Divorce to Destiny: Reclaiming My CEO Husband by Anney GW

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166 Higher Power

(Ashlyn)

I sit on the edge of my narrow bed, the cold, sterile walls of the small, with nothing more than a bed, a table, and a chair. facility pressing in on me. The room is

It's a far cry from the luxury I was used to, but it's fitting. I don't deserve anything better. Not after everything I've done.

The silence here is deafening in its way, but it gives me time to think, to reflect on everything that's led me to this point.

I've spent countless hours replaying the past in my mind, dissecting every action, every decision, every

hurtful word.

I've talked to my psychiatrist and, more importantly, listened.

And I've come to realize just how wrong I was. How wrong Judy is.

About everything.

thinking, there's a higher power at play here. Now I know there's something out there bigger than all

of guilt that tightens in my chest, a heavy weight that I know I'll carry for the rest

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desires, by what I thought I

All I can ever remember is being told he

to believe was mine. I saw Winona as the obstacle in my

hurt people-people who

lonely teenager. I hated her making me actually grow to like her. Judy said it was all a ploy. Winona never really liked me, she felt sorry for me, and she threw

I've caused. I may be in

man I've never understood how to be without. But if he'd died that day, by my hand, what would I do then? I'd still have to survive.

these doors in my shackles. To end it all.

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any chance to do

and I have a phone to send her messages

it past her to have me killed

the chapel and something profoundly life changing happened. And I knew. I knew I had to live and be

I see that now. I've been awakened to something in life that's bigger than me,

about her a lot. No matter how much I tried to break her, she kept fighting, kept standing up

and for the first time in my life, I'm forced to confront who I really am. I can't hide behind my wealth, my family

Wihona will ever forgive me. She shouldn't. I'm not deserving of forgiveness. But it's not forgiveness I'm looking for. I want to change. I spend a lot of time thinking about redemption, about what it means to truly atone for your sins. I've never been religious, never cared much for the idea of a higher power or divine judgment. But in this place, surrounded by the ghosts of my past, I've had proof there is something more- something bigger than myself, something I