538 No Way Out

(Lisa)

Staring at my bedroom ceiling won't change anything. But I don't know what else to do.

Arms crossed over my stomach, pressing down like I can stop this from happening. Like I can physically hold it all in-this pregnancy, this entire fucking disaster.

This isn't happening. It can't happen.

But it is.

The numbers keep running through my head. Twelve weeks. Three months. That's a whole damn trimester. This is real, and there's no taking it back.

How the hell can this be happening?

I squeeze my eyes shut, jaw clenched. I know exactly how. The last night with Lance. The one where he let himself feel what we had. The one where I thought-stupidly, so fucking stupidly-that we might actually get it right. That night we weren't as careful as we could've been. But I have contraception, I thought it would be fine.

Now he's gone, and I'm stuck holding the last piece of him.

The phone buzzes on my nightstand. Winona.

I hesitate, then grab it.

"How'd your day go? You okay?"

"Fine. Just tired. How was your meeting?"

"Nailed it. They signed off on everything. Full control over the marketing budget, rebranding, expansion-all of it."

stepping into this role effortlessly, proving everyone

in a problem she'd give anything to still have.

you would. They're lucky

sure you're okay? You don't

phone so

go spend time with

an entire house built next

"What?"

actually. They are going to live out here. I'll tell you all

to

"Love you more."

I put the phone down, my whole

I will tell her about the foundation problems but not

lost her baby. Lost her last chance. Had to have surgery to make sure it never happens again. And me? I get pregnant by accident. An accident, like

it's okay, that I'll

swatter

what.

can't tell her. Because

want this baby. And that makes me

my side, staring at the empty glass on my nightstand. No wine. No vodka. No escape. I can't

wasn't pregnant, it wouldn't fix

the CEO position. Not fixing the mess Lance's death caused in

plan. Two months of partying, maybe a couple of flings, a detox retreat in Bali afterward to reset. That's what my

suddenly, all the air

this. Not here, not now. I need

off

is about to be

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