Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty

hated and despised

would want such a thing,

them to realize their mistake and

with this new versions

trust their intentions.

the trauma from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other shoe to

thankful that you

wanted to be. Emma

don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning.

Yours has always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is now with my children”

his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there was a

Waiting for a

his chair, before letting out

you alone…for now” he says in a gruff

of leaving

I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing

Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that

am. It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when

though you could tell

slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to

same Rowan that told me I could never

or a

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hell is going on with him? I question but don’t get

me that he would

For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he

so many questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and

too, exhaustion takes

exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my

Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so

must have made a sound, because they both look

her voice catching.

and push them back, but it

so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was

been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting in the

too baby girl. More than you could ever imagine” dad

the tears fall as I bask in their warm

the door opens and

for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling kindly

was so happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine.

the baby in any

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see and hold my son* I tell her

I planned to pick him up

to be a second away from him because I

alive to see

to the reception once you’re done here” she instructs just