Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back to how

hated and despised me.

such a thing, right? After all,

their mistake

to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a

part though, doesn’t trust their intentions. 3

from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game.

thankful that you saved me, but please

That’s where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you have

don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery,

Yours has always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is

to argue. I see it in his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there was

still. Waiting for a fight, but it doesn’t

sags against his chair, before

alone…for now” he says in

it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends

say or do anything. He leaves, closing

left staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just

It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants,

you could tell

slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told

talking about. The same Rowan that

Emma or a

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is going on with him? I question but

if he told me that he would

him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere and expect that I

answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1

too, exhaustion takes over

wake up, it’s to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding

Sharps. The fact that

sound,

voice catching. “How are you

to try and push them back,

much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of

I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her

love you too baby girl. More than

let the tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace. Surrounded by

separate as the door opens and a nurse walks

ready for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling kindly

so happy when they told me that my

the baby

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hold my son* I tell her smiling

I planned to

a second away from him because I knew today would have gone differently. If it had.

been alive

Come to the reception once you’re done here” she instructs just