Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

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I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

make me jealous and I should let

my son less than I did

who was at the door?” her voice comes from the other

say anything.

wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I

tear it from her

you doing here?” she ask, her face

so expressive, now I barely know

“Rowan?” she calls again.

what to fucking tell her. How am I

wanted to see her.

forget to tell me when you’re leaving,

atmosphere.

for us to say anything before he

was talking about?” I

from me, but there

your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous

about.” She sasses. “Could you just

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can entertain one of the many men who Noah seems to

it. Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy was boiling in

I don’t entertain any man”

doesn’t faze me as I walk closer to

to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and

peaks of her breast.

felt was more than arousal. It was something else. Something much more

fucking hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t

mindful of

I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I

myself off her even if I’d wanted.

her like this

Ava. Why would I when this is exactly

you talking about? I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we are getting

I won’t let you whore yourself to other men when

hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock I release her.

I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually want me. Men who aren’t thinking of the

come back

“Ava…”

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while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be

me the hell aione?”

To explain to her. The words instead get

fucking much” my voice turns soft and it

Nine fucking years. How then

struggles to find the

“This what?”

interested in me when you’ve

just not

can I explain something that I didn’t understand myself? I

my feelings came from or when

it too difficult to accept that I

it is! You’ve hated me for so long, so yes,

It seems so farfetched.”

on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been

I

just confused. Even if you are attracted to