Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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say something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I

hated

know some might wonder why I would want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t this what

realize their mistake and crawl begging

know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go

trust

and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for

him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please

where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you

her. Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s time each of

always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is now with

as the grey pools darken. Almost like there was a

still. Waiting for a fight, but it doesn’t

surprised when he sags against his chair, before letting out

alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice

be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends

do anything. He leaves, closing

hell just happened. It’s

doing whatever the fuck he

could tell he didn’t want

what he told me. Of course

The same Rowan that told

be like Emma or

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on with him? I question but don’t get

have believed if he told me that he would give up

has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how

doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1 were done.

takes over

exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never felt more

is what I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had

sound, because they both

calls, her voice catching. “How are you

eyes fill. I blink to try and push them back, but

you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so

can’t imagine how I’ve been dying to hear

More than you could ever imagine” dad

I bask in their warm embrace.

door opens

ready for discharge, Ava?” she

my baby was doing

the baby

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hold my son* I tell her smiling back at

me that he was with his parents I planned to

a second away from him because I knew today would have gone

nave been alive to see

once you’re done here” she instructs just before