Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0193

+15 BONUS

“I honestly don’t wish to be in your shoes” Gabe whistles and I glare at him. “But you still haven’t

answered me I want to know when it happened. When did you fall for her?”

don’t know. I can’t pinpoint the exact time. Maybe it happened when we were still married, or maybe it’s

a recent thing. All I know is that I love her now.”

I run my hand through my hair. I was frustrated and F***ing scared. What a lousy time to realize you

someone!

love

7 think it was always there. Probably came after Noah was born. I also think you didn’t allow yourself to love her because you held on to the memory of Emma. She was your first love, so you assumed she was your true love. You can’t live with someone for nine years and not feel a thing for them. I know you, Ro. You wouldn’t even have touched her if you didn’t feel something for her.”

“Sex is a biological process. I just got what I needed from her while still hating her. I am ashamed to say there were times I imagined she was Emma.” I tell him, feeling sick to the core at how I treated her.

“Really? Did you imagine you were F***ing Emma because you missed her or because you needed something to hold you back? Something that would guard you from enjoying the intimacy between you and Ava because you felt that enjoying S** with her would be a betrayal to the memories of Emma that you held on to for dear life?”

I sit on the stool completely dumbfounded. I never thought about it like that. I admit I was attracted to her, otherwise, how would I explain how the hell I was able to get it up and going? Maybe Gabe was right, and I used Emma as an escape from what I truly felt for Ava.

In my head, I had already betrayed the love of my life once; how then could I betray her over and over again by sleeping with and enjoying Ava’s b*dy? It all made sense in my head then, but now I’m starting to realize that Emma was never the love of my F***ing life.

“Fuck. I messed up big time,” I holler, feeling like a crashing weight was on my shoulders.

“Do you love Emma?” he asks and shake my head in a no.

the love you

for a

back, I thought that it would be our second chance at love. It took a while to realize that it felt all kinds of wrong. I didn’t even allow her to k*ss me for F***s sake. That should have been my first clue that

the rage 1 felt every time Imagined Ava and

It took seeing her happy with another man to bring forth the love you suppressed. You held on to Emma because of the way things ended abruptly between the two of you. None of you got any closure. That’s why

and F*** does it make sense, but it doesn’t help my case. So much damage has already been done. I said words I could never take back. Did things that will forever be

going to do?” he asks me after

and she can get any man she wants. There are already some who are sniffing around

is to stop her from falling in love with

intelligent, caring, kind, and loving. She has a heart of gold, and she loves fiercely. Any man would

Any woman who is capable of making a man change his ways is a F***ing saint. I was a F***ing idiot for not realizing

the shoulder. “I’m sure you’ll figure it out. I’m positive

myself as he was in me, because deep down I know I don’t

Chapter 0193

+15 BONUS

“But you still haven’t answered me. I want to know when it happened. When did you

when we were still married, or maybe it’s a recent thing. All I know

I was frustrated and F***ing scared. What a lousy time to

you assumed she was your true love. You can’t live with someone for nine years and

got what I needed from her while still hating her. I am ashamed to say there were times I imagined she was Emma.” I tell him, feeling

Did you imagine you were F***ing Emma because you missed her or because you needed something to hold you back? Something that would guard you from enjoying the intimacy between you and Ava because you felt that enjoying S** with her would be a betrayal to the memories of Emma that you held

like that. I admit I was attracted to her, otherwise, how would I explain how the hell I

how then could I betray her over and over again by sleeping with and enjoying Ava’s b*dy? It all made sense in my head then, but now I’m starting to

feeling like a crashing weight was on

love Emma?” he asks and shake my head

love you had for

about it for a minute before

I thought that it would be our second chance at love. It took a while to realize that it felt all kinds of wrong. I didn’t even allow her to k*ss me for F***s sake. That should have been my first clue

+15 BONUS

every time imagined