Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than S**.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan F***ed up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell me anything… So what’s

I tell him everything. I couldn’t F***ing hold

to the brink of

listen

until I’m finished.

after I’m done while staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m F***ing dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has

jealous of Ethan,” he says

dirtiest glare I can

Ethan is in prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of consolation?”

Exhaling. I try explaining

going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll also want

figures out where

afraid she’ll fall for Ethan all over again,

the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He

that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love her so

is the fact that Ethan is in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him to be released. Twenty one years is

are talking about…her love and loyalty knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when I treated her

because he’s in prison?”

and sighs. “You’re right”

I exhale in disappointment.

continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on showing

nothing else I could do, so he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the

relax and ease the worry from my heart. Feeling like a F***ing boulder has been

shoulders.

starting to relax

I answer without looking at the

there’s been an

recognize Theo’s voice immediately and

“What happened?”

at the hospital?” he says instead. “Ava has been rushed to the

going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling

Ethan.

though I hated the relationship Ava had with

fact that she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing

know that she had started seeing a

felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had

it out.

if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the

me

the only F***ing

Ethan F***ed up.

me back to the

confusion, wondering when the hell

I didn’t hear him

that were in front of

across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying

five minutes.”

past couple of days, and it’s all

woman for almost a decade, and she has never had

addicted to her like and addict’s favorite

that I couldn’t fish her out even if I

is no F***ing way I’m

on your mind,” he looks

do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava,

to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One

the whole city from here. There is also the fact

“Rowan”

turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where

guess and assume

my hand through my hair, messing it

“Yes”