Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than S**.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan F***ed up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

know you can tell me

only a second before I tell him everything. I couldn’t F***ing hold it inside. Not when

the brink

listen until I’m done.

until I’m finished.

my chair after I’m done while staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m F***ing dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he

jealous of Ethan,” he says

him the dirtiest glare I can master. “That’s already

with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give

frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining

I also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only

eyes pin mine as he finally figures out where my issue

she’ll fall for Ethan all

clean. There is no hidden agenda and Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed her, but he didn’t hurt her

scares me

prison. I don’t think she would wait for him

I mean come on, she continued to love me even when

because he’s in prison?”

shakes his head and sighs. “You’re

I exhale in disappointment.

continues. “Just take it one day at a time and

else I could do, so he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I can do is love her

and ease the worry from my heart. Feeling like a F***ing boulder has been lifted

shoulders.

I was starting to relax until my

without looking

there’s been

immediately and begin

“What happened?”

you please meet us at the hospital?” he says

am going

Chapter 0282

Rowan

I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What

Ethan.

that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was

fact that she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she

started seeing a

masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to

it out.

Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have

over me

driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason

Ethan F***ed up.

jolts me back to the

hell he

hear him enter my

the papers that were in

across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your

five minutes.”

don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my

was married to the woman for almost a decade, and

like and

so deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I

is

on your mind,” he

is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the

window. I stare

whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun

“Rowan”

brother. “I don’t even know where

a guess and

my hair,

“Yes”