Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my F***ing heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than S**.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan F***ed up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so F***ing hard. How do I tell him that I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

tell me

tell him everything. I couldn’t F***ing hold

the brink of

he sits patiently and listen until

until I’m finished.

F***ing dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has to give because I’m at my

you still jealous of Ethan,” he says after a

him the dirtiest glare I

Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of

fist my hand in frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining

she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to

eyes pin mine as he finally figures out where my issue is

she’ll fall for Ethan all over

Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed her, but he didn’t hurt her as much as

happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love her so F***ing much.’m

the fact that Ethan is in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him to be released.

loyalty knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when I treated her

because he’s in prison?”

shakes his head and sighs. “You’re

I exhale in disappointment.

this” he continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on showing her your heart. Love her so much, that

she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I can do is love her with everything I’ve

from my heart. Feeling like a F***ing boulder

shoulders.

relax until my

without looking

been an

immediately and begin

“What happened?”

he

I am going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love

Ethan.

almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was

falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It

know that she had started seeing a future with the

the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for

it out.

me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would

over me

was driving me insane knowing that the only F***ing reason that

Ethan F***ed up.

me back

stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into

I didn’t hear

the papers that were in front

the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your

five minutes.”

past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my F***ing mind

a decade, and she has

like

fish her out even if

mine, and there is no F***ing way I’m leaving

have a lot on your mind,” he looks at

I am so F***ing insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that

stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was

floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact

“Rowan”

face my brother. “I don’t even know where to

take a guess and assume

through my hair, messing it up

“Yes”