Chapter 19 ~ A hand or a messed mind

Chapter 19 A hand or a messed mind

Athena

"That's how forgettable you are."

The words echo in my mind, slicing through the silence of my car. Over

and over, they replay, like a cruel melody stuck on a loop,

each repetition heavier than the last.

I grip the steering wheel tighter, knuckles turning

white, but it does nothing to steady the trembling in my hands.

It's been thirty minutes thirty long, suffocating minutes -

and I'm still here, parked in the same spot, unable to step out of my car.

I barely slept a wink last night. I thought tears would help but they just made

it even worse because I woke up with a pounding head.

As I sit here, my chest feels too small for the ache inside it, like I'm trying

to swallow a scream that refuses to come out. The air

feels too thick, the car too quiet - the only sound is my uneven breathing, breaking the silence in shaky gasps.

It's at this point when I miss my mother. I wish she was still alive so I could tell her everything

while she hugged all the pain

away. But even that is a dream too far-fetched.

Did someone curse happiness from my life?

I have no one I can rely on. My aunt and uncle only see a bank in me and

my cousins are even worse. My parents were the most

kind and brought

people together but I guess they only showed up because of what they

could get from them because ever since

they died, no one has ever reached out.

I was getting married.

and all they kept saying was how much

week now that I was married to

Tears I've been

back begin to fall and I feel

Should I get therapy?

that help me feel

right now I feel

I want to be a better person so I can serve

I blink, but

of my eyes, blurring the dashboard into a mess of colors. I

the sting will pull me out of

layer

An hour.

exam

should be focusing running through questions,

I can think about is him.

hand or a messed

he looked at me.

disgusted look like I was a mistake

Forgettable.

that really

do when

you never

was living beyond my

would try

I remember how they would laugh and

drug

study hard. I got through that and entered into

I

I failing to pull through

I guess a heartbreak is bound to leave you bleeding out

special.."

guess I'm a girl who's just... there.

at. A placeholder until he can finally be

the steering wheel, squeezing my eyes shut.

anger, but with the kind of hurt that gnaws at the edges of your soul, the kind that whispers ugly truths you didn't

He doesn't care.

He never did.

maybe he

have a

a good

I have to move.

starts in less than

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