Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than S**.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan F***ed up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell

I tell him everything. I couldn’t F***ing hold it inside. Not when it

me to the

does, he sits patiently and listen until I’m done. He doesn’t judge

until I’m finished.

while staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m F***ing dying

you still jealous of Ethan,”

glare I can master. “That’s already

don’t understand… Ethan is in prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t

try explaining it to him

know that, but I also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her

he finally figures out where my

fall for Ethan all over

about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed her, but he

what I would do if that happens. That possibility scares

think she would wait for

mean come on, she continued to love me even when I treated her like shit,

because he’s in prison?”

and sighs.

I exhale in disappointment.

continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on showing her your heart. Love her so much, that the thought of leaving you breaks

with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I can do is love her with everything I’ve

my heart. Feeling like a F***ing boulder has been lifted from

shoulders.

relax until my phone started

I answer without looking

been an

recognize Theo’s voice immediately and begin to tense

“What happened?”

he says

am going

Chapter 0282

Rowan

that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What

Ethan.

blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was

for him hurt more than knowing that she had

started seeing

that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into

it out.

of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for

over me right

insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had

Ethan F***ed up.

jolts me back to

at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell

didn’t hear him enter

papers that were in

my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention

five minutes.”

What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every

a decade, and she

her like and addict’s

inside me that I couldn’t fish her out

mine, and there is no F***ing

have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way

F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never

walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons

located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also

“Rowan”

my brother. “I don’t

to take a guess and

hand through my hair,

“Yes”