Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0221

The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later, but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let him k*ss

me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the k*ss. I wanted him to take it further. I

can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little bit. I

promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t you

think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out of the

mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop thinking about the damn k*ss. For heaven’s sake, why the hell did this k*ss affect me so much? I just don’t F***ing get it, honestly.

I groan in frustration, wishing I could erase the feel of his l*ps on mine.

“What’s got you so frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so much that I let go of the eggs I was holding.

*Jeez, Cal, you scared the living day lights out of me,” I say with my hand pressing hard on my beating heart.

“Sorry,” he grins. “I thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t really get inside quietly.”

them munching on the cookies

I was just a little bit

face. “Are you still

lie, but he didn’t

thing.

for breakfast, mom?”

up”

fist up in the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having all your favorite breakfast

once

him. So happy that he is happy. I’m hoping that one day Emma

with Gunner

“Are you

done?” Noah asks. I’m so

of her ways and

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a few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go

up?”

say at the same time, before

from me and proceeds to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry I

we should have given you more time to

they wanted your breakfast.”

cook. He just didn’t make it like I

I would have finished cooking and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big deal,” I tell him

holding up, all things considered?” I

like a dirty secret. After my grandfather died, I had no one until Gunner was bom. I didn’t mind it being just the

people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well,

of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me

right to keep

morning.

excuse myself and

is it?” I ask

“There was