02 Letting Him Go

(Winona)

I'm packing up my personal things. Slowly placing the possessions I love into boxes. My heart is torn apart as I glance around the house I'd started to set up as my forever home. The one I'd build a family with Jayden in and live happily ever after. Fresh tears start as I think about maybe never being a mother now. I just can't imagine myself ever loving anyone else as much as I love Jayden. I certainly can't see myself pregnant and happy with another man.

I grew up in a loveless and abusive family. The shining light was a kind and loving foster mother I got to live with when I went to college and university.

Come to think of it, she was as much responsible for my success as Jayden was at the time. That home made me forget my awful early childhood and see the world could be a nicer place. You know what? I'm going home to her. She never ever judged. She never tried to tell me not to see Jayden.

My father was a drunk and my mother was cold because she never wanted a baby to have to care for. I always swore I'd love my children more than anything else in the world even if I'd never planned for them.

My cell phone buzzes and it's Lisa. I need a friend more than anything right now even if Lisa is a little unhinged at times, her heart is in the right place and she seems to have grown up a lot this past year. "Hi." I sniffle.

"You're crying again."

"Sorry."

"Don't be sorry. I can't believe he's treating you this way. And as for Ashlyn, unbelievable. She was practically our best friend. Like a little sister."

"I guess love makes you do stupid things."

Lisa is silent for a second. "That may be true but you don't need to make excuses for them. They deserve each other."

I could ever imagine. But, if this is what he wants then they are welcome to each other. I'll find a way to

and stop living in the past. I want you

dark and lonely during high school. I didn't fit in. I hated myself. My parents hated me. I had no other family. Then Jayden showed up like a shining light of hope just before I was moved to a foster

at me with his friends. But Jayden was different. He didn't care what

Jayden and his family no one was brave enough to say anything

I'd have probably done something awful," I

wouldn't. You are much stronger than you think. You got those scholarships and you got your degrees. Jayden didn't do the work for

on us." I tell her with a strength inside me I'd almost forgotten about. But it's pointless now. "Just promise me, you'll use that determination to

do need to make a life for myself. "I will. I'm going back to my home city

leave town. It's my

when I check into the hotel." I disconnect the call and sigh. My whole life has changed so much

long as Lisa has been mine and

for Jayden and Lance respected his friend

be on Jayden's side but then he still wants to be friends with me. I don't think he can see how to have both without Jayden and I being together again. But he also

crap about my situation with Lance right now. My phone insistently

surprise party for Lisa at my house. Jayden will be there. You should come. It'll be

spent almost a year trying to activate his memory. Nothing has worked. Not even

should. I mean, it's been ages since us four hung out

same now, Lance. But I do thank you

should at least try and help

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