Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

54. The Howell’s

It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

am grateful. I really didn’t feel like cooking even though

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Seating down on the big sofa, Letty joins me and sets

boxes of food.

eat. Both of us seemingly

you? I’m worried about you Ava. This can’t be easy for you” she says after we are

eating.

her that I was okay. Just to get her off my

pretend most of the

my mind, I push it

drowning.

I begin. “I’m still having a hard time accepting that Ethan isn’t the man I

thought were my family aren’t

don’t know which of the two was harder to

If life would have been great had I been raised by

meeting Rowan, but then I would never have had Noah.

think of how things would be different had I

again if

miss him. Now more than ever I wish Noah was

anchor.

must be feeling. I don’t even know

Letty says, pulling

She really wasn’t good at comforting

mind that though. Her realness was better than someone

feel.

time. Not to mention that it

thought that I’d finally gotten a guy that would love

anything, it gets ripped away from me”

anymore. Especially for a man that played

for using me for S** while he

and still using me for S** while he

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to come out as rude but I’m gonna hit you with

was what you were thinking the whole time, then I would have put a stop to

are you talking

put this out without hurting you further you went into a relationship with Ethan wanting someone

someone else. You

Rowan and you family

say anything

love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way you want

back of the couch

I glare at her feeling a bit

“Am 17”

to argue with her. Of course I

you sure‘ an

I force

sentence you said about moving on