Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I

they all hated and

wonder why I would want such a thing,

For them to realize their

I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to

part though, doesn’t trust their

trust their brand new feelings towards me. It

thankful that you saved me, but please leave. You should

be. Emma is here and you have waited

Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery,

always been with Emma, and

as the grey pools darken.

I still. Waiting for a fight, but

sags against his chair, before letting

I leave you alone…for now” he says in a

instead of leaving immediately, he

gently. Before I can say or do anything. He

what the hell just happened. It’s not that I

I am. It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he

tell he didn’t

he told me. Of course it’s

are talking about. The same Rowan that told me

or a woman he

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hell is going on with him? I question but

man I would have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms But not

I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So

All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t

meaning too, exhaustion takes over and

with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never

is what I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so many emotions to

must have made a sound, because they both look

her voice catching. “How are

I blink to try and push them back, but it

imagined” My voice was so full of emotions that it was hard to

to hear you say that” mom says, her

you too baby girl. More

bask in their warm

the door opens and a nurse walks

discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling

so happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine.

baby in any

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hold my son* I tell her

was with his parents I planned to pick him up on the way home. I

away from him because I knew today

alive to see

once you’re done here”