Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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goes to say something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back to how things were

they all hated

why I would want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t this

their mistake and crawl begging for

to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of

trust their intentions.

again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other shoe to

cut him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave.

where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you have waited

It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years

always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is now with my children”

argue. I see it in his eyes as the

I still. Waiting for a

sags against his chair, before letting

alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice

would be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends

Before I can say or do anything. He leaves,

back. Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am not happy

to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when I

though you could tell

what he told me. Of course it’s hard

The same Rowan

or a

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him?

me that he would give

expect me to believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere and expect that

head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1 were done. It wasn’t my

too, exhaustion takes over

looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands

Rowan and the Sharps. The fact

must have made a sound, because

mom calls, her voice

eyes fill. I blink to try and

so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full

hear

girl. More than you could

let the tears fall as I bask

door opens

you ready for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling

my baby

baby in

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hold my son* I

me that he was with his parents I planned to pick him up on the way

from him because I knew today would have gone differently. If it

nave been alive to

Come to the reception once you’re done here” she instructs just before she