Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Ava

“I still don’t understand why I have to go. Why can’t I just stay here with you?” Noah complains. A frown marring his handsome face.

He’s been sore about this whole thing since I told him that he’ll be leaving with his grandparents. At first he was excited about it but then he became saddened when he realized that neither I nor his father would be joining him.

His school had been understanding of our situation His teacher even agreed to send lessons to mother so that he isn’t left too behind.

“I already told you baby, this is a grandparents–grandson kind of vacation…it’s just for you and you grandparents.”

After talking to the chief he assured me that they’ll be sent somewhere tropical.

“You’re going to a beach. Haven’t you been begging us to take you for a vacation?” I add with a

mischievous smile.

The word ‘beach‘ immediately catches his attention. All the complaints he had, now lost.

Noah is obsessed with the ocean. He loves beaches so much that he once cried for a whole week

after we returned from a vacation in the Maldives. He’d wanted us to move there. When we refused

he’d pleaded for us to just leave him there.

I smile at the memory. So grateful for the happiness and joy Noah has filled my life with.

“You’re not lying to me are you?” he asks, pulling me back from my thoughts.

“Would I ever lie to you?”

“No” his frown turns into a full blown smile. His grey eyes shining in happiness. “I guess it’s okay then. I’m not mad at you anymore”

“Why were you mad at me?” I ask

“Because you refused to come with me, but it’s okay now. You can always join us later”

I wanted to tell him I won’t be joining him but I stop myself. I wasn’t going to risk him going back.

to being sad and moody again.

“Now, come one let’s go or we’ll be late” I take my handbag and sling it over my uninjured shoulder

While I grab his small suitcase, he grabs his duffel bag and rushes downstairs Carefully, I bring

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I was just about to order an Uber when my door bell rings. I rush to open before Noah can. He has a

tendency to open the door without first asking who is on the other side. No matter how many

times I caution him. No matter how many times I tell him to ask first and not to open if the person

on the other side doesn’t answer or he doesn’t recognize his or her voice. He just never listens.

Opening the door, I groan when I see who is on the other side.

Why did it seem like that the moment I decide to get over Rowan is when he seems to be

everywhere I turn?

“Dad!” Noah rushes past me and throws himself on his father.

“Hey buddy” Rowan greets him then hugs him close.

He sniffs him. Breathing his scent in. I once asked him why he does that and he told me Noah’s

scent just calms him. Like how fragrances calm other people down.

He puts him down and faces me. Noah rushes back to the living room. His excitement making

him hyper.

seems like I’ve been asking him this question a lot in the

days.

He shrugs his shoulder.

take you to the airport” he says as

explanation

his face gives nothing away. I now understand that he is

he looks at coolly. Even with his

them a sort of

need for that. I’ve

I wanted was to be stuck with him in a

take us to get to the

cold voice sending shivers down my

and just wonder why I fell for

should have ran for the hills

him instead doing everything in my power to

I’ll meet you at the airport” I whisper

to my house and throwing out commands?

won’t allow

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my space so we’re chest to chest. His eyes flash and his nostrils flare, I stand

let him

get your ass into my car” he growls through clench teeth. A storm brewing

clench my fist. Usually I would push it down

I no longer

of bitch…who the hell do you think you’re, hmm? I’m not some fucking puppy you think you can fucking command” my voice was starting

dictate me. For years I kept my mouth shut because I didn’t want to fracture. what I thought we had. But what did it bring me? What did pushing down and containing

he says in a

you two fighting again?” Noah’s voice cuts

us sadly. Damn it! I hate Noah

with us fighting all

can’t agree on something” I

on his face has disappeared.

for Noah. Including tolerating my

your mom wanted to go with an Uber’since she can’t drive but I wanted to drive you

a lazy

can’t we just

deep breath and cast my eyes heavenward. Damn him for throwing me under the

at my son and he looks

defeat. “Alright, fine” I

things I do

to the leaving room before

tell Rowan and then leave

room a bit and then pick things up. I give the room one last glance to

place

my hand. Rowan wraps an arm around me and steadies me before I can fall. I jump away from him

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wait at the

what to do you

“Let’s just go”

suitcase, turns around and leaves I

Rowan and Noah were already seated in the car. Reluctantly, I approach the

Noah was busy on his tablet watching. some cartoon. Once he’s focused on something it’s hard to get

my hands to turn on the radio but

on the road but

the one arm

“Fine”

me more than just a one word answer?” he asks

before. In fact you would go to great lengths to tune me out” I say as a matter of fact. “So why are

threatens to rise up but I push it back down. I’m set on healing from those past hurts and it starts by forgetting about it and about the man sitting

window. Praying that we would just

was asking for you, haven’t you spoken to

annoyance. “You’re awfully chatty and it’s getting on my nerve Rowan. Can you just ignore me and pretend

wheel tightens. I see his jaw clench. He was getting pissed. Probably because I wasn’t acting like the meek lamb he was used

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him happy. Trying to be what he wants. Trying to be like Emma. I did everything I could to be the wife he could fall in love with. Now I had shed that skin and he didn’t like that I