Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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him to make up pretty little lies.

they all hated and despised

some might wonder why I would want such a thing, right? After all,

realize their mistake and crawl begging for

I am just so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let

trust their intentions. 3

their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other

cut him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave.

you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you have

be with her. Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s

Emma, and mine…well mine

to argue. I see it in his eyes as the grey pools darken.

inside. I still. Waiting for a fight, but it

when he sags against his chair, before

leave you alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice before standing

that would be it, but instead of leaving immediately,

or do anything. He leaves,

back. Wondering what the hell just happened.

Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when

tell he didn’t

think about what he told me. Of course it’s

Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that told me

like Emma or a

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is going on with him? I question but don’t get

have believed if he told me that he would give up

am nothing. That I meant nothing

many questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s

meaning too, exhaustion takes over and

wake up, it’s to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding

Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought

must have made a sound, because they both look

calls, her voice catching. “How are you

try and push them back, but

guys so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My

I’ve been dying to hear you say

you too baby girl. More

the tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace. Surrounded

as the door opens and a nurse walks

Ava?” she asks smiling

so happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine. That the

the baby in any

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I’m dying to see and hold my son* I tell

his parents I planned to

from him because I knew today would have gone differently. If it

nave been alive to

once you’re done here” she instructs