Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

make me jealous and I should let it go, but

my son less than

the door?” her voice comes from

say anything.

from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it into words. The robe

nothing but to tear it

you doing here?” she ask, her face changing into an

be so expressive, now I barely know what

“Rowan?” she calls again.

How am I supposed to tell her that I missed her? That

wanted to see her.

me when you’re leaving, dad” Noah

atmosphere.

he flees

man Noah was talking about?” I ask

she tries backing away from me, but there is nowhere

among your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I wanted her to my fucking

he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you just leave? It’s

+15 BONUS

men who Noah seems to think are interested in becoming your new

her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy was

with you? I don’t entertain

faze me as I walk closer to

hands around her waist, I bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and abs.

peaks of her breast.

It was something else. Something much more

she shrieks but I still don’t let her go. Instead I

being mindful of her baby

but I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I

myself off her even if I’d wanted.

with her like this

this is

never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we are getting back

and I won’t let you whore yourself to other men when

hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock

all, I was a fucking virgin when we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually want me. Men

were going to come back to bite me in the

“Ava…”

+15 BONUS

Rowan? Because I just don’t get it. You yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman you want, so what

me the hell aione?”

are so many things I want to tell her. To explain to her. The words instead get stuck in my throat. I

want you, Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns soft and it shocks

We were married for nine years. Nine fucking years.

to find

“This what?”

of a sudden be interested in me

just not making any sense.”

can I explain something that I didn’t

came from or

difficult to accept that I want you?” I

so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that you

It seems so farfetched.”

words were on the tip on my words. The name of the

I have

confused. Even if you are