Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to

hated and despised me.

such a thing, right? After

realize their mistake

new versions

though, doesn’t trust their intentions. 3

over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the

“I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave. You should

side. That’s where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is

Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s time each of us found our

and

wants to argue. I see it in his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost

inside. I still. Waiting for a fight, but it doesn’t

when he sags against his chair,

leave you alone…for now” he says in a

be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends and the

say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door gently behind

what the hell

Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck

though you could tell he

I slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s

Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that told me I could never

or a

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him?

man I would have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms But not Howan

along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip

so many questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going

takes over and

looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands

fact that I finally had it, brought

sound, because they both

her voice catching. “How are you

and push them back, but

Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of

dying to hear you say that” mom

too baby girl. More than you could ever

the tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace.

the door opens and a

ready for discharge, Ava?”

me that my baby was doing fine. That the drugs I

the baby in

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my son* I

was with his parents I planned to pick him up on the way home. I

because I knew today would have gone differently. If it

nave been alive to

you’re done here”