Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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I don’t want him to make up pretty

they all hated and despised

want such

realize their mistake and crawl

so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let

though, doesn’t trust their

their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other

him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave. You should

be.

screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from

with Emma, and

eyes as the grey

still. Waiting for a fight,

when he sags against his

I leave you alone…for now” he says

but instead of leaving immediately,

Before I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door gently behind

Wondering what the hell

used to doing whatever

though you could tell he

slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of

are talking about. The same Rowan that told me I

or a woman

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hell is going on with him? I

have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms But not Howan

believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around

no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head

too, exhaustion takes over and I fall

They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and

what I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact

have made a sound, because they both

her voice catching.

and push them back, but it does

you guys so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined”

hear you say

girl. More than you could ever imagine” dad

bask in their warm

opens

ready for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling

happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine. That the drugs I

the baby in any

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to see and hold my son* I tell her smiling

told me that he was with his parents I planned to pick

away from him because I

alive to see

to the reception once you’re done