Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

81. You get to choose

Rowan.

“Are you going to brood forever?” Gabe asks in annoyance.

I don’t pay him any attention. Just continue staring at the amber liquid in my glass, contemplating how things went downhill with Ava so fast.

I’m not naïve enough to think that she was acting irrationally. She was acting like a normal person would. A person who’s been hurt over and over again by people she loved. (2)

There’s this strong need inside me to soothe her pain. To take all her hurts away. To heal her. How can I do that, though? When I’m the one that fucking put it–there in the first place.

“You can’t continue like this, Ro. If she’s not giving you the time of day, then leave her the hell alone! Emma wants you for crying out loud. Hell, It’s not like you’re lacking when it comes to the women that want you,” he grumbles, plopping his ass down on the chair. 2

I don’t acknowledge his stupid tirade. Instead, I send him a glare. “If my current mood bothers you so much, you can fucking leave.”

He doesn’t understand, and I am in no mood to make him understand. My entire being has recently decided that it doesn’t want Emma. Nor does it want any other woman who is not Ava.

I used to despise her. Used to think that there was no way I would ever want her. Famous last fucking words because she’s all I think about right now. She’s taken over every inch of my thoughts and fantasies..

Karma sure is a fucking bitch, ain’t she? Just when I finally acknowledge that I do want her, she decides that she wants nothing to do with me. The fact that she’s having a baby with another man

is proof enough of her determination to move on.

I used to be the only man that has ever touched her. The only man she knew quite intimately. I never used to take that for the fucking gift it was. Now, someone else knows how she tastes, and I fucking hate that Ethan gave her something that I used to deny her while we were married.

Shaking those thoughts away, I stand up and walk to the large windows of my office. Thinking of any other man touching her drives me crazy. It’s pure fucking torture. I guess now I have an

inkling of how she felt when I used to hold Emma between us.

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Fuck! How can I make her see that I don’t mean any harm? That I don’t want to hurt her, instead, I want to heal what’s broken

You want to heal what’s broken, yet you can’t accept that you love her? A voice taunts. ‘When are you going to realize you just don’t do such things for a woman unless you fucking love her?

to drown too

I’m not even sure when or how they developed.

how insincere those words would seem? She probably wouldn’t even believe me. Not after how I have treated her for the past

but I don’t

gotten you in such a

to. We’ve been friends since we were all in diapers. We know each

“Ava”

me turn around. My

defeated. He has lost weight these

worrying all of us.

I ask, my voice sounding gruff

to ask her for help concerning the company. She refused.” He

he refuses. The Howell’s kept to their promise. Sharp Corp was sinking and if nothing was done soon, it wouldn’t last even

collapsed.

standing was because we were as powerful as the Howell’s. Their pulling out and getting their loyal investors to do

there. They may not have been able to destroy our company, but I’m fucking sure they’ll look for another way to get their revenge. I won’t even fight. them. They were right to come after me. I deserve everything they plan to do to me for

treated their daughter.

you so dejected? That she refused to help

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said

for him. We

keep asking you guys that

to be as she was. Every trace of the old Ava is gone. The only time you see glimpses of her is

I didn’t recognize the number. For a moment, I thought of ignoring it, but

you I’d get back at you” the familiar

do you want?” I ask angrily, not in the mood to

known as Reaper chuckles. “Don’t you want to know

have?”

fazed, but damn it. Reaper was a crazy

worried me.

it out, Ronny, I

was calm, but a certain kind of panic was

That alone was starting to

eager to know, I’ll tell you.” He pauses as if trying to rise suspense, but all he was doing was pissing me off. “I have two beautiful ladies with me. The

of your