Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

I know he was trying to make me jealous and I

my son less than I did

her voice comes from

say anything.

Her hair is wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe

but to tear it

are you doing here?” she ask, her face changing

used to be so expressive, now I barely know

“Rowan?” she calls again.

don’t know what to fucking tell her. How am I supposed to tell her that I

wanted to see her.

here. Don’t forget to tell me when you’re leaving, dad”

atmosphere.

he flees the room.

man Noah was talking about?” I

away from me, but there

turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I

what you’re talking about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you just leave?

+15 BONUS

the many men who Noah seems to think are interested

it. Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy was boiling in my blood. Or

with you? I don’t entertain any man” she whisper–shouts at

as I walk closer to

waist, I bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest

peaks of her breast.

I felt was more than arousal. It

still don’t let her go. Instead I press closer

mindful of her baby

I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I was stronger

off her even if I’d wanted.

her

Ava. Why would I when this

are you talking about? I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before

will be happy. About the other thing, you will always be mine and I won’t let you whore yourself to other

Fire burning inside her brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes

a fucking virgin when we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is

going to come back

“Ava…”

+15 BONUS

don’t get it. You yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman you want, so what the hell

me the hell aione?”

To explain to her. The words instead get stuck in

fucking much” my voice turns soft and it shocks both

nine years. Nine fucking years. How then

find the right

“This what?”

a sudden be interested in me when you’ve ignored me for

just not making

explain something that I didn’t understand myself?

came from or when they came

accept that I want

it is! You’ve hated me for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe

It seems so farfetched.”

the tip on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been trying to figure

feeling I have

leave Rowan. You’re just confused. Even if you are attracted