Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0202

Rowan.

My feet hit the pavement as I run. I usually run in the morning, but today I decided otherwise. It was around seven in the evening, and I needed this run.

I speed up, feeling my muscles burn. I wanted to outrun my guilt. Wanted to outrun my heartache. I wanted to outrun my F***ing foolishness.

The guilt of how much I had hurt Ava was eating me alive. Destroying me from the inside out. I haven’t

been able to face her since I discovered my feelings for her.

I look at myself in the mirror, and all I see is a despicable human being. I am disgusted by my actions.

Disgusted by all that I did to her.

I thought I was a good man. The kind that loves fiercely. I was always proud of myself for holding on to my love for Emma. I thought it meant that my feelings for her were true. What I didn’t realize was that while doing that, I was hurting the woman I actually loved.

“Fuck!” I curse myself and the world.

did I

a few miles from my house. I don’t have time to slow down because once I do, my demons will be

what I said to her, but it hurt her pretty badly. I remember her eyes shutting down in pain as she told me she hated me. I scoffed. Not knowing that I would one day crave the

Now everything is F***ed up

am pulled

caller’s ID. My breaths coming in

me! Noah shouts in

the phone, but I haven’t been by to see him.

buddy. How are

I’m super excited,” he

even though part of me thinks that I

got you in such a

sense of peace. Right now, he was my lifeline because I felt like I was drowning. Like I

remember my best friend Gunner?” he

“Yeah”

and she agreed.

wanted to cheer him up, so I talked to mon We’re going to an amusement park tomorrow. Mom, me, Gunner and his dad,”

of having another man

but I honestly don’t think I can let her

ask, my voice