Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

85. His Unbelievable words

Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want

they all hated and

why I would want such a thing, right?

wanted? For them to realize their mistake and crawl begging for

used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go and forgive them.

part though, doesn’t trust

over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting

off. “I’m thankful that you

you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and you have

things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s time each of us found our

always been with Emma, and mine…well mine

argue. I see it in his eyes as

Waiting for a fight, but it

surprised when he sags against his chair, before

says in a

that would be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he

or do anything. He leaves, closing the

the hell

It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck

tell he didn’t

regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s

The same Rowan that told me I could never measure

Emma or a woman

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hell is going on with him? I question but

would have believed if he told me that he would give up

does he expect me to believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip

many questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn

exhaustion takes over

exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my

I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that

a sound,

mom calls, her voice catching. “How are you

eyes fill. I blink to try and push them back, but

you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice

I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom

girl. More than you could ever imagine” dad

I bask

the door opens

discharge, Ava?” she

me that my baby was doing fine. That the drugs

the baby

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and hold my son* I tell her smiling back at

told me that he was with his parents I planned to pick him up on

away from him because I knew today

alive

you’re done here” she instructs just before she