Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

110. His confession

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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over

in their house,

a knock on my

it wasn’t another

Fuck I’d forgotten that

was the least of my

asks, shoving his hands inside his

Again, this was something I wasn’t used to when

I tell him

note arriving while

me

“What?” I ask.

would put

in or not?”

look before he enters my house.

is watching

that sometimes it terrifies me. The sooner

better for my

few weeks ago because it helped relieve my back pain. I

mattress because it made my back pain

to talk to me about?” I stare into

Noah?”

before

he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was he even talking about,

You seem to be forgetting that

want to do this with him. Not when I had

listen to me, please,” he pleads, his

know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought into it. Instead,

to find the right words. The more he takes his time,

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you, he finally

drops open, and I gape at him like a fish out of water. He wasn’t

out and feel his

a fever? Or maybe I just didn’t

He grabs my hand, turns it, and kisses my palm

with you or how, all I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing

me. This all seems like a dream. It’s like I am in a completely different world right

never loved me. Emma is your one and only

in his eyes. I feel bad for him, but I know that maybe he’s just confused

make sense. How can he be in love with me

not listening to me Ava” he says

until a few months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for years, and now all of a sudden, you want me to

back up, but I force it down. I have no

heartache.

regret hurting you, but if you could only give me

you again and that I’ll heal