Don't Poke the Luna (Xena and Ryder)

Chapter 88

Xena's POV

"He's at the swing set in the west corner of the playground," William said, looking at me with concerned eyes.

"Thanks," I replied, giving Ama and William a small wave before walking out of the room

and heading toward the playground.

The wind had picked up outside, whipping my hair around my face as I spotted Ryder sitting alone on a swing, staring off into the distance. His broad shoulders were hunched slightly, his light blonde hair ruffled by the breeze. My heart clenched at the sight of him.

"Ryder..." I called softly.

He stopped swinging, only turning his head slightly to glance at me, his expression unreadable. Those green eyes that usually looked at me with such intensity now seemed

distant, guarded.

"I'm sorry," I said, walking up to stand in front of him. I reached out, cupping his face between my hands. "You did something really sweet for me, and I didn't respond the right way. I truly appreciate everything you've done."

Ryder remained motionless, saying nothing. The silence built between us like a wall, thick and impenetrable. My heart raced in my chest, each beat painful against my ribs.

"Ryder, please?" I whispered, my voice catching. The fear of his rejection cut deeper than any physical wound ever could. I felt like I couldn't breathe, each second of waiting draining what little courage I had left. "I really am sorry."

He sighed, finally standing up from the swing. Fear washed over me like a tidal wave, my heart gripped tight in an invisible fist. Once again, I'd messed up a relationship. Once again, I'd disappointed someone who cared about me.

I rose on my tiptoes and pressed a gentle kiss to his forehead before turning to leave, my chest aching with each breath.

A strong gust of wind swept through the playground, blowing my hair across my face and hiding the tears that had started rolling down my cheeks. Just then, Ama and William

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came running over.

"X?" Ama asked, her voice filled with concern.

"You guys have fun. I'm going for a walk," I said, heading down the steps, desperate to escape the suffocating scene.

"What the hell, Ryder?" I could still hear William's angry question behind me.

you serious right now? She's given you more than she's given anyone, and you're letting tonight go to

hard for me, and now

in my life. I just kept walking as the sun began to

beckon me. I sat

move out tomorrow anyway, just not like

I looked up to see Ama

heart sank even further. In that moment, the spark of hope died,

she

a sad smile as

hand.

it's hard for you, but he's

to make her understand I wasn't unwilling to change, just

that better

sighed, the weight

chest.

just not ready to

side, this birthday won't be worse than the others," I

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lonely birthdays-no cake, no well-wishes, just my

and harsh

him some time. He'll

at her, the

of losing him, more afraid than

Ama smiled, then looked over my shoulder. I followed

see

toward us. Ama stood up and gave

"Thank you," I whispered.

loves you," her words lingered in my

the other end of the

didn't speak. I felt like a damn child waiting for my father

want to hear me say sorry again, I will," I finally broke the silence, my voice

Ryder nudged my arm

room for me to

finding comfort in his

I whispered again, feeling the walls inside

are you afraid of?" he asked, his voice rumbling through

over me," I admitted, the first