Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

81. You get to choose

Rowan.

“Are you going to brood forever?” Gabe asks in annoyance.

I don’t pay him any attention. Just continue staring at the amber liquid in my glass, contemplating how things went downhill with Ava so fast.

I’m not naïve enough to think that she was acting irrationally. She was acting like a normal person would. A person who’s been hurt over and over again by people she loved. (2)

There’s this strong need inside me to soothe her pain. To take all her hurts away. To heal her. How can I do that, though? When I’m the one that fucking put it–there in the first place.

“You can’t continue like this, Ro. If she’s not giving you the time of day, then leave her the hell alone! Emma wants you for crying out loud. Hell, It’s not like you’re lacking when it comes to the women that want you,” he grumbles, plopping his ass down on the chair. 2

I don’t acknowledge his stupid tirade. Instead, I send him a glare. “If my current mood bothers you so much, you can fucking leave.”

He doesn’t understand, and I am in no mood to make him understand. My entire being has recently decided that it doesn’t want Emma. Nor does it want any other woman who is not Ava.

I used to despise her. Used to think that there was no way I would ever want her. Famous last fucking words because she’s all I think about right now. She’s taken over every inch of my thoughts and fantasies..

Karma sure is a fucking bitch, ain’t she? Just when I finally acknowledge that I do want her, she decides that she wants nothing to do with me. The fact that she’s having a baby with another man

is proof enough of her determination to move on.

I used to be the only man that has ever touched her. The only man she knew quite intimately. I never used to take that for the fucking gift it was. Now, someone else knows how she tastes, and I fucking hate that Ethan gave her something that I used to deny her while we were married.

Shaking those thoughts away, I stand up and walk to the large windows of my office. Thinking of any other man touching her drives me crazy. It’s pure fucking torture. I guess now I have an

inkling of how she felt when I used to hold Emma between us.

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Fuck! How can I make her see that I don’t mean any harm? That I don’t want to hurt her, instead, I want to heal what’s broken

You want to heal what’s broken, yet you can’t accept that you love her? A voice taunts. ‘When are you going to realize you just don’t do such things for a woman unless you fucking love her?

to drown too much in

even sure when or how they developed.

do you know how insincere those words would seem? She probably wouldn’t even believe me. Not after how I have treated her

door opens, but

has gotten you in

to. We’ve been friends since we were all in diapers. We

“Ava”

makes me turn around. My focus

and utterly defeated. He has lost weight these past few weeks, and

worrying all of us.

sounding gruff even to

ask her for help concerning the company. She refused.” He

but he refuses. The Howell’s kept to their promise. Sharp Corp was

collapsed.

reason our company was still standing was because we were as powerful as the Howell’s. Their pulling out and getting their loyal investors to

look for another way to get their revenge. I

treated their daughter.

so dejected? That she refused to help you.” Gabe

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breath. “No. It’s what she said She said she didn’t consider

him, but I don’t feel any sympathy for him. We were horrible to her. Her treatment towards us was less than

I keep asking you guys that

expecting her to be as she was. Every trace of the old Ava is gone. The only time you see glimpses of her is when she’s with

their conversation. I didn’t recognize the number.

get back at you”

angrily, not in the mood to

chuckles. “Don’t you want to know what, or more

have?”

not one to be fazed, but damn it. Reaper was a crazy fucker. The fact that he

worried me.

I don’t have

voice was calm, but a certain kind of panic was

starting

suspense, but all he was doing was pissing me off. “I have two beautiful ladies with

of