Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

90. Late Realizations.

Rowan.

I stare at the door, wondering what the hell I was doing here. I should give Ava her space, but fuck it. I can’t seem to stay away from her. I’m drawn to her in a way I can’t fucking explain.

Knocking, I wait rather impatiently for the door to be opened. A minute later, the door opens

revealing Noah.

“Dad” he throws himself at him and I catch him. “I thought I would have to wait till Saturday to

see you”

I hug him close to me. Feeling myself relax and melt. “Hey buddy”

How could I ever have hated Ava? I wonder. She gave me the best gift when she gave birth to Noah. I should have appreciated her then instead of punishing her. The night I thought was the

worst night of my life, brought about the best gift I could have gotten.

I didn’t see it then because I had my head so up my ass I couldn’t see straight. My eyes are opened

now. I see it so fucking clearly. Ava was right. I used to regret that night not realizing that without

there wouldn’t be Noah and no matter what, I would never regret my son.

that night happening

“Come in. Mom is in the shower. She said she needed to soak her tired, aching bones.” He informs

1. me. “I’m having my dinner and there is enough. You can have some if you haven’t eaten dinner

yet”

He leads me into the kitchen. He gets on the stool and resumes eating after pointing to the food. I

shamelessly take a plate and pile food on it.

I didn’t appreciate it when we were married. Taking the small things for granted. I admit that I’ve missed her cooking.

“So…Mom is a real catch” Noah begins making, me turn to him.

“Yes” I agree, not really sure where he was going with this.

“A lot of good looking guys want her…just a few days ago there was a man here who’d come to visit her. I wonder who’ll get her as his wife” he says it so casually, but I see the smirk he is trying to hide.

“What man?”

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I try to contain the jealousy, but it’s fucking hard. The need to scream that Ava is mine is intense. “I don’t remember his name, but mom said that he was her new friend” the smirk is still in place as he say that “He was scary looking but I liked him, now I don’t know who I like better for mom. Him or Uncle Cal. He had tattoos which Uncle Cal doesn’t and from what I know women dig tattoos

and abs

I glare at him, but he just chuckles

it. I know he was trying to make me jealous and I should let it

than I did at that

at the door?” her voice comes from the other room, interrupting

say anything.

and her face is free from makeup. She

but to tear it from

here?” she ask, her face

used to be so expressive, now

“Rowan?” she calls again.

her. How am I supposed to tell her that I missed her? That I

wanted to see her.

of here. Don’t forget to tell me

atmosphere.

wait for us to say anything before he flees the

about?” I ask standing

from

your many suitors” my voice turns hard. I was jealous

don’t know what you’re talking about or what he was talking about.” She sasses. “Could

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you can entertain one of the many men who Noah seems to think are interested in becoming

it. Pushing her, but I just didn’t care. Not when envy was boiling in my blood. Or bitterness was clouding

wrong with you? I don’t entertain any man”

me as

I feel every inch of her body. Her belly and her breast are pressed close to

peaks of her breast.

It

fucking hands off me” she shrieks but I still don’t let her go.

mindful of her baby

She can’t move me. Not only because I

off her even if I’d wanted. She felt perfect in my arms.

stay with her

this is exactly where I want

been yours. Now let me go before Noah

About the other thing, you will always be mine and I won’t let you

I don’t see her hand move. The

the first time in case you’ve forgotten. Second, I can fuck whoever I want. I am a free woman and

to come back to bite me

“Ava…”

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you slept with me while imagining Emma. You told I was just an object

me the hell aione?”

explain to her. The words instead get stuck in my throat. I don’t know how to

Ava. So fucking much” my voice turns

nine years. Nine fucking years. How

find

“This what?”

all of a sudden be interested in me when you’ve ignored me for the

of our marriage? It’s just

there, but how can I explain something that

my feelings came from or when they came

difficult to accept that I

so yes, it’s hard to believe that you are now attracted

It seems so farfetched.”

on my words. The name of the emotion I’ve been

I have for

just confused. Even if you