Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

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I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

and I should let it go, but

less than I did at

voice comes from the other room,

say anything.

hair is wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe leaves nothing to

to tear it from her

doing here?” she ask,

so expressive, now I

“Rowan?” she calls again.

to fucking tell her. How am I supposed to tell her that I missed her?

wanted to see her.

forget to tell me when you’re leaving, dad”

atmosphere.

us to say anything before he flees the room. Within seconds we are left

Noah was talking about?” I ask

backing away from

among your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off

about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you just leave? It’s late

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many men who Noah seems to think are interested in becoming

just didn’t care. Not when

is wrong with you? I don’t entertain any

faze me as I walk closer

her waist, I bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her

peaks of her breast.

than arousal. It was something else. Something much

hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t let her go. Instead I press closer

mindful of her

but I’m solid. She can’t

even if I’d wanted. She felt perfect in

with her like

Ava. Why would I when this is

not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks

be mine and I won’t let you whore yourself

burning inside her brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock

the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually want me. Men who aren’t thinking of the love of their fucking life while

back

“Ava…”

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yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never

me the hell aione?”

so many things I want to tell her. To explain to her. The words instead get stuck in my throat. I don’t know how to express my feelings to

So fucking much” my voice turns soft and it shocks

for nine years. Nine fucking

to find

“This what?”

be interested in

marriage? It’s just not making any

how can I explain something that I didn’t understand myself?

my feelings came from or when they came

that I want

is! You’ve hated me for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now

It seems so farfetched.”

on the tip on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been

feeling I have

if you are attracted