Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

110. His confession

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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

mom,” Noah says as he

in their house,

and not even a minute later, there is a

wasn’t

and find Rowan Fuck I’d forgotten that we were supposed

the talk was the

asks, shoving his hands inside

was something I wasn’t used to when it came

him while scanning the

thing I needed was a note arriving

me a

“What?” I ask.

thought you would put up a

to come in or not?” I ask in

last look before he enters my house. Without waiting too

is watching

over the past few days that sometimes it terrifies me. The sooner

the better for my

I bought it a few weeks ago because it helped relieve my back pain. I even

change my mattress because it made my back

to me about?” I stare

Noah?”

before

him, confused, wondering if he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was he even talking about, for

You seem to be forgetting

him. Not when I had so much going

please,”

stops me. I don’t know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought into it. Instead, I

he were struggling to find the right words. The more he takes his time,

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you, he finally

I gape at him like a fish out of water. He wasn’t seated that far

feel his forehead for

fever? Or maybe I just didn’t

He grabs my hand, turns it, and kisses my palm in a really gentle

In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing you in pain or hurt destroys me every time. It has taken me time to realize that I’m in love with you, but here I am, begging you to give me a chance to show you the love you deserved from

watch completely stunned, as he gets out of the chair and kneels before me. This all seems

never loved me. Emma is your one and only love. She’s the one that has your heart, remember?”

bad for him, but I

sense. How can he be in love with me when

he says

am; you’re the one that’s confused, Rowan. How can you be in love with me now? You’ve hated me up until a few months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for years, and now all of a sudden,

force it down. I have no time or energy to feel

heartache.

and you’ll never know how much I regret hurting you, but if you could

you again and that I’ll heal the wounds I caused.” He whispers brokenly,