Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

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I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

it. I know he was trying to make me jealous and I should let it go, but

than I did

who was at the door?” her voice comes from

say anything.

is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe leaves nothing to the imagination

nothing but to tear

are you doing here?” she ask, her face changing

hate that too. She used to be so expressive, now I barely know what

“Rowan?” she calls again.

tell her. How am I

wanted to see her.

out of here. Don’t forget to tell me when you’re leaving,

atmosphere.

say anything before he flees the room. Within

man Noah was talking about?” I ask standing

tries backing away from me, but there is nowhere

among your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous

what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you

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that? Is it so you can entertain one of the many men who Noah seems to think are interested in becoming your new husband”

it. Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when

you? I don’t entertain any man” she

me as

her waist, I bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly

peaks of her breast.

It was something

hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t let her go. Instead I press closer

of her baby

solid. She can’t move me. Not

but because I couldn’t pull myself off her even if I’d wanted. She felt perfect in my arms.

with her like

this is exactly

I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we

thing, you will always be mine and I won’t let you whore yourself to other

eyes twitches. Fire burning inside her brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because

we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually want me. Men who aren’t thinking

going to come back to bite me in the fucking ass.

“Ava…”

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you want Rowan? Because I just don’t get it. You yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman you

me the hell aione?”

explain to her. The words instead get stuck in

Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns soft

We were married for nine years. Nine fucking years. How then can you

struggles to find

“This what?”

be interested in me

marriage? It’s just

me there, but how can I explain something that I

came from or when they came

to accept that I want you?”

it is! You’ve hated me for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that

It seems so farfetched.”

on my words. The name

feeling I

You’re just confused. Even if you are attracted to me, it doesn’t