Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

54. The Howell’s

It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

feel like cooking even though

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to the living room instead. Seating down on the big sofa, Letty joins me and sets

boxes of food.

eat. Both of us seemingly lost

can’t

eating.

I was okay. Just to get her off my

most of the time than to face

soon as that thought crosses my mind, I push it away. I needed

drowning.

begin. “I’m still having a hard time accepting that Ethan

people I thought were

the two was harder to accept. I keep asking

been great had I been raised by

have saved me from ever meeting Rowan, but then I would never have had

think of how things would be different had I not met Rowan, I turn

all over again

wish Noah was here with

anchor.

must be feeling. I don’t even know where to

says, pulling me back

smile a little. She really wasn’t good at comforting someone or making them

that though. Her realness was better than

feel.

Not to mention that it

that I’d finally gotten a guy that

ripped away from me” I blink away the tears, not

for a man that played and

honestly don’t know who is worse. Rowan for using me for S** while he

still using me for S** while he planned on

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to come out as rude but I’m gonna hit you with

whole time, then I would have put

you

can’t keep looking for men to love you” She sighs again. “How do I put this out without hurting you further you went into a relationship with Ethan wanting someone to love you

whole expectation on someone else. You can’t think that a man loving

hole Rowan and you

don’t get to say

You think when you find the man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way you want to be loved. You have to love

back of the couch

at her feeling a bit attacked

“Am 17”

her.

an inner

I force out

for love after you divorced? Why did every sentence you said about moving on consist of finding someone to