Don't Poke the Luna (Xena and Ryder)

Chapter 88

Xena's POV

"He's at the swing set in the west corner of the playground," William said, looking at me with concerned eyes.

"Thanks," I replied, giving Ama and William a small wave before walking out of the room

and heading toward the playground.

The wind had picked up outside, whipping my hair around my face as I spotted Ryder sitting alone on a swing, staring off into the distance. His broad shoulders were hunched slightly, his light blonde hair ruffled by the breeze. My heart clenched at the sight of him.

"Ryder..." I called softly.

He stopped swinging, only turning his head slightly to glance at me, his expression unreadable. Those green eyes that usually looked at me with such intensity now seemed

distant, guarded.

"I'm sorry," I said, walking up to stand in front of him. I reached out, cupping his face between my hands. "You did something really sweet for me, and I didn't respond the right way. I truly appreciate everything you've done."

Ryder remained motionless, saying nothing. The silence built between us like a wall, thick and impenetrable. My heart raced in my chest, each beat painful against my ribs.

"Ryder, please?" I whispered, my voice catching. The fear of his rejection cut deeper than any physical wound ever could. I felt like I couldn't breathe, each second of waiting draining what little courage I had left. "I really am sorry."

He sighed, finally standing up from the swing. Fear washed over me like a tidal wave, my heart gripped tight in an invisible fist. Once again, I'd messed up a relationship. Once again, I'd disappointed someone who cared about me.

I rose on my tiptoes and pressed a gentle kiss to his forehead before turning to leave, my chest aching with each breath.

A strong gust of wind swept through the playground, blowing my hair across my face and hiding the tears that had started rolling down my cheeks. Just then, Ama and William

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came running over.

"X?" Ama asked, her voice filled with concern.

"You guys have fun. I'm going for a walk," I said, heading down the steps, desperate to escape the suffocating scene.

"What the hell, Ryder?" I could still hear William's angry question behind me.

she's given anyone, and you're

was so damn hard for me, and now I was

walking as the sun began to set. Most people were inside having dinner,

to beckon me. I sat

planning to move

up to see Ama instead of

that moment, the spark of hope died,

girl," she said

up this time," I gave her a

hand.

know it's hard for you, but he's

voice was barely audible as I struggled to make her understand I wasn't

that better

hear my apology," I sighed, the weight of

chest.

it, he's just not

the bright side, this birthday won't be worse than the others,"

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birthdays-no cake, no well-wishes, just

stare and harsh

time.

tomorrow?" I looked at her, the uncertainty evident in my

him, more afraid

then looked over my shoulder. I followed

see

us. Ama stood up and

"Thank you," I whispered.

loves you," her words lingered in my ear as

on the other end of the bench, the distance between us feeling like

like a damn child waiting for my father to start

me say sorry again, I will," I finally broke the silence,

my arm

over to him. Ryder spread his legs, making room for me to sit on his lap. I wrapped my arms around his neck,

shoulder, finding comfort in his warmth and

feeling the walls inside me starting to

of?" he asked, his voice

I admitted, the first time I'd been so