Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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goes to say something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back to how things

all hated

why I would want such a thing, right? After all,

them to realize their

how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go and forgive them. The

doesn’t trust their intentions. 3

again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other

I cut him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please

wanted to be.

had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s

always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is

eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like

Waiting for a fight, but

his chair, before letting

says in a gruff voice before standing

be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he

say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door

Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I

whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when

could tell

about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to

The same

like Emma or

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the hell is going on with him? I question but don’t get any

told me that he would give up Emms But

nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere and expect that I would believe

Whatever was going on in Rowan’s

too, exhaustion takes over

my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my

craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact

made a sound, because they

her voice catching. “How are

I blink to try and push

you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full

been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting in the

you too baby girl. More than you

let the tears fall as I bask in their warm

as the door opens

for discharge, Ava?” she asks

when they told me that my baby

the baby

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to see and hold my

with his parents I planned to pick him up

second away from him because I knew today would have

alive

reception once you’re done here” she instructs just