Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go

they all hated and despised

I would want such a thing, right?

wanted? For them to realize their mistake and crawl begging for

truth is, I am just so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants

part though, doesn’t trust

trauma from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for

him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me,

where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you

meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both

Emma, and mine…well mine is now

as the

still. Waiting for

surprised when he sags against his

now” he says in a gruff voice before standing

it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends and

gently. Before I can say or do anything.

hell just happened. It’s not that I am not happy

Rowan is used to doing whatever

could tell

I slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to

is Rowan we are talking about. The same

like Emma or a

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on with him? I question but don’t

told me that he would give up

he expect me to believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere

was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn

takes over

find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and

The fact that

have made a sound,

calls, her voice catching. “How are

eyes fill. I blink to try and

always imagined” My voice was so full of emotions that it was hard

to hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting in

love you too baby girl. More than you could

fall as I bask in their warm

door opens

for discharge, Ava?”

they told me that my

baby in any

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hold my son* I tell her smiling back at

planned to pick him up

from him because I knew

nave been alive to

to the reception once you’re done here” she instructs just before she