Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

trying to make me jealous and I should let

than I did at

at the door?” her voice comes from the other room, interrupting

say anything.

makeup. She looks so damn

but to tear it from her

doing here?” she ask, her face changing into

used to be so expressive, now I

“Rowan?” she calls again.

I supposed to tell her that I missed her?

wanted to see her.

here. Don’t forget to tell me when you’re leaving,

atmosphere.

say anything before he flees

the man Noah was talking about?” I ask standing

tries backing away from me, but

one among your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I wanted her to my

you’re talking about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could

+15 BONUS

it so you can entertain one of the many men who Noah

Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy was boiling in my blood. Or bitterness

don’t entertain

doesn’t faze me as I

my hands around her waist, I bring her closer to me. I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my chest and

peaks of her breast.

It was something else. Something much more

fucking hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t let

mindful of her baby

but I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I was stronger

couldn’t pull myself off her even if I’d wanted. She

her

would I when this is

yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we are getting back

be mine and I won’t let you whore yourself

brown orbs. I don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise, so because of the shock I

a fucking virgin when we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who actually want me. Men who

were going to come back to

“Ava…”

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Emma. You told I was just

me the hell aione?”

are so many things I want to tell her. To explain to her. The words instead

want you, Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns soft and it

for nine years. Nine fucking years. How

struggles to find the

“This what?”

How can you all of a sudden be interested in

marriage? It’s just not making any

had me there, but how can I explain something that I didn’t understand myself?

came from or when they came

too difficult to accept that I want you?” I ask

for so long, so yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now attracted

It seems so farfetched.”

The name of the emotion I’ve been

feeling I

Even if you are