Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

415 BONUS

I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

it. I know he was trying to make me jealous and I should let it go, but I can’t. I

than I did at that

who was at the door?” her voice comes from the other room, interrupting me before

say anything.

She looks so damn beautiful that I can’t

nothing but to tear it from her

here?” she ask, her face changing

too. She used to be so expressive, now

“Rowan?” she calls again.

How am I supposed to tell her that I missed

wanted to see her.

to tell me when you’re leaving, dad” Noah breaks through

atmosphere.

for us to say anything before he flees the room. Within seconds we are left

Noah was talking about?” I ask standing up and getting close

man?” she tries backing away from me, but there

voice turns hard. I was jealous and pissed off because I wanted her to my fucking self.

talking about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could

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you can entertain one of the many men who Noah

care. Not when envy was boiling in my blood.

with you? I don’t entertain any man”

as I walk

every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to my

peaks of her breast.

than arousal. It was something else. Something

she shrieks but I still don’t let her go. Instead I press closer

being mindful of

but I’m solid. She can’t move me. Not only because I was stronger

because I couldn’t pull myself off her even if I’d

her

Ava. Why would I when this is exactly where I want you?

hell are you talking about? I’m not yours. I’ve never been yours. Now let me go before Noah finds us like this and thinks we are

be mine and I won’t let you whore yourself

don’t see her hand move. The punch comes as a surprise,

First of all, I was a fucking virgin when we slept together for the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and nothing is holding me back from sleeping with men who

words were going to come back

“Ava…”

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just don’t get it. You yourself told me that you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object for scratching an itch. That I would never be the woman

me the hell aione?”

The words instead

much” my voice turns soft and it

now? We were married for nine years. Nine fucking years. How then can

struggles to find the

“This what?”

can you all of a sudden be interested in me when

It’s just not making any sense.”

can I explain something that

or

accept that I

for so long, so yes,

It seems so farfetched.”

my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been trying to figure

I have

just confused. Even if you are attracted to me, it doesn’t