Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I

they all hated

I would want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t this what

them to realize their mistake and crawl begging

don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go and forgive

part though, doesn’t trust

over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A

cut him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave.

side. That’s where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here

meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning.

Emma, and mine…well mine is now with my children”

eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there was a

still. Waiting for a

his

leave you alone…for now” he says

be it, but instead of leaving immediately,

gently. Before I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing

the hell just happened. It’s not that I am not happy

It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet

tell he didn’t want

I slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of

this is Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that told me I could never

or a woman

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him? I question but don’t get

would have believed if he told me that he would

For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That

aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my

meaning too, exhaustion takes

to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never felt

the Sharps. The fact that

must have made a sound,

her voice catching.

try and push them back, but it

Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of

hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting

More than you

fall as I bask in their warm embrace. Surrounded by their

as the door opens and a

for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling kindly at

was so happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine. That

the baby

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hold my son* I tell her smiling

with his parents I planned to pick him up on

I knew today would have gone differently. If it had.

nave been alive to see

you’re done here” she instructs