Divorce to Destiny: Reclaiming My CEO Husband by Anney GW

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166 Higher Power

(Ashlyn)

I sit on the edge of my narrow bed, the cold, sterile walls of the small, with nothing more than a bed, a table, and a chair. facility pressing in on me. The room is

It's a far cry from the luxury I was used to, but it's fitting. I don't deserve anything better. Not after everything I've done.

The silence here is deafening in its way, but it gives me time to think, to reflect on everything that's led me to this point.

I've spent countless hours replaying the past in my mind, dissecting every action, every decision, every

hurtful word.

I've talked to my psychiatrist and, more importantly, listened.

And I've come to realize just how wrong I was. How wrong Judy is.

About everything.

here. Now I know there's something out there bigger than all of us, it was easy to

that tightens in my chest, a heavy weight that I know

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was so consumed by my own desires, by what I thought I was entitled to, that I didn't care who I hurt in the

for our future, but that was a lie. All I can ever remember is being told

to win, to have everything I was groomed to believe was mine. I saw Winona as the obstacle in my path, and I didn't care what I

lied, I hurt

didn't deserve it. She'd been so kind to me when I was a lonely teenager. I hated her making me actually grow to like her.

face the consequences of my actions and accept the pain I've caused. I may be in here

be without. But if he'd died that day, by my hand, what would I do then? I'd still have to survive. I'd have to learn to live

my shackles. To end it all. I didn't care how. Starve myself or something faster

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any chance to do

Judy has her pawns here too and I have a phone to send her messages and read hers. She's still on about the same old things. I play

wouldn't put it past her to have me killed if I go against her. I want

the chapel and something profoundly life changing happened. And I knew. I knew I had to live and

that now. I've been awakened to something in life that's bigger than

a lot. No matter how much I tried to break her, she kept fighting, kept standing up for herself, for Jayden,

time in my life, I'm forced to confront who I really am. I can't hide behind my wealth, my family name, or my looks. None of

shouldn't. I'm not deserving of forgiveness. But it's not forgiveness I'm looking for. I want to change. I spend a lot of time thinking about redemption, about what it means to truly atone for your sins. I've never been religious, never cared much for the idea of a higher power or divine judgment. But in this place, surrounded by the ghosts of my past, I've had proof there is something more- something bigger than myself, something I need to believe in if I'm going to get through