Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

112. Anxious heart

Rowan

“Sir? Is there anything you need me to get for you from the restaurant?” My secretary asks, but I continue

staring outside my office window.

The view was really great. It was one of the reasons why I chose it, but today it didn’t offer me the

tranquility it usually does.

“No. Not today,” I answer without looking at her.

“Okay then, I’ll be back in thirty minutes”

I don’t answer her and after a few seconds I hear the door closing. I sigh in frustration. For some reason

the feeling of foreboding clung to me. It surrounded me in waves. Today more so than the previous days.

I don’t know what it is, but my heart is anxious. I can’t settle nor can I fucking focus. It’s like my soul is

trying to tell me something, but I can’t figure out what.

Trying to distract myself, I think about Ava and our talk. I get her. Damn do I get her hesitation. I’ve spent

more than ten years drilling into her that Emma was the only woman I’ll ever love.

I did everything in my power to show her just how little I cared for her. I’ve spent nine years punishing her

for something that was beyond her control. I drilled into her head that I hated her with every fiber of my

being.

How then could I turn around and claim to love her?

It’s frustrating as hell, but I understand her. I understand her reluctance to believe me. If the roles had

been switched I wouldn’t have believed it so easily.

Apart from all that, I also have to consider the pain I’ve caused her. Nine years of pain and mistreatment isn’t something you get over within a day or week. Hell. It will probably take years to heal the wounds i

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scars will remain with her though and considering the damage I caused, I can’t help

she’ll ever forgive me.

life with her. I crave that more than anything, but if she doesn’t take me back, then let it be so. I’ll have no one to blame but

caused

focus on her. To focus on her beautiful face and tactics I could use

before. Never had this unshakable feeling like something bad was going to happen. I try to assure myself, but it doesn’t work. I stand

crazy.

care. Not when I feel like my fucking

It was better than listening to my own

opened. I turn to find Gabe. He looked like hell froze over. He was breathing heavily, his eyes

anguish in them.

usually impeccable and not easily fazed. We share that trait as twins. If he looks anything other than that then something serious must be

is it?” I ask as my

it our parent’s? Maybe

but doesn’t finish his sentence. His voice

Tell me what’s wrong. Is it

see him swallow, before his eyes

he finally

ask him what’s wrong with Ava when an

in the direction of the

it, focus on me” My brother begs me,

the hell the reporters have to

BREAKING NEWS.

headlines written in big,

The Hope Foundation was today gunned down by unknown people. We are yet to know the state she’s in, but the gunman opened fire to what seems to be a hit targeted at her. The video you’re about to watch maybe

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have prepared me to watching the woman I love

multiple times

as she was walking out of an ice cream shop. Her eyes were

on her face. Whoever took the video captured

Just before the drove past her, a masked person, rolled

shooting several times. They sped past her, leaving Ava to crumble on the ground in

pool of blood

the presenter

to establish why these gangsters would shoot a pregnant woman, but

find out.”

but that doesn’t concern me. My focus was Ava. I couldn’t erase the image of

his voice but

so fucking broken I felt lost. My heart was fractured

How am I supposed to survive if something happens