Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than S**.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan F***ed up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell me

before I tell him everything. I couldn’t F***ing hold it inside.

to the brink of

sits patiently and listen until I’m done. He doesn’t judge

until I’m finished.

dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has to give because I’m at

me like you still jealous of Ethan,” he says after a

give him the dirtiest glare I can master. “That’s already

Ethan is in prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of consolation?”

hand in frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining it to him

insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll also want to know the man

finally figures

afraid she’ll fall for Ethan all over

Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all

that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love her so F***ing much.’m just afraid of

her, is the fact that Ethan is in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him to be released. Twenty

loyalty knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when I treated her like shit, do you think if she falls for him,

because he’s in prison?”

his head and sighs. “You’re

I exhale in disappointment.

time and focus on showing her your heart. Love her so much, that

he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s

ease the worry from my heart. Feeling like a F***ing boulder has been

shoulders.

I was starting to relax until my

answer without looking at the caller

there’s been

voice immediately and

“What happened?”

he says instead. “Ava has been rushed to the

going

Chapter 0282

Rowan

get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been

Ethan.

F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought

falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly

that she had started seeing

didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction

it out.

‘what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the love she had for me be replaced

over me

was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her

Ethan F***ed up.

me

confusion, wondering when the hell he got

hear him enter my

the papers that were in front of me before pushing them

before my desk.

five minutes.”

to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days,

the woman for almost a

to her like and addict’s

I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do

there is no F***ing

on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way

hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve

up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the

fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun

“Rowan”

face my brother. “I don’t even know where

to take a guess and assume this about

hand through my hair, messing it up

“Yes”