ shunning me and setting your wife to relate with me. You never uttered a kind word to me and were quick to humiliate me in her presence. You tried so hard to prove to her I meant nothing
to you. You never checked on me for the few days I was in the mansion. When you returned from the hospital, you did not even link me to let me know you were okay and above all, I had to listen to you make love to her countless times. I am doing this to ease my pain and release you of the burden. I hope you will be happy with me gone and out of the way. Know that I love you greatly, and everything I did was for the sake of love and nothing more forever yours,

Lisa.”
I could not speak after reading her letter; I did not know that was how she saw things. Her mind was twisted. How could she think she would be relieving me of the burden by killing herself? I never denied the baby. I never mistreated her. I had moved on, and I wanted her to do the same. If she hadn’t gotten pregnant, she would not have had to go through this. My relationship with Tia wasn’t strong yet. Every second counted with her. I love Tía dearly; why can’t Elisabeth see that the feeling isn’t the same. I did not have to think about loving my wife, it happened naturally, and she is perfect for me. I do not regret choosing her. I did not hate Elisabeth either. She wanted to subject herself to humiliation when she decided she wanted to come and live with me in the Moon mansion, knowing exactly how my family was and that my wife was there with me. What was she expecting? That I will ask her to join us in my matrimonial bedroom? I would have continued to pay her rent and foot her bills. I respected her and never denied her baby even though it would have cost me marriage because Tia and I hadn’t claimed each other then. What else did she want from me?
I crumbled the letter and stuffed it in my pocket, waiting for the doctors to finish. It took a long time, and I slept off in the hallway.
“Alpha Luke, Alpha Luke,” A voice said while I tried to wake up. I opened my eyes and saw the doctor.
“We have done all we can, sir,” he said, and my heart caught in my mouth, afraid he would say she was dead, “We have placed her under observation. She is still unconscious, but you can check on her.
“What about the baby?” I asked immediately.
“Still there; we would not know how badly the substance she ingested affected the fetus until after birth,” he said, and my heart broke, afraid that the baby might have some challenges because of Elsabeth’s stupidity. I was angry at her selfishness.
I went to her room, and there she lay on the bed as if she was sleeping. I was mad at her, but I could not carry out my anger; there was no point. She was already paying for it, and maybe my child will have to pay too. If she did this to hurt me, then she had succeeded.
I sat on the couch and soon slept off. I woke up in the morning and decided to go home. I was sure Tia would be worried or maybe even mad at me. I should have asked her to come along, but she wasn’t dressed at that time, and every second counted. I also doubted she would want to help Elisabeth. It was best I did not get her involved because no matter how she tried to hide it, I knew she believed I still had feelings for my ex.
“Luke,” I heard Elisabeth’s voice. It was frail, but she was alive. I looked at her, and I was
angry
“How could you?” I asked her, and she began to cry, she didn’t sound as frail as I expected. In fact, she sounded well rested. Did she really take poison?
“I wanted your attention, Luke, but you ignored me completely. I am pregnant. I have needs other than money; I have needs,” she said, crying. She had so much energy; it was confusing. She sounded like someone that had a good night’s sleep.
“I hear you with her every time, and I am alone,” she said, not making sense.
“I am married, Lisa. Tia is my wife, of course, I will be with her. You are so selfish, Lisa, Because you were not getting the attention you sought, you decided to endanger your life and that of our unborn child. Now that baby might be born with challenges, I doubt my father would want to take him from you now. Hope you are willing to care for a child with challenges and hope you can have it on your conscience?” I said to her, and she looked at me, surprised.
“Yes, Lisa. If you truly loved me and were not thinking of yourself as always, you would not harm my child, and you will not put me in this situation. This will not get us back together; Lisa, it will just make me mad. I have bigger issues. There are people out to get me, Lisa. I would have died a few days ago. Would you have tried to kill yourself and my child if I had died?” I asked her, and tears started streaming down her face.
“You say I fell for Tia because she is younger. Age does not matter to me, Lisa, but one thing I know is Tia won’t do this. She will carry on and wish me the best. She might be young, but she is strong, mature, wise and selfless. I did not fall for Tia because of her age or looks; I fell for her because she gave me no choice Lisa. She is everything I have ever wanted and more. Why can’t you see that? Between us, you would not be fighting this hard if I wasn’t given Diamond corp. You rejected me several times, so do not claim that you did it because of my father; you know I would have gone against him for your sake. I had several times already, but you were unsure about me then; why now, Lisa? Why can’t you just live your life and let me live? I will always care about you, but I can never leave my wife to be with you or cheat on my wife with you or anyone else. I made a promise to Tia, and I intend to keep it, Lisa. Please don’t do this again because I will not be here with you next time,” I said, and she began to weep.