Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

jealous and I should let it go, but I can’t. I have

son less than I

who was at the door?” her voice comes from

say anything.

Her hair is wet and her face is free from makeup. She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t put it

but to tear it from

ask,

She used to be so expressive, now I barely

“Rowan?” she calls again.

know what to fucking tell her. How am I supposed to tell her that I missed her? That

wanted to see her.

me

atmosphere.

doesn’t wait for us to say anything before he flees the

Noah was talking about?” I

she tries backing away from me, but there is

voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I

or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could you just leave? It’s late at night and you shouldn’t

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entertain one of the many men who Noah seems to think are

her, but I just didn’t care. Not when

I don’t entertain any man” she whisper–shouts

as I

bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and abs. I harden when I feel

peaks of her breast.

was more than arousal. It was something else. Something

but I still don’t let her go. Instead I press closer to

being mindful of her baby

but I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I was

I couldn’t pull myself off her even if I’d wanted. She

with her like

Why would I when this is exactly where I want

never been yours. Now let me

I won’t let you whore yourself to other men when you fucking belong

twitches. Fire burning inside her brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock

virgin when we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding

to come back

“Ava…”

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you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for

me the hell aione?”

are so many things I want to tell her. To explain to her. The words instead get

Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns soft and it

Nine fucking years. How

find

“This what?”

of a sudden be interested in me when you’ve ignored me for

just

I explain something that I

came from or when they came to

that I want you?” I ask

is! You’ve hated me for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now attracted to

It seems so farfetched.”

the tip on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been trying to

feeling I have for

if you are