Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

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I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

was trying to make me jealous and I should let it go, but I can’t.

less than

was at the door?” her voice comes from the other room, interrupting me before

say anything.

into the kitchen in a robe. Her hair is wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe

nothing but to tear it from her

ask, her face changing into an indifference

She used to be so expressive,

“Rowan?” she calls again.

don’t know what to fucking tell her. How am I supposed to

wanted to see her.

forget to tell me when

atmosphere.

to say anything before he flees the room. Within seconds we are left

about?” I ask standing up and getting close

man?” she tries backing away from me, but there is nowhere

suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I wanted her to my fucking self.

talking about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you just leave?

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can entertain one of the many men who Noah seems to think are

pushing it. Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy

is wrong with you? I don’t entertain any man”

faze me as I walk closer to

Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and abs. I harden when I feel the

peaks of her breast.

I felt was more than arousal. It was something else.

you fucking hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t let her go. Instead

of her

to push me away, but I’m solid. She can’t move

her even if I’d wanted. She felt perfect in

with her

chance, Ava. Why would I when this is exactly where I

the hell are you talking about? I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds

happy. About the other thing, you will always be mine and I

hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of

fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually

those words were going to come back to bite me in the fucking ass.

“Ava…”

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imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman you want, so what the hell

me the hell aione?”

want to tell her. To explain to her. The words instead get stuck in my throat. I don’t know how

Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns soft

were married for nine years. Nine fucking years. How then can you

struggles to find the right

“This what?”

of a sudden be interested in

just not making any sense.”

had me there, but how can I explain something that I didn’t understand myself?

my feelings came from or when they

difficult to accept that I want

yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now

It seems so farfetched.”

words. The name of the emotion I’ve been trying to

I have

if