Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

and I should let it go,

than

comes from the other room,

say anything.

into the kitchen in a robe. Her hair is wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe leaves nothing to

tear it

are you doing here?” she ask, her face changing into an indifference

hate that too. She used to be so expressive, now I barely know what she’s feeling

“Rowan?” she calls again.

what to fucking tell her. How am I

wanted to see her.

out of here. Don’t forget to tell me when you’re leaving, dad” Noah breaks

atmosphere.

for us to say anything before he flees the room.

was talking about?” I ask standing

from me, but there is

one among your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I

She sasses. “Could you just leave? It’s

+15 BONUS

the many men who Noah seems to think are interested in becoming

care. Not when envy was boiling in my blood. Or bitterness was

with you? I don’t

as I walk closer

her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and abs. I harden when I

peaks of her breast.

was more than arousal. It was something else. Something

I still don’t let

being mindful of her

away, but I’m solid. She can’t move me.

because I couldn’t pull myself off her even if I’d wanted. She felt perfect

with her

a chance, Ava. Why would I when this is exactly where I want

I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we are getting

other thing, you will always be mine and I won’t let you

inside her brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock I

the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping

knew those words were going to come back to bite me

“Ava…”

+15 BONUS

Rowan? Because I just don’t get it. You yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman you want, so what the hell are you doing here? Why won’t you

me the hell aione?”

many things I want to tell her. To explain to her. The words

much” my voice turns soft and it shocks both

now? We were married for nine years. Nine fucking years. How then can you be

find the right

“This what?”

can you all of a sudden be interested in me

It’s just not making

explain something that I didn’t

came from or when they came

it too difficult to accept that I want you?”

for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now attracted to

It seems so farfetched.”

the tip on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been

I have

if you are attracted to me, it doesn’t