Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

19. Nothing to give

I fix my hoodie so that I can look presentable instead of looking like I had a one on one with death.

“Why are you wearing a beanie, mommy” Noah looks at me suspiciously.

We were skyping after I had postponed it so many times. Mainly because I could barely keep my

eyes open for longer than five minutes. Today though, I was feeling much better

I leaned back against my headboard. The beanie was to hide the bandage. Noah still didn’t know

what happened to me and I would make sure he never does.

“It’s a bit cold and I’m feeling a bit chilly” I lie.

I feel guilty for lying to him, but I know it’s for the best. There was no need of worrying him.

“We have a heater mom, you could’ve just turned it on”

“It’s not working and I forgot to get someone to fix it”

Damn it, I hate lying to him. A part of me felt like I was being a terrible mother because it seems. I’ve done nothing but lie to him since father died. The other part though, understands that it’s

necessary. 3

“Okay then” he mumbles skeptically.

“So what did you do today?” I ask changing the subject.

Anything that he does excites me even though I’m not there to enjoy it with him. His happiness was my own and I would protect it at all cost.

The frown he had seconds ago transforms into a big smile.

“I saw dolphins today, I even swam with them…it was so fun!!” he shouts, his excitement contagious.

“I wish I was there to see you”

“Don’t worry mommy, grandma took a video. She said she’ll send it to you”

I nod my head at that. I had accepted the phone Rowan got me. Turns out he did more than buy me a new phone. He even replaced my sim card.

doing. I try to keep those calls short and impersonal. Like I said, I wanted to live in peace and Rowan meddling in my life would make sure I had anything but peace. Especially if

house?” his unexpected question pulls

“What do you mean?”

+15 BONUS

she was there sitting so close to him

so like his father’s was now

to pretend that those words don’t hurt but deep down they still do. Knowing that

into thinking we’ve moved on? Then the moment we’re hit by a

my love. You’re going to have to ask your dad” I mumble, trying to hide how shaky my voice

to Noah. Rowan saw it fit to flaunt his relationship with Emma in front of our son, so he’ll be the one to explain things

a family again” he is sad and it breaks my already

to understand that your father and

Trying to give him the illusion that we loved each other. That we were okay. It was all a sham

I was naïve back then. Thinking that I could make him love me. That it would only be a matter of time until he was in love with me like I was with him. He

meant nothing to him. It was a biological process. While my feelings were involved, his weren’t. We never made love because he didn’t love me. What we did was fucking and even then he was careful not to get me pregnant. Not to make the

you love him?” Noah asks the same question he

ago.

to lie to him but I’ve done enough

won’t understand it now but one day, when you’re

much as I hate to say this, I hope one day he gets

open

here to see you, Ava” Lydia

+15 BONUS

Letty convinced me to let her stay because, she’s been such a huge help. She

for me. I don’t know how I would have survived

that,

let whoever it is in before

Lydia. She’s here to help me with chores” I answer him. My mind on

was correct then it is either Letty or Ethan. Both have stopped by a couple

need help? You’ve never needed it

always did everything by myself. Even when I lived at Rowan’s mansion. I thought it would make him see me in a different light. That he would see that I am not as spoiled

less if I made sure that all his meals were home cooked. That I could take care of my family

“Mommy?” he calls out.

know that he wanted answers, but I’m saved from that when Travis walks in to my room. He was the last

I’ll call you back…you uncle just arrived and I need to talk to

sighs. “Okay then

off. The moment he

want to see you

emotions.

“You’re my sister, I wanted to see how

“Sister? Are you sure, Travis, because as far