Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

81. You get to choose

Rowan.

“Are you going to brood forever?” Gabe asks in annoyance.

I don’t pay him any attention. Just continue staring at the amber liquid in my glass, contemplating how things went downhill with Ava so fast.

I’m not naïve enough to think that she was acting irrationally. She was acting like a normal person would. A person who’s been hurt over and over again by people she loved. (2)

There’s this strong need inside me to soothe her pain. To take all her hurts away. To heal her. How can I do that, though? When I’m the one that fucking put it–there in the first place.

“You can’t continue like this, Ro. If she’s not giving you the time of day, then leave her the hell alone! Emma wants you for crying out loud. Hell, It’s not like you’re lacking when it comes to the women that want you,” he grumbles, plopping his ass down on the chair. 2

I don’t acknowledge his stupid tirade. Instead, I send him a glare. “If my current mood bothers you so much, you can fucking leave.”

He doesn’t understand, and I am in no mood to make him understand. My entire being has recently decided that it doesn’t want Emma. Nor does it want any other woman who is not Ava.

I used to despise her. Used to think that there was no way I would ever want her. Famous last fucking words because she’s all I think about right now. She’s taken over every inch of my thoughts and fantasies..

Karma sure is a fucking bitch, ain’t she? Just when I finally acknowledge that I do want her, she decides that she wants nothing to do with me. The fact that she’s having a baby with another man

is proof enough of her determination to move on.

I used to be the only man that has ever touched her. The only man she knew quite intimately. I never used to take that for the fucking gift it was. Now, someone else knows how she tastes, and I fucking hate that Ethan gave her something that I used to deny her while we were married.

Shaking those thoughts away, I stand up and walk to the large windows of my office. Thinking of any other man touching her drives me crazy. It’s pure fucking torture. I guess now I have an

inkling of how she felt when I used to hold Emma between us.

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Fuck! How can I make her see that I don’t mean any harm? That I don’t want to hurt her, instead, I want to heal what’s broken

You want to heal what’s broken, yet you can’t accept that you love her? A voice taunts. ‘When are you going to realize you just don’t do such things for a woman unless you fucking love her?

Refusing to drown too much in

even sure when

probably wouldn’t even believe me. Not after how I have treated

opens, but I

gotten you in such a foul mood?” Gabe

around to know that it’s Travis he’s talking to. We’ve been friends since we were all in diapers. We know each other like

“Ava”

me turn

He has

worrying all of us.

voice sounding gruff even

to ask her for help concerning the company.

Howell’s kept to their promise. Sharp Corp was sinking and if nothing was done soon, it wouldn’t last

collapsed.

as the Howell’s. Their pulling out and getting their loyal investors to

think it would end there. They may not have been able to destroy our company, but I’m fucking sure they’ll look for another way to get their revenge. I won’t even fight. them. They were right to come after me. I deserve everything they plan to do to me for the

treated their daughter.

That she refused

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She said she didn’t consider

I don’t feel any sympathy for him. We were horrible to her. Her treatment towards us

fucking expect? I keep asking you guys that question,”

Every trace of the old Ava is gone. The only time you see glimpses of her is when she’s

conversation. I didn’t recognize the number. For a

back at you” the familiar voice

you want?” I ask angrily, not in

you want to know what, or more

have?”

Reaper was a crazy

worried me.

it out, Ronny, I don’t have

of panic was rising inside me. He had someone I

alone was starting to drive

he was doing was pissing me off. “I have

mother of