Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

81. You get to choose

Rowan.

“Are you going to brood forever?” Gabe asks in annoyance.

I don’t pay him any attention. Just continue staring at the amber liquid in my glass, contemplating how things went downhill with Ava so fast.

I’m not naïve enough to think that she was acting irrationally. She was acting like a normal person would. A person who’s been hurt over and over again by people she loved. (2)

There’s this strong need inside me to soothe her pain. To take all her hurts away. To heal her. How can I do that, though? When I’m the one that fucking put it–there in the first place.

“You can’t continue like this, Ro. If she’s not giving you the time of day, then leave her the hell alone! Emma wants you for crying out loud. Hell, It’s not like you’re lacking when it comes to the women that want you,” he grumbles, plopping his ass down on the chair. 2

I don’t acknowledge his stupid tirade. Instead, I send him a glare. “If my current mood bothers you so much, you can fucking leave.”

He doesn’t understand, and I am in no mood to make him understand. My entire being has recently decided that it doesn’t want Emma. Nor does it want any other woman who is not Ava.

I used to despise her. Used to think that there was no way I would ever want her. Famous last fucking words because she’s all I think about right now. She’s taken over every inch of my thoughts and fantasies..

Karma sure is a fucking bitch, ain’t she? Just when I finally acknowledge that I do want her, she decides that she wants nothing to do with me. The fact that she’s having a baby with another man

is proof enough of her determination to move on.

I used to be the only man that has ever touched her. The only man she knew quite intimately. I never used to take that for the fucking gift it was. Now, someone else knows how she tastes, and I fucking hate that Ethan gave her something that I used to deny her while we were married.

Shaking those thoughts away, I stand up and walk to the large windows of my office. Thinking of any other man touching her drives me crazy. It’s pure fucking torture. I guess now I have an

inkling of how she felt when I used to hold Emma between us.

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Fuck! How can I make her see that I don’t mean any harm? That I don’t want to hurt her, instead, I want to heal what’s broken

You want to heal what’s broken, yet you can’t accept that you love her? A voice taunts. ‘When are you going to realize you just don’t do such things for a woman unless you fucking love her?

those words. Refusing to drown too

for Ava. I’m not even sure when or how they developed. Even if I

those words would seem? She probably wouldn’t even believe me. Not after how I have treated her

opens, but

you in such a foul mood?”

turn around to know that it’s Travis he’s talking to. We’ve been friends since we were all in

“Ava”

makes me turn

utterly defeated. He has lost weight these past few weeks,

worrying all of us.

sounding gruff even

for help concerning the

Howell’s kept to their promise. Sharp Corp was sinking and if nothing was done soon, it wouldn’t last even two months before

collapsed.

was because we were as powerful as the Howell’s. Their pulling out and getting their

to think it would end there. They may not have been able to destroy our company, but I’m fucking sure they’ll look for another way to get their revenge. I won’t even fight. them. They were right to come after me. I deserve

treated their daughter.

what has you so dejected? That she refused to help you.” Gabe looks at him in

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what she said She said she didn’t consider me her family. In other

sympathy for him. We were horrible to her.

fucking expect? I keep asking you guys that

I don’t know why I keep expecting her to be as she was. Every trace of the old Ava is gone. The only time you see glimpses of her is when she’s

my attention from their conversation. I didn’t recognize the number. For a moment, I thought of ignoring it, but I thought

I’d get back at you” the familiar voice

fuck do you want?” I ask angrily, not in the mood to

Reaper chuckles. “Don’t you want

have?”

fazed, but damn it. Reaper was a crazy fucker. The fact that he sounded

worried me.

out, Ronny, I

a certain kind of panic was rising inside me. He

starting

suspense, but all he was doing was pissing me off. “I have two beautiful ladies with me. The love of your

mother of