Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

19. Nothing to give

I fix my hoodie so that I can look presentable instead of looking like I had a one on one with death.

“Why are you wearing a beanie, mommy” Noah looks at me suspiciously.

We were skyping after I had postponed it so many times. Mainly because I could barely keep my

eyes open for longer than five minutes. Today though, I was feeling much better

I leaned back against my headboard. The beanie was to hide the bandage. Noah still didn’t know

what happened to me and I would make sure he never does.

“It’s a bit cold and I’m feeling a bit chilly” I lie.

I feel guilty for lying to him, but I know it’s for the best. There was no need of worrying him.

“We have a heater mom, you could’ve just turned it on”

“It’s not working and I forgot to get someone to fix it”

Damn it, I hate lying to him. A part of me felt like I was being a terrible mother because it seems. I’ve done nothing but lie to him since father died. The other part though, understands that it’s

necessary. 3

“Okay then” he mumbles skeptically.

“So what did you do today?” I ask changing the subject.

Anything that he does excites me even though I’m not there to enjoy it with him. His happiness was my own and I would protect it at all cost.

The frown he had seconds ago transforms into a big smile.

“I saw dolphins today, I even swam with them…it was so fun!!” he shouts, his excitement contagious.

“I wish I was there to see you”

“Don’t worry mommy, grandma took a video. She said she’ll send it to you”

I nod my head at that. I had accepted the phone Rowan got me. Turns out he did more than buy me a new phone. He even replaced my sim card.

impersonal. Like I said, I wanted to live in peace and Rowan meddling in my life would make sure I

at dad’s house?” his unexpected question pulls me

“What do you mean?”

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yesterday and she was there sitting so close to him

that was so like his father’s was now

words don’t hurt but deep down they still do. Knowing that Rowan was already playing house with her brings back the pain I’ve tried so hard

into thinking we’ve moved on? Then the moment we’re

ask your dad” I mumble, trying

it fit to flaunt his relationship with Emma in

and dad back together. So we can be a family again” he

have to understand that your father and I are just too

illusion that we loved each other. That we were okay. It was all a sham though. Rowan could barely stand me, but Noah never caught

could make him

intimate, it meant nothing to him. It was a biological process. While my feelings were involved, his weren’t. We never made love

same question he demanded of his

ago.

want to lie to him but I’ve done enough of

loving someone isn’t enough. You won’t understand it now but one

as I hate to say this, I hope one day he gets the kind of love Rowan and Emma have.

knock on my open door makes

here to see you,

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that Letty convinced me to let her stay because, she’s been such a huge help. She

me. I don’t know how I would have survived

that, mommy?”

is in before

to help me with chores” I answer him. My

Both have stopped by a couple of

never needed it before, you’re super Mom” he looks

did everything by myself. Even when I lived at Rowan’s mansion. I thought it would make him see me in a different light. That he would see that I am not as spoiled as

less if I made

“Mommy?” he calls out.

my room. He was the last person I wanted to talk to, but that doesn’t

just arrived

“Okay then

signs off. The moment he does, my smile slips

want to see you again” I

emotions.

my

humorlessly. “Sister? Are you sure, Travis, because as far as I remember