Divorce to Destiny: Reclaiming My CEO Husband by Anney GW

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166 Higher Power

(Ashlyn)

I sit on the edge of my narrow bed, the cold, sterile walls of the small, with nothing more than a bed, a table, and a chair. facility pressing in on me. The room is

It's a far cry from the luxury I was used to, but it's fitting. I don't deserve anything better. Not after everything I've done.

The silence here is deafening in its way, but it gives me time to think, to reflect on everything that's led me to this point.

I've spent countless hours replaying the past in my mind, dissecting every action, every decision, every

hurtful word.

I've talked to my psychiatrist and, more importantly, listened.

And I've come to realize just how wrong I was. How wrong Judy is.

About everything.

just the talks and the thinking, there's a higher power at play here. Now I know there's something out there bigger than all of us, it was easy to accept responsibility. Easy

in my chest, a

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consumed by my own desires, by what I thought I was entitled to, that I didn't care who I hurt

it was love for Jayden, for our future, but that was a lie. All I can ever remember is being told he was to be my husband. I never thought

groomed to believe was mine. I saw Winona as the

hurt people-people

I hated her making me actually grow to like her. Judy said it was all a ploy. Winona never really liked me, she felt sorry for me, and she

pain I've caused. I may be in here for many years. Even if I get out

I've never understood how to be without. But if he'd died that day, by my hand, what would I do then? I'd still have to survive. I'd have to learn to live without him

where I thought I'd end up. That's what I wanted since I stepped through these doors in my shackles. To

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chance to do

have a phone to send her messages and

me killed if I

happened. I was in the chapel and something profoundly life changing happened. And I knew. I knew I had to live and

way. I see that now. I've been awakened to

No matter how much I tried to break her, she kept

in this place, and for the first time in my life, I'm forced to confront who I really am. I can't hide behind my wealth, my family

But it's not forgiveness I'm looking for. I want to change. I spend a lot of time thinking about redemption, about what it means to truly atone for your sins. I've never been religious, never cared