Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

54. The Howell’s

It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

I really didn’t feel like cooking even though I was

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instead. Seating down on

boxes of food.

don’t talk as we eat. Both of us seemingly lost in

are you? I’m worried about you Ava. This can’t be easy for

eating.

moment I think about lying to her that I

most of the time

I push it away. I needed to

drowning.

still having a hard time accepting that Ethan isn’t the man I

I thought were my family aren’t really blood

was harder to accept. I keep asking myself if things would

If life would have been great had I been raised by my real

would have saved me from ever meeting Rowan, but

would be different had I not met Rowan, I turn

again if it

I wish Noah was here with me. He has

anchor.

begin to imagine all you must be feeling.

pulling me

look at her and smile a little. She really wasn’t good

I don’t mind that though. Her realness was better

feel.

hard time. Not to mention that it

I’d finally gotten a guy that would love

away from me” I blink away the tears, not wanting to

a man

know who is worse. Rowan for using me for S** while he

for playing me and still using me for S** while he planned on killing

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to come out as rude but

whole time,

you talking

She sighs again. “How do I put this out without hurting you further you went into a

else. You can’t think

hole Rowan and you family

say

fantasy and I never saw it until now. You think when you find the man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself

back of the couch

wrong” I glare at her feeling

“Am 17”

to argue with her. Of course I love

you sure‘ an inner

force out

did every sentence you said about moving on consist of finding someone to love you? You can’t